Okay this is a rare occasion for me to blog about my dream which I had last night. It was such a beautiful beautiful weird dream that makes me not wanting to wake up from it HAHA. But at the same time it made me smile without stopping when I woke up. It's a dream of reminiscent and a dream of everyone's (?) wish of flying hahaha.
Anyway yeah I dreamed that we went to climb Mt Kinabalu again! But it could be called a nightmare too? Because in the dream I actually forgot to bring my outer shell, my base layer and my additional sweater. Alright here's the chronology.
(Plays Inception OST)
The dream began with us walking (just like the trek to Laban Rata) but this time it was on a road. It was then I realised that I have so many things missing. So I told Kai Xuan that I need to buy a base layer (in the dream it wasn't that cold so I thought base layer is enough whut). We went to a shop that sells it for 200 Ringgit and Kai bought one cause she says it's cute. I didn't cause well during the trip itself, I didn't have any cash with me (for real, and it's not fun).
We reached "Laban Rata" which seems more like a "climbers village" haha and were given free time there. So Jordan, Alvin and I actually went to explore a bit. There was a festival going on below so we went to check it out. Jordan said he wants to meet a friend while Alvin explored too. And this is when I found out that I can actually fly!
So I fly back to our "Laban Rata" and turned out the festival was located near my house in Indonesia and behind my house was the Singapore Night Festival (oh dear). When I reached our hut I didn't dare to tell Helmi and the rest that I didn't have an outer shell so I decided to lie to them telling them that I wanna go around town (like we have the time -_-) to look for food. Then suddenly Xinyi was like "okay guys we're going to the peak now don't forget your passport" And I freaked out. Also, I didn't tell them that I could actually fly.
I tried flying but them my dream ended. However it was such a nice dream :')
This feels like yesterday
When I woke up I just couldn't stop smiling and told myself that climbing Mt Kinabalu was definitely the greatest adventure trip that I've ever had. Something definitely I can never forget. Although well I think I only remember 80% of the whole trip now, bits and pieces of snippets from my memories. It is still an awesome trip I had with a great team.
I don't know when else I will climb a mountain although I definitely will. And also, I want to climb Mt Kinabalu once again with my DSLR.
Memories, light the corners of my life.
Thanks Chloe for taking this pic. Loving the ice on top of my head gear
And of course, I'm glad to have made it to the top with all of you
Hi everyone! It's been quite long since I last wrote here (as usual T.T) but anyway here I am and yup, it's Saturday once again! My writing day (or should I say night) or even... It's Sunday already but oh well whatever it is. I'm here now! Well life's been alright I guess. The long Hari Raya holiday has come to an end so it's back to work I suppose.
And... Can't believe that August is coming to an end very soon too. It's like 6 more days to its end!
Well I began today's post with a lyric video of Avicii's song Wake Me Up (featuring Aloe Blacc). Fell in love with it the first time I heard its premiere video in Youtube and well after giving it a proper listen like 2 weeks ago I think, I found out that this song is how I'm feeling these days. Or even these months. Or probably, I feel that this song speaks for us - the people who are in their twenties. Or probably early twenties when they're leaving their child-hood stage.
I suppose I'll share with you my views on this song by dissecting its lyric to explain how I feel?
Feeling my way through the darkness, guided by a beating heart.
I think that this line speaks about the uncertainties that we're facing. Be it after we graduated and stuff. The darkness refer to the uncertainty of the future while the beating heart refers to what we want to do in life. That voice from within to chase our dreams and do what we love. Despite how everything around you makes you doubt your decision.
They tell me I'm too young to understand, they say I'm caught up in a dream.
Same as above, where everyone tells you that what you're doing is wrong and stuff. They doubt you and choose what seems like a better option to you (although of course it doesn't work for you, because that's not what you want to do).
Life will pass me by if I don't open up my eyes
You only live once and you know it. But then you start to get confused on the decision of doing what you love, and doing what you "have" to do.
[I'm skipping the chorus for later]
I tried carrying the weight of the world. But I only have two hands.
When you realise that you've grown up, that you're an adult now, that's when shit just got real. Things happen to you and you feel overwhelmed by these new things. Responsibilities, life as an adult, leaving school and entering the workforce and so on. You feel them as a burden, something you can't bear with your two hands, let alone your shoulders.
Hope I get the chance to travel the world. But I don't have any plans.
Of course, the twenties is when life gets interesting and fun. The age where you travel around with your friends when you are young. Imagine traveling with your partners and children, things will be so different. This is the age we hope and dream to travel around the world but truth be told, we say it more often than we actually plan it. I guess traveling is an excuse or more of an escapism for us from the reality. I mean who doesn't love traveling. Well I know some people don't. But yeah hell I love traveling.
So wake me up when it's all over. When I'm wiser and I'm older All this time I was finding myself and I didn't know I was lost.
The chorus of the song touches my heart the most. Like seriously. I guess it's because that's what I told myself sometimes. I wish I can skip this part of life - the growing up and settling down part. I wish I can just close my eyes and wake up tomorrow knowing I'm like in my 50s or 60s, retired and enjoying my life. But then of course, I realise if that happened I would have missed a lot of exciting things in life so well, not really a wise decision.
As for the second sentence, I think that's how we all feel. Whenever we finish a chapter in our lives we feel really brand new and reborn kinda thing. Feel like we've passed a chapter and we're in the conquest of writing the next one. Only to realise either you don't know how to write the new one, or you're confused to write the new one, or worst, you write a new one filled with rubbish scramblings you don't even understand. So yeah.
Well so yeah I guess this is why I feel this song is such a suitable one for us, the people in their early twenties. Being lost in the world as we step out of academia - of the place we called school and entered to what finally we know as, life. So please, people, if you're in universities now, treasure your life and your time well because it is when you step out of it that shit will get real. Enjoy your time as a student! And try to complain less of how much you hate school.
I guess the twenties is the age where we're all confused of what to do. Unless for that handful of individuals who truly know what they want to do in life and hang onto them since they're young lads. To put it in a way, the twenties is the age where we are caught in the middle between the things you want to do, things you have to do and for some people, things you promise to do.
But of course I'm not scaring you (younger folks) there because I seem to put the twenties in a scary light. No no no, it is not. It is also the fun and colourful age because we're young and our bodies let us do a lot of things we won't be able to do when we grow up (and old). This would probably be the most fun times of your life. And you will miss again, when you grow up.
Alright, that's all for me today. I think I should do more of this, like sharing you things that I love be it music, photos, places or food to revive my blog. Since most of the time I have nothing much to blog about. Okay till then, for now!
Hello hello again! I'm back from my holiday in Singapore and currently enjoying the "holiday" here before things get running once again hehe. Really had an enjoyable trip back to Singapore, my second home. Meeting with friends again, walking along the streets and of course spending some awesome time with my mum, sis and her boyfriend.
It was a nice 5 days (or more like 4 days 4 nights heh) and at first we all once thought that it's such a long duration. In fact too long for a holiday in Singapore. But anyway at the end of everything we feel that time flew by too quickly and we wish it could be longer haha. But time is time and time needs to move on. I know I enjoyed myself there so yep.
Spent a few hours meeting with different people and it's really nice to see them again. In fact on Saturday I met 3 groups of people consecutively and also... I had actually 4 meals in the day haha. Met Tacy and Sharon (thanks for the impromptu meet-up!) in the afternoon over cakes at Fruits Paradise. Then dinner with Candy, Vithya and Kai at Fosters, our favourite place. Ended the day with steamboat supper with Jeslyn, Adeline, Meng Fung, Weiqi and Neal! And I also bumped with Kian Tat and Angela :)
Glad to see you all again!
Boy I was damn full.
On Sunday there was nothing much but I went to catch Phantom of The Opera! It's such a great performance! From playing the theme song in my Anklung and Kulintang Ensemble in primary school, to playing Music of The Night on a handbell ensemble (which was also the Anklung Ensemble), to Broadway Essentials with TSMB and lastly Johan De Mejj version with SPSB in year 1. I finally got the chance to catch the musical live!
Words cannot describe how I felt after watching the show. It was too phenomenal!
And I bumped into Syazwani and Carmen as well! Glad to see them once again :)
Hello hello!
And gotta do a special mention to Nivedha and Saeyeoh for sending me off to the airport! While the rest of my family went inside the departure hall the three of us chatted for a while in McDonald. And it's great to see them again because I thought we wouldn't be able to meet up once again before we parted ways to our own great places. All the best to you both ok! :)
Thanks for coming all the way!
Well when I arrived in Singapore last Friday... Things seem pretty normal to me. Not a tinge of hyper-excitement is felt inside me like when I went for holidays. I suppose because Singapore has become such a familiar ground to me that yup, coming to Singapore is just like coming home? Though I have become a tourist, Singapore is a familiar place to me.
Before watching Phantom I sat down by the Singapore River on the promenade near MBS. The sun was setting and the buildings of the CBD across me cast a silhouette against the sky. I was listening to my iPod and Home by Kit Chan was playing in my ears. A boat sailed past the orange highlighted river, due to the sun and the phrase was playing.
"I will always recall the city, know every street and shore. Sail down the river which brings us life, winding through my Singapore"
"I will always recall the city, know every street and
shore. Sail down the river which brings us life, winding through my
Singapore"
Was such a perfect scene to describe it!
I guess studying in Singapore has helped me to redefine my definition of home.
Home doesn't necessarily be a place, or a country in which you're born in. To me, well home is basically a place where you develop a sense of sentimental and emotional attachment to. People say school is our second home, because we share many memories of sentimental values in it. And many other places too. So to me Singapore is a second home. I mean spending 11 years there, how can I not develop such attachments to her right?
But of course Indonesia will always be my first home. Because I was born here and I want to die here, unless I really can't then too bad. And yeah just like Singapore, my hometown is a place that I develop a sense of emotional and sentimental values to it.
As I'm writing this in the comfort of my room, the sounds of Takbiran from the mosques around my house are echoing from different sides. It's that time of the year again - Eve of Hari Raya where people celebrate the end of the fasting month through the Takbiran. Which is something I always look forward to every year. The atmosphere, everything about tonight.
So well to all Muslims out there, I just wanna wish you a Happy Hari Raya Idul Fitri or Eid Mubarak. Minal Aidin Walfa Izin, Mohon Maaf Lahir dan Batin! Do forgive me if I have in any way offended or hurt you, for the past one year.
It occurs to me that well, even though I'm not a Muslim I truly enjoy listening to the sounds of the Takbiran. Perhaps because I live in a Muslim country and you're surrounded by these wonderful traditions. And you begin to appreciate and embrace them. I always love how in one night everyone is united. Everyone goes to the mosques for takbiran and also one by one they seek forgiveness to everybody around them. In one true spirit.
Well this doesn't apply to Islam only. Practically I love religion festivities and traditions - how everyone gathered in one occasion to do a particular thing. In one spirit. Just like Chinese New Year where everyone returns home for a reunion dinner/lunch. Deepavali where the Hindus makes Kolam (right spelling?) and decorate their house with lights. Christmas where the Christians go to churches for masses. All in one event or festival!
That's the human spirit I suppose. And when all of us embrace these cultures and traditions, instead of comparing, and trying to tell each other which is the more righteous one, the world will be a more beautiful and peaceful place.
Alright I think I'll stop here for now. Can't believe it's already August. Gonna be an awesome month!
