Long week

 And this is part of the journey

It's Friday finally! Feels so glad to end the week. This long week. Well not long week in a sense it's actually longer than 7 days. Just that I feel I'm rather busy with work and feels so good to welcome the weekends! You know the feeling, of having a rough week then you have 2 days of break. Ahh so lovely! But well I've decided not to just waste them away. Spend it as meaningfully as possible.

I know it's crazy but yes I plan to wake up early tomorrow (like 9-10 AM heh) and yeah do some stuff. I got some "ongoing" projects that I "let's do it today!" and till now I haven't do it -.- So must do some of it tomorrow. And I'm going to take the Sundown racepack tomorrow with Doreen and Yong An! Arggh feels unprepared. Two weeks left! I can do this (Y). I need to run more at night... Hmm.

But I don't think it'll make a huge difference really. But must get used to it hehe.

Haha today Vithya was so funny. She's more paranoid than me!! I swear hahaha. After work I went to meet Brenda! OMG it's been such a long time since we met, and we talked. So we had a nice chat in Starbucks and we're off! She went home and I went to meet Vithya hehe. Went to accompany her to look for a nice gift for her mum in celebration of mother's day! :) Hope she likes it.

It's kinda weird to know that in Singapore, mother's day falls on this Sunday cause back in Indonesia, it's the 22nd of January. And well... We don't really "celebrate" it like here. Went for dinner or something like that. It's a national thing though. But well I think we celebrate my mum's birthday more heh. Whatever the case is, whether we celebrate it or not, we give present or not, it's the love for our mothers that matter the most.

Celebration, is just the icing on the cake you can say hehe.

Anyway today is the 11th of May. Somehow today speaks to me. The date, it shouts to me. As if there's some sort of significance. But it's just a Friday, what's special about it?

Well 365 days ago, is the day where I went for my Inner Mongolia OCIP interview as I found out. Somehow... It's just weird. It's just weird cause I totally forgot the date, until I read my blog again. Well. Yeah funny isn't it. Memories speak to me like wordless stories that whispers words to my ears.

365 days ago. A great journey begins.

365 days later. The journey still continues.

Finish line?

 Yesterday's sunrise. So pretty

It's Thursday once again! And it's been an awesome one I guess. And a tiring one as well. Mentally. Well this is not the first time this is happening to me. You know the usual brain-frying experience you get from reading too many articles that are confusing and difficult to digest. But oh well. I can do this! Why can't I right? Need to plan, a workflow, a flow where I can flow through and so on. Gonna be lovely.

It's all in the mind :)

After work I went to band as usual. Met Chris first for dinner, I finally had the new KFC double down! It's so divinely.... Fattening. But once in a while. Plus I just want to eat it to give it a try as I've been wanting to eat it! Haha. Well after first try, okay that will be a double down for the next long long time. It's really good though heh. Cause I'm less of a bun person but more of a meat person. Ask my friends, they should get it.

Cause I eat burgers part by part! The bun first, then the meat.

Band was great. And tiring. An Chun was teaching us techniques about breathing and listening and it's really fun haha. I think he can be a great conductor/instructor one day. And I can't believe it but I PLAYED 1812!!! When I first heard that song back in sec one or something like that, I wished there's a "simplified" band version of this song but. NO. We're playing the real deal haha. It was really... Tiring. But such a great piece. Plus it's from one of my favourite composers Tchaikovsky :)

It will really be a great piece for MD. A great and brilliant peace to end this journey that I've been traveling with and venturing about. Yes I know, I might not be continuing band after poly. I will let fate decide. But as much as I can be, I'll continue it. I might end this journey, but my love for music will never cease till I die. That's a promise. No, that's my life heh.

Somehow it's quite funny that these few days I've been realising that well, things are coming to an end. My poly life that is. FYP, IBM, MD XXXVI, year 3, school, being a station master in band camp and so on. Nothing lasts forever, we all know that. Though these "physical" things might come to an end, and will surely come to an end, the memories, the lessons, the JOURNEYS, will never end.

Like a foetus in the womb who can't stay forever inside his mother's uterus, everything will one one day come to an end, like a pregnancy. And like life. But some things will remain. Be it inside us, or continue to remain in the inside of someone. Okay the first sentence was taken from a video in Youtube about Tibetan sky burial. Hehe. I'm just using it as an example here.

It's like a race we've been running through. Perhaps, say a 10 KM run, and now we're at the 7th-8th KM mark? Or even like the 1KM mark. And we can see the finishing line. All we have to do us to keep on running to reach it. It might be tiring after the 9 KM we've ventured. But at the end, you know this race will be a great one for you. Though you leave with bittersweet memories, you have it with yourself, stories of victories. In this great race we run.

Part of me wish for time to fly faster. Part of me wish time to fly slower. I'll let time fly, I can't control it. All I want is for it to fly meaningfully in this last 9 months I have in polytechnic (minus the acad-year end holiday). And for it to fly meaningfully, only I can do it.

Good night.

Getaway

 Today was a fine, fine day

Yes I need a getaway. Anywhere, anytime haha. Just go somewhere and enjoy myself to the fullest! I'm planning to go for one in Saturday. Guess where? MacRitchie! Hahaha. Or somewhere else. I don't know, maybe take some photos. And just go out and so on. It will be awesome isn't it. Just let go of everything and enjoy myself and free flow and unwind. Hmm hmm?

Today was a great day I guess. Quite a sad and bittersweet and happy one too. Been reading on cervical cancer today as I'm tasked to do so. Very happy cause I got most of the information needed! Tomorrow I'll continue a bit more and write a more proper information on my notebook. Cause currently my paper is just... Messy and unreadable and ununderstandable in the eyes of others. But not me.

I didn't know reading articles could get so personal. Well... Reading about cancer today reminds me of my late aunt. Somehow her conditions match this article I'm reading. It feels weirdly horrible to realise how, the more things you understand about a certain conditions, the scarier things get for you. But... Well I guess this is life. There's only one truth it has. Not many truths. Just one in every situation we face.

And when the truth ravels, it might be ugly, it might be pretty. But that's the truth.

So after school I went to meet Shihui to pass her some postcards! Thanks Shihui for the keychain and the postcard too ^^ Don't worry I think my postcard is coming... Or came. I've yet to ask my guardian's maid. Then after that I went for a talk on forensic science by Julie Edgar from the Northumbria University in Newcastle! It was a really enriching talk. I get to know how CSI work haha. And oh man it's really mind blowing! But at the same time awesome :D

And we were also briefed a little about continuing our education in the university. One year BSc! Damn it's really tempting. But I'll make full consideration first. Cause the price is quite high, but at the same time it's really worth it too. So yeah... Oh well I'll think about it.

And the great thing that happened? It's like we're having a mini DBS 1.5 outing just now! So awesome :D Man it felt like as if we were back to the year one days. But of course with an older and wiser age, but the memories remain. And to think we only have one more year to our polytechnic life... It feels so weird and scary and shocking at the same time. It feels good to reunite back though!

Alright that's all for today. I wanna head to bed early. Yesterday I went to bed late and I woke up late today oh dear haha. Time to catch up some sleep hehe. Alrighty see you! :)

I want to go for a getaway
Even though it's only for a day 

And happy birthday to my sister! :D

Sunday night

A taste of home, away from home

I hate this feeling. I guess, it's the Sunday night feeling. The feeling of knowing you have work tomorrow. That the weekend is over and another week is waiting. Well I guess everyone will have this feeling on Sunday nights. Unless you really love your job that you hate the weekend. Which I think is something rather impossible of happening. But anyway, as Buddha says, the mind is everything and what we think we become. The more you dread the new week the more horrible your week will be! So be happy~

But anyway yes, I don't know why buy I'm feeling rather emo just now. Just out of a sudden. Perhaps it's my monthly PMS period. It's the hormones playing tricks in my body. Perhaps it's the song that I found yesterday (look below, on the previous day post). Been listening to it and well it makes me sad. But it's so good! I keep on listening to it haha.

And recently I've just re-discover my love for Sarah Brightman's Harem album! I bought it again cause I think the album is lost somewhere in my house back in Indo. Somewhere there. So I decided to buy a new one (and thankfully it was like the last one on the shelf!) and sigh, brings back memories and I really love Sarah Brightman. She's beautiful, her voice is beautiful and the songs are beautiful. Beautiful beautiful beautiful heh.

I remember that time... I think it was secondary 1 or 2 when my dad always play the song in the car when we go out. And there was a time when we went to Pelabuhan Ratu, and there was no CD except for Harem. So we played it throughout our journey and it was really pleasant :) So these songs remind me of those days. The first time I fell in love with her songs.

Music and memories, are like cookies and cream.

Especially the song "Beautiful" from the Harem album. The lyric goes like:

If you can depend, on certainty 
Count it out and weigh it up again
You can be sure
You've reached the end
And still you don't feel  

Do you know, you're beautiful?
You are, yes you are, yes you are

If you can ignore, what you've become
Take it out and see it die again
You can be here
So who's a friend
And still you don't feel 

I love the 2nd verse a lot. I don't know but the words are really special and unique. If you can ignore what you've become, take it out and see it die again. Well if only we can do that. Take out what we hate from us now, and go back to what we used to be. But of course we can't. I mean we can change, but not in a snap of a finger.

Then comes the chorus which goes like: Do you know, you're beautiful? I think it goes to show like how much we have to embrace us, ourselves, as of who we are. We're all imperfect creatures. There's part of us we hate and part of us we love. But these imperfections are the ones that make us human. Human without imperfections... Are not human heh.

Alright I guess that's all for now. I'm meeting Nivedha for breakfast tomorrow so gonna head to bed now! See you all and have a great week ahead! And here's to an awesome week-4 of my attachment! :)

It's all in the mind. I can do this :)

The path in life

 Today's sunset. Weird in a beautiful way.

Or is it beautiful in a weird way?

Whatever it is, it ends this beautiful day

Today I was watching Project Runway Season 8 Finale! Oh man I agree with the judges that... The three finalists are really really good. And that Gretchen and Mondo are two very very talented finalists and that they deserve the position. But Andy is nice too. If I were the judge I'll be very confused as well haha. But I choose Mondo though. I love his designs and boldness! He won the all-star challenge (not aired in Singapore yet I think). So good for him! :)

Anyway while it was Andy's turn for the runway show, the song he used for his collection caught my ears. It is so beautiful, relaxing and totally suit his show (and his collection!). Knowing he gained his inspiration from where he comes from (Laos) the song really suits it! It's nice, Asian-feel, relaxing and just wonderful. And so thanks to the power of internet, I Googled it and... I FOUND THE SONG!



It's titled The Prayer (Chanting Inner Peace) by Ketsana! Well I found out that she's a Laotian artist and man, I really love this song. Wish I can buy her CD one day (hopefully in Singapore!) cause this song is really beautiful. And I hope to hear more songs from her hehe. If this is nice, I think the rest will be good as well! :)

I love Asian chilout songs. Like Huong Vietnam by My Phuong Nguyen and Thiery David, Sacral Nirvana by Oliver Shanti, and then Ketsana's song, the above one, my latest addition! I don't know but they give me a nice vibe and feeling. Perhaps it's the exotic feeling, or the effect of the song that transfers me to a place. And that's if I know the artist origin of course. Or what the song reminds me, or tells me of.

But this song, is special. When I first heard the full song on Youtube, it makes me sad. Yet at the same time, melancholic and just a mixed feeling of sadness, happiness and calm. Okay so when I close my eyes and listen to this song, I feel like I'm sitting on this grass field, my legs crossed and folded. And then in front of me is the sea, crashing waves, the sea breeze. An orange sky with a bluish hue. The wind blows softly onto my face and I feel at bliss. That's what this song tells me. The scene it gives me.

Yet at the same time I feel sad too. I don't know why. It's kind of like Sacral Nirvana. It gives me a tinge of sadness, though full of joy and also calmness. Well... Music is really funny. It evokes a thousand different emotions and lets you do things you can never do. Like transporting you somewhere else, without making a move. Right?

I guess I just need a good break. A good getaway that lets me stop thinking about life. How good will that be! I'm waiting for the day.

Alright enough thoughts for tonight. I planned an awesome I-don't-wanna-do-anything-Saturday and sure I didn't do anything heh. Besides going to Orchard to collect my cousin's lappy (which is now working fine!) and being a vegan today! Hahaha. Yup I successfully accomplished my plan of being a vegan on this Vesak day. Look at what I cooked for dinner today!

It's my favourite T-C-M soup. Not Traditional Chinese Medicine but Tofu-Carrot-Mushroom soup haha. With vegetable stock of course :) So yummy.

Okay ciao and have an awesome Sunday everyone! :)

"Sometimes life already gives us a path. And when we choose to get out of it, in one way or another, that's when things get wrong. Well. Everything happens for a reason"

Two years

 Taken from the same bench I've been sitting for the past 2 years.

With a chocolate waffle and a melon soy milk from Bang Deli

I'm still doing the same thing.

But now, as a year three

Today comes a sad realisation for me haha. Well not sad just... Shocking? And simply sentimental. Today was an awesome Thursday and I got to accomplish many tasks :) Love it! Plus the year ones came for band today so I get to interact with them too. Reminds me when I first came for band! Those sweet memories still stick with my like a glue. But it's cool.

Had another awesome lunch with Candy and Kai as they were in school doing gel again. And Leon joined us too! It's good to eat with them. Just makes me feel like as if I'm a student again. Not an internee heh. And since it's not everyday that we eat together like we once used to just a couple of months ago. Hope we can have more lunches together! Before I get really busy for ITP as I might travel here and there too.

I miss student's life. Well the days where I can wear short pants and SP shirt to school. Sandals and so on. Oh today was my first day in 3 weeks wearing SP shirt in school! Cause I changed before band as I was feeling damn warm with my collared shirt heh. I miss those carefree days where laughter filled my day with jokes and so on. Not that I don't have them just that, I have them less.

It's more carefree I would say. Though we're filled with assignments and tests and so on, it's still more carefree. But well it's also a good thing that I have ITP. It's a good exposure of what I might be working as in the future. And not many people in life can get these opportunities like us. Which is something I'm grateful about and so yeah. 7 months, #wecandothis

So what's my sad realisation?

These days I would meet my year 3 friends in T11A Level 4 and most of them are there for their FYP briefings and so on. It kinda feels funny that it was 2 years ago when we first met, and we were talking about the FYP of our seniors, what they are, and I was so scared of it etc. Now I'm the one doing it. We're the ones doing it. Just feels surreally funny. And weird at the same time.

And take a look at the above photo. This photo is taken outside the band room. The same spot I would sit at for the past 2 years before band, where I would either have my dinner or just something to fill me up like my favourite chocolate waffle and Vitasoy Melon soymilk from Bang Deli. I would sometime take photo there. And now I'm sitting down there, as a year 3. Again I feel funny and weird.

Time flies I guess. What matters, is now. It's the final leap of my poly life and I got to give in everything I have, everything I can. To just push through and passed that final hurdle. As much as I don't want poly life to end. For I'll miss all the fun, joy, adventure, thrill and pride that I had. But time goes on. And one day things will come to an end. But journeys, will never come to one.

Alright enough of the mo post. I wanna take a good break tonight. Very tired and I've not been sleeping well for the past few days. No idea why. So today is the day then hehe. See you!

TGILD

Life is a merry-go-round....

Or merry-go-swing in this case

TGILD - Thank God It's Labour Day!

Yes it's labour day today so meaning I have no work! Hehe. It's a day off for me... But oh well having a day off, I still got to do some work! Nevermind, I'd rather have an active holiday anyway hehe. Plus it's my plan for doing work today and... I did it...! Not to my expectation but oh well, I'm continuing today! :) I mean now, there's only one more hour to today haha.

Well the reason why I failed was because I fell asleep last night and I so I didn't wake up early today -.- In fact I overslept by 3 hours! I woke up at 12 :( Oh man that three hours could make a big difference! But what's done is done so I didn't waste anymore time, woke up, got lunch from Holland and I planned to start work by 3! And yes I did and was reading stuff till 6. And now I'm left with the other half.

Which is a lot.

But anyway yeah, I have a tendency not to be disciplined by... Laying down on my bed after I eat and then I'll watch TV for 30 minutes which then could drag till 3 hours. Hahaha. Not today I'm sorry. And yeah so it's awesome!

Anyway today's evening sky was really lovely. I waited for rain from 2 PM. And it finally rained at 6! The sky was so dark then, it felt like it was 7. I was busy typing stuff that I didn't realise it was 7. And when I looked outside the window the sky was in this... Mysterious orange and purplish hue and it looks really nice. Too bad it was really dark and I didn't manage to get a good shot.

But one glance to that view... I got this deja vu all of a sudden. Like as if I've seen the sky before. Then I remember I once saw a scene, like this when I was young. Maybe in P5 or P6. Similar thing. It was raining, and the sky was reddish in colour, the smell of rain filled the air, and I was looking at it from my window. It's quite funny isn't it?

Then I came up with this:

Today's evening sky, a view I've never seen
Yet it gives me a nostalgia, of a day I once been
A particular evening when I was young
And memories meant nothing to me
Yet now, I think it seems funny
That a small thing can spark my memory
Of a meaningless day, I once lived 

Well I really love the last 3 lines. It's quite true how small things can spark my memory now. Be it a sight, a smell or a sound. Reminds me of a particular space, a particular place and time I once been. No matter how special or how meaningless that particular memory is. To me a  memory is a memory. It is a still a part of your life that once passed by. And to remember that piece of memory... It's just... Special.

I guess the saying "You don't know how much a piece of moment is worth until it becomes a memory" is very true. We tend to just not treasure every moment, love everyday, and do something with all our heart. We only have a one way ticket to life. We can't go back to another moment just to relive it.

Well unless, we travel with our memories to relive them.