Day 300

 The kitchen. Today.

First of all...

Wishing all Muslims a happy Hari Raya Idul Adha! Or also known as Hari Raya Haji hehe.

Oh man feels so good that Hari Raya Haji today fell on a Friday! So meaning long weekend hehe. And somehow at the end of the day I feel so glad and happy that today feels like a Saturday! Cause well no it's not, I still have one more Saturday to spend and enjoy heh :P Still have a Sunday too! Time please fly slower for the next 48 hours okay heh.

Anyway yup today was a nice lazy day for me, woke up at 11 and it feels so good! Actually I woke up at 9, then I went back to sleep. I guess after waking up at the same time almost every day, my body got sort of accustomed to it so yeah. Pretty irritating actually, that this morning I dreamt one of my colleagues called me and asked me where am I. And he asked me to come to work cause today is not a holiday! When I woke up I found one miscall and it was Weilun... Whew haha.

So today's pretty much a lazy day, just spent the afternoon lazying around by watching TV. Then in the afternoon I sold my extra 50mm lens which I got from the IT fair! To a nice person. Thanks for buying! :) And yup dinner after that and yeah that's all for the day I guess.

Well as my title says, today is actually the 300th day of the year. Which means all of us are left with 66 more days to the year and which also means... 66 more days to fulfill our resolutions! Oh gosh I think I haven't fulfilled more than half of it :/ I'll try my best to do everything haha, though we're only left with a mere two months to the year. Yay!

Time flies huh. We've once again come to the end of the year when somehow, I could still remember clearly what's happening one year ago. 366 days ago. But well it's life, I'm sure we all know that time flies at a constant rate. Somehow... It's because that we're caught so much in life that we sort of forget how fast time were flying. You know what I mean.

Time flying quickly... I feel both sad and happy about it.

Anyway, tonight the sky was kind of clear. And well there were a few stars in the sky. I was just staring at them, slowly and just staring, and suddenly more stars appear. So I came up with this just now, after I have a good time staring at the stars:

When we look at the stars at night, and we stare at the dark night sky, we'll find that more stars will appear in front of us. I guess life's like that too. When things around us in life seems so dark, just stop and look deeper. I'm sure there's is light shining for us. No matter how small or insignificant. There is HOPE, there is a WAY that would lead us out from this darkness.

Right?

Alright that's all for now. Jamming with Vith and Kai tomorrow! So exciting haha.

Maybe Today

 Left

Crap me, wanted to blog since like Monday, cause there was such a beautiful sunset in school! And I wanted to post it here but gah, I didn't. So too bad. Haha yes I will post it here later, really beautiful, one of the most beautiful scenes I've seen in SP. And I hope I can see more of this on the last... 5? Months I'm left here in SP so yup. Feel like I should just carry my camera anywhere and everywhere so that I'm ready to snaaap~ Just like on Monday hah.

Anyway today was a good day I suppose. Almost spent the whole day on project discussion with the rest. And in the morning we practised our presentation (sort of). Gosh it's only a practice and I'm already freaking out and speaking like a choo choo train. Imagine the freaking actual day! I'm so dead. Okay keep calm and I know I can do this. I'm just freaking out when I'm supposed not to. As I once said, I suck when I'm nervous! So don't be. But how! Hahaha.

Today was the CLS graduation evening as well. I really wanted to go, but well... I couldn't cause of ITP. I was really hoping I could spend the time with my fellow CLS friends there but well nope. Nevermind I hope there's more chances where we can hang out again haha. If not, there's always the graduation itself where we can take a photo together right? ^^

And today was also the pre-MD photoshoot! So cool haha, I didn't have it for my first MD, and also since I didn't perform for MD 35, I finally get the chance to do this! :P It was great fun, taking photos and mingling around (oh thanks Asyraf for helping us with the photoshoot by the way!). But then a pinch of sadness hits me somehow. Another bittersweet reminder that hey, it's really coming to an end huh? But at the same time, it's a days where memories are made too.

Maybe today was a sad day, tomorrow will be better. For the memories of today, lead to the story of tomorrow. And the story of today, will never be able to be rewritten.

After that I had dinner with Chris at the newly opened Star Vista mall! We had Coco Ichibanya curry and IT WAS GOOD! Seriously best Japanese curry ever! But come to think of it I rarely eat them haha. But really good, should have asked for more rice cause I was hungry. Will make a come-back another day! Try it everyone, when you've got the chance :)

Anyway yes as promised, THIS IS SPPP...... Sunset in Singapore Polytechnic :P

Beautiful isn't it? :)

Took this on Monday (22/10/2012) just before band. To Jaws and Zen, sorry but I actually lied about going to popular. I actually went up just to take the photo before band haha. I saw the pretty sky on the way to FC4 and I knew deep in my heart that today's sunset will be beautiful. So I went up to check and hell yeah the sunset is beautiful! And I decided to go up too cause I just remembered I didn't take out the camera I brought on Friday from my bag. So I just yeah shoot it!

And oh yes, I edited the photo via Gimp :)

It's really one of the most beautiful sights I've seen in SP, throughout the 5 semesters I had here in this beautiful school. Just like this sunset, I know my sunset in SP would come soon. So yeah, I must treasure the moments and make sure my sunset in SP would be as beautiful (or even more beautiful) as the sunset above. I want my chapter here to end beautifully.

Alright that's all for now. Looking forward to the long weekend! Bon nuit!

Real Run 2012!

 Real run 2012 done! :)

[OMG this photo is confusing me thanks to the angle]

Hellow! Today was a great Sunday! Hehe, cause there's Real Run 2012 which I participated in the 10K category, can't believe it's the 5th race of the year for me. Time flies huh, anyway it was really a great run, first time taking part in the run with all the sand and terrains heh. I have a love-hate relationship running on sand now heh, was interestingly tough but okay.

AND I ALMOST BEAT MY PB T_T

So sad when I found out my timing, and actually was happy. Took 71 minutes to run this. I thought my PB was 72 but I forgot that it was actually 70 raawr. Oh well nevermind, improvement from the previous run (Safra 10K) and so yup I'm happy. I really thought that my time would deprove cause I find running on the sand interestingly tough heh. God knows how many times I almost stumbled while running there. I think my technique is wrong. But oh well I survived the run so no complains! :P

Yup so it was an interesting run indeed, first time running on different terrains in a race (usually road/soil) but now it's a mix. Hope I can participate in another real run in the future. I hope. Not sure if this will be the last run before SCMS 21K or... Should I run Run For Hope too? It's on 18/11 and my sister will be here in Singapore. The good thing is that we'll be staying near the city area so it will be near. Bad thing is, surely I'll do lots of walking on 17/11 (and don't forget MD on 16/11) so I might tire my leg a lot. I think by the end of the run I'll go kaboom heh.

Still thinking, but... I have 10 days to decide.

So after the race I took the long ride back to City Hall, falling asleep here and there. I finished the race at like 8 plus, and I realised the shuttle bus service only starts at 9:30! So I waited for about an hour but thankfully the officials let us board the bus earlier (at about 9:15). Then I took the train to City Hall, then transferred to take 7 home. Was feeling so sleepy and tired in the train but on the bus, I'm as fresh as the morning sun. But I KO-ed once I reached home.

After a good 3 hours of sleep I went out to meet Jolene, Sharon and Weilun! To celebrate Weilun's belated birthday haha. Had dinner at Ayer Rajah food market. Boy I miss that place, my Tanglin days and so on. The memories just rushed in. And then Weilun recommended a nice ice cream shop called Ice Cream Frenzy and it's really yummy! The durian one is so heavenly haha. I ate three scoops of avocado, caramel and durian. Sorry, was so hungry since I had no meal since 4 AM in the morning! No appetite after race so I ravaged myself at night.

What a good laugh we all had before another week starts. Phew.

Being the 5th race of the year, I feel really happy haha. Now the "medal rack" on my table has a new addition of medal. Well at the end of the day... Running is not really about the medals. It's about the glory and achievement you get after your training. Though I feel guilty I didn't train much for this,  but well I will still give my best.

Well of course I'm not... A "hardcore" runner. I don't have the discipline to train everyday. Even sometimes sticking to my running-twice-a-week rule is a bit difficult. I just enjoy running you see. The thing about running is that it's an activity where you can forget about life, even though it's just for a little while. That's why when I'm sad or moody, I usually go for a run. The longer the better, cause I can forget about my troubles more.

Just like today's run. Well a few things have been happening for the past week and... Somehow when I run I don't think about all these things at all. Then when the race comes to an end, like when I was queuing up to get my Tshirt and medal... Everything seems like they're coming back. The fact that another week is starting, FYP, work this and that. Which is kind of depressing really. But well life is life, we always move on and life goes on and on right?

So yeah, I guess races are more of the journey and sense of achievement you get. The medals, are just a small token for you to remind you of your hardwork and achievement. In the future, I'll hang these medals in my room cause they will remind me of these races.And also to remind me to always be determined and not give up in life.

Alright I guess that's all for today. Week 28 starting tomorrow! Looking forward to the long weekend at the end of this week heh. Hopefully will make full good use of the long weekend. Alright here's to a too-extraordinary twenty eight! Have a great week everyone :)

Aku pun yakin badai akan berlalu

Ignore the world

Well today is Friday. And of course, like everyone else, we're all looking forward to the end of this day as it means we're entering the weekend. 2 days of break, deserving days for all of us. But well life is bittersweet, as much as I look forward to the end of this day, things didn't quite work out at the end of this day. But c'est la vie, I'm going to make the best out of everything of course.

As I once said, if we can find a hundred ways that things can go wrong, I'm sure we can find a thousand ways that things will get better. Right? :)

Anyway today was really a rainy Friday. Back in the beginning of the week I had a plan of going to somewhere to chill after work. Cause I've been wanting some me time somewhere. Gosh come on please, actually I've been telling that to myself for the past 27 weeks and I never got the chance to. So yup, since we cancelled the jamming session for today, I planned to go to Labrador Park to chill and have some great me time. On a nice Friday.

But it was raining back in Dover and I was afraid that it will be raining heavily there too. However the skies were clearing and so I just decided to trust my gut feelings and head there. And when I reached there, it was... Cloudy but not raining! And was even kinda dry, so I suppose it wasn't raining there whew. I walked to the park from the MRT and went to the same spot where I went there back in February. Just to watch the sunset. No one was there, just a few runners.

So I put on my headphones, listen to my favourite songs, and just chill watching the waves crashing by. And also I was just facing the beach. The temperature was really cooling and it was really breezy too. Took some photos, wrote on a piece of paper to pour my feelings out. It was such a pleasant evening. I really love it there, I feel at peace and just calm.

I may look like an idiot there. Someone sitting on the bench alone, listening to song and just facing the beach. But I guess, that's the thing. Doing this just goes to show how much I'm trying to ignore the world, and to not care what people think of me as they pass me by. Sometimes it just feels so good to ignore the world, ignore life and just come back to yourself to enjoy the moment. Not to care about the world, not to care about life. It just feels awesome!

Often in life we can't stop thinking about life. Worried of the future, get trapped by the past, and sometimes, even the present seems troubling for us. So at times, it feels really good no to think about this, just for a while. 30 minutes, one hour, two hours or so on. Not to think about life and just enjoy THE moment. Try it one day, go somewhere out, not your house but somewhere you don't often go. Then bask in the moment and you'll feel it.

Like today, though it was raining the whole day and thunders seem not to stop rolling, and things go sort of haywire here and there. But then, at the end of the day, I somehow manage to make today something enjoyable, something that I'm glad to have done about. And just like life, no matter how bad the day can be, if we manage to make the best out of it, we will get something food at the end of it. It's how we look and how we react to things.

And as I was facing the waves just now, I realised sometimes the waves are big, sometime the waves are small and there are times, when there are no waves. I guess that's like life too. Sometimes in life we pick up momentums, ride the moment and just be on top of our lives. The "up" moments. Then of course there are times when we lose our momentums and we seem to die down, and go slower. The "going down" moments. And lastly there are also times when our lives just feel bad. That's the "down: moments of course. But looking again...

The waves come in different times. Just like life, when we think we have a bad day, do remember is just a moment of our lives. We may seem to be going down, but I'm sure that these moments will be over too. And one day we shall rise again, like the huge waves gaining momentum and crashing in its glorious moments. Just like life, happy times and bad times come and go.

See how much nature has taught me a lot? :)

Alright I guess that's all for now. Well yeah, this week may end quite badly. But I'm sure that I will gain the momentum again and next week will be a great week. A better week.

Good night!

When life gives you lemons

 When life gives you lemons

Add sugar

And make lemonades~

Mid-week of twenty seven, and apparently we have all (or maybe, some of us) hit a point of I don't know what to call it. Stress, breakdowns, sadness or I don't know. Today, another day, where life is being life. A day where life gives me lemons, and somehow I let it squeeze its juice to my wounded heart and just let me scream in pain. But then again, as the quote says.

When life gives you lemons, make lemonades.

Or some say....

When life gives you lemons, take the lemons and throw them back to life.

It's...  I don't know but hard to just keep it that way. I guess it's my personality, I'm not someone who handles stress well especially when everything happens at the same time. It feels like I'm being thrown into the ocean and just drown there. Takes some time for me to swim back to the surface and stay alive. And also I feel at times that when things like this happen, feels like even the tiniest problem can be magnified into some huge ass gigantic problem.

Not being able to handle stress well, plus being paranoid, plus so many things going on. I guess they're just a perfect recipe for me to feel depressed.

I guess for me, when life gives you lemons, add sugar and make lemonades. To my, sugar is what I refer to as happiness. Where do you get sugar from? Yourself. And then you make great lemonades which you get to share with everyone else and also have a glass for yourself. Like what Buddha said, happiness never decreases when being shared~ ouyeah

I just have to remind myself that well... Slowly but surely all of these will come to an end. Just a matter of time and a matter of heart. I need to just strengthen myself and get through this, at the end of this I know I will survive ITP hah. And of course not to forget, FYP. The only thing running through in my mind right now, and other things running through, which make me worried.

So to all my friends, I know it's literally crunch time for us now so yeah. Press on, that day will arrive when we look back on our days, give a pat on our shoulders, and tell ourselves:

We've survived ITP AND FYP!

PS: Note to myself, be stronger.

Last hurdle

 And one day like this dragonfly

We shall kiss these days goodbye

And reminisce of the days gone by

And laugh at time that flew by

Hello everyone! Such a depressing fact, to know that I only manage to blog once a week. Can't believe the last time I blogged was on last Sunday. Oh dear, I need to blog more. Well not say a need, just... I need to keep this blog alive! If not it's just dead. Mehh, okay here I am. Today was a normal Sunday I guess! Once again did all the things I planned doing. So it's good! :)

Anyway yep. Started the day by going to the temple again. It was weird how there were only like about less than 20 people at the beginning of Puja! The circle was so small that it only reached half of the hall. But then people started coming so whew, it feels okay haha. Somehow, going to the temple is not a routine for me. But more of a wish of mine to come every Sunday. And to also add life to my Sundays instead of wasting it away with sleep.

And I love to keep it this way :)

Went to Holland for lunch. Was really hungry somehow so it was a great lunch. And then I decided to cut my hair! I told the hairdresser "number 2" and turned out... My hair is so short now!!! OMG I don't know why but the last time I cut number two it wasn't this short >< oh no. But well, so used to being botak that... I'm find with it. Just find it weird how the number 2 I had was longer than this one. Ah well...

And best part is? I met Dr Simon Tan! He was right behind me and I didn't realise it heh. Though I saw someone who looked like him. But without my glasses, I couldn't decipher.

Reached home and took a nap. As per planned, I woke up at 5 to go for a run. But then somehow... It rained so heavily -_- so I decided to wait for the rain to subside. 5.45 and the rain hasn't stopped. I was on the verge of giving up when... It stopped raining at 6! So I went for a great run with the cooling weather and awesome air. Which somehow weirdly, I still managed to drench myself in sweat.

And being... Hardworking, I decided to treat myself with a bowl of Indomie for dinner.

Well what can I say it was a great Sunday. But yesterday, my Saturday was even awesome for I had to sleep-in, a surprise lunch with Weilun, Kelvin and Federick. And a not-so-great-but-still-enjoyable-in-the-end-night-out with Vithya and Charmaine! I had a great rest for the past weekend, and I love it, preparing for the upcoming week ahead.

It's quite funny... And surreal how tomorrow will be the first day of my last semester in poly. Last semester, 5 semester just gone that way like the wind blowing yesterday. It feels like the 19th of April 2010 was yesterday. That was the day when I first began my poly life (minus DPA life). Still remember the first day quite clearly. Cloudy... And my first lesson was CRS. Came to class with Candy and Weiping. Introducing everyone our names etc.

And tomorrow will be the first day of the last semester, and soon it will be the last day of ITP, then FYP then... Last day of poly life. Time surely flies eh? It keeps on going and moving and flowing. Then at the end of the day you either tell yourself how much you've enjoyed the moment. Or... How much you've regretted the things that you could have done.

As I always believe, live your life to the fullest. Being the last semester, seriously people, it's really now or never. This is the chance to pull that three-letters up. This is the chance to do the things which you didn't have the chance to in the past 5 semesters. And to everyone, this is your chance to enjoy poly life. You might go for work when you grow up, or of course I think most of us will continue to university to further our studies.

But definitely... Life will get tougher I guess. The working environment will be different, takes time to adapt. University life too, though I think we'll have an easier time to adapt since poly life is almost the same as uni life (as compared to JC I suppose). Whatever the case, enjoy and live your remaining poly life to the fullest. Because.. If not, then who else will?

Alright here's to a great last semester of my poly life. Though I'm still going to spend a term with ITP and FYP, so which technically means I have one term of poly life left next year. Whatever the case is.. It's still my last semester and I know I'm going to make the best-est out of it! Let's go my year 3 friends! It's the last hurdle of our poly life and lets make sure we pass through this hurdle well and beautifully! And we can look back on this journey with smiles, and joyful tears.

And of course, here's to a too-spectacular twenty seven! Good night, may this week be an awesome and smooth-sailing one, once again. See you soon :)

Really, it's now or never.

Happy Kathina Day! :)

 Abstract Architecture

Oh gosh it's been 6 days since I last wrote here! Well honestly speaking I've been falling asleep unconsciously whenever I got back home this past week. Either I'm too tired or yeah. Whenever I reached home I will lay down on my bed, watch TV, and found myself asleep and woke up at like 2/3 AM. Then I'll have to wake up to prepare for tomorrow.

Or simply, I forgot to blog :P

Anyway here I am. Firstly happy Kathina Day! Hehe. I know different temples have different dates for Kathina. At Mangala Vihara (the temple I go to) we held Kathina day today! :) I woke up super early in the morning (4.45) and left for the temple as I need to collect the robe which will be donated to a monk. Bad thing about living in the west when the temple is in the east! Haha. But no worries hehe, it's a good exposure for me too. First time!

So for the procession we gathered outside the temple at 6.30 and circled the temple three times while holding the robe. Then followed by short speeches by different venerable Bhantes, and then Puja. There was breakfast after the whole event and after that I went home! Hehe. Took a long bus ride from Eunos all the way home. Fell asleep on and off on the bus heh.

I reached home at like 9.30 AM and I slept all the way till 12.30! Haha and then lazed around to 2 PM before I head out to fix lunch and did my grocery shopping. I wanted to run after that but guess what, I fell asleep till like 7.30! Failed plan, but nevermind, I wasn't in the mood of running :l and also I'm not feeling well, caught the stupid flu bug urrgh.

But somehow I'm glad that I spent this Sunday lazily. Spent most of the time watching TV and lazying around. Cause it's been ages since I had this kind of Sunday. The past few Sundays have been spent quite a lot outside, not that I don't like it, just that now I'm glad I get to spend my Sunday at home hehe. I need to start running though! Arrrghh.

Anyway I've also decided to take a break from running once SCMS 21K is over. I'll start running again maybe in January, provided there's other runs. To be honest, I hate to say this but somehow... I've lost my drive for running. Well I still enjoy running, whenever I go for a run, I do enjoy it. Just that at times things feel differently from last time. But whatever it is, running will still be something I enjoy doing. I won't stop running till I can't run anymore, you know?

Alright I guess that's all for now. Here's to a too-superb twenty six! May this week be a superbly awesome one and may everything just go as smooth as nutella spread on bread. What am I saying? Hahaha. You know it, alright great week ahead! :)

Impermanence keeps me going.