I just haven't met you yet

Sunrise... Sunrise...
Photography by Yours Truly
Taken in the morning, before I got to school.

Hello people, beautiful Saturday eh? It was dark and gloomy in the morning with lots of lightning and thunder roaring, signaling an ominous sign in the atmosphere. Okay, enough of the drama haha.

Well yesterday I had a seriously GOOD SLEEP. Why? I slept fot 12 hours! can you imagine thyat. From 8 P.M. to 8 A.M! Well I woke up for a little while in between these hours but seriously, I had a good sleep. Well I guess I am repaying my sleeping debts, since I have like very little sleep during the week. After all, it's been used for studying and stuff.

Umm what else, oh yeah, I woke up early this morning and.... Study of course. It feels rather weird to study with such a gloomy and boomy weather. But the music keeps me going so yup. And somehow I become more productive when listening to music so yeah. But not to radio.

Well it's 16 more days to O Level, and I don't think I can blog my 300th post before O Level cause I'll be so busy with all the studying. So, I have another plan. And I can't wait for O Level to be over... I just want 13th of November to come like as fast as possible. And again, I am looking forward to both Grad and Prom night. Arrrgh! XD

Right, so I guess I'll stop here, gotta continue studying. See ya then!

It's ironic how I'm learning about conflict. Yet thousands of conflicts are in front of my own eyes.

Irony

Lemon. Ice.
Photography by Yours Truly
I love lemon tea!

Hello people, long time no blog again. I've been busy studying these days. Hmm yeah, that's what everyone should be doing now. I'm blogging, cause I kinda feel stressed so lets relieve it here.

Well you guys know I've been counting down. So it's officially 18 more days to my big war. The war I've been waiting in like 10 years haha. Sometimes I'm afraid, while sometimes I'm excited. I'm scared for not being able to do well [STOP!, I'll do well!] and I'm excited because I really want to O Level to be over quickly.

I mean, the longer I wait, the more I feel stressed out.

As each day passes, my time is getting shorter. I'm getting more anxious and worried and nervous about O Levels. So I can't stand this feeling. Like when it accumulates in your mind, you feel really uncomfortable and urrrgh. Stressed, depressed, anxious and PARANOID.

I'm serious, I've been feeling these weird, absurd and ridiculous feelings. And thinking of absurd and ridiculous thoughts as well.

But anyway, Mrs Lee was telling us just now about the importance in keeping the stress level low. And well the methods kinda help a lot for me. Should do them more often these day eh. But still I feel really stressed... Arrrgh. I want O Levels to end really quickly and yet I want it to come slowly. It feels so... Ironic!

Oh well, I hope I feel better as time goes by. I just want to go through this examination as smooth as possible. No problems, nothing. And I want to do it good. I want to get the grades that I want. And yes, it's never impossible.

Alright that's all for today I guess then. Won't be blogging as much these days. You know it, all the studying and stuff. See ya then!

Please, I just want to do this examination, and enjoy the rest of my secondary school life, joyfully.

Life

Phenolphthalein... I love Chemistry, and Bio, and Physics.
Photography by Yours Truly.
Don't worry I took this picture after my practical!

Oh well, today is just an ordinary Sunday, everything went as usual. I did lots of History today and last night. I'm going to finish it tonight then perhaps do some Physics exercise later on.

Hmm I've decided to stop blogging once I hit my 300th post, which is about uhh 17 more posts. So I'm looking forward to it hehe. It's 22 more days and the time is getting shorter, but no, I'm looking forward to it. Yup! Love thy enemies.

Anyway shall stop here, time for studying. See ya then! I just feel like writing so...

Arrgghh.... Paranoia, paranoia.

Ces't la vie

Enjoy life, like you enjoy a pot of tea.
Photography by Yours Truly.
Actually, it's a soup pot.

Hello people, very fruitful day for me I guess. Went out to study with Sharon, Tacy and YP whom we met later on hehe. Was a productive study I think, did Chem, physics and lit together.

Well I've made up my mind. Studying is my second priority now (after health and any other important things in life). I want to study really really hard till the 13th of November, 8 AM. I want to do well, I want to get good grades. It's my dream and I want to make it into a reality. So yes, study and study and study! Weee...

Today seemed like a gloomy day you know. Well it rained for a little while but then it stopped and then the sky just turned gray for the day. It feels dark, gloomy and saaaaaad. Just like how I feel after pondering about my results. Fear is haunting me that I won't do well but no. Then, I have to overcome it. And don't let it overtake me!

Life is just so complicated. I'm bracing the exam and I am having so much funny thoughts I have in my mind. Or some worst, I'm thinking of RIDICULOUS and ABSURD things in my mind! And I know the reason why. I feel that to every of these funny things I'm thinking, there's a fear behind it.

In conclusion, I'm just being paranoid.

Well that's all for tonight I guess. Going out for dinner later so yup. The days are getting shorter. My time is running out. But my passion? Getting stronger. See you!

Life's so complicated.

I wanna be free!

Wee, today, not so much results but yeah, gotten back EM paper 2 which is VERY disappointing (even though I got an A2, this is not my target). But overall, I got an A1, but that's a prelim A1, not an O Level A1. Arrrgh, and it's all due to my freaking carelessness. WTH!

On the plus side, I have finally achieve my FIRST A-grade in my entire life for a full English Paper! I was shocked, really shocked. But no, I'm not being complacent, I'm going to improve, hope I can get an A1 in O Levels. And congratulations to the sec 4'09 cohort for achieving that 94.7% passes, see, you can do it, who knows we can get 100% passes, and more than 50% of distinctions.

As for my overall results... It is very disappointing, and I really, REALLY want to do much better than this. This to me is not me. I'm sure and I want and I will do better. Oh man, I don't know, I'm freaking out for O'Levels and I really want to do well. I'm sure everyone does right?

But yes, I'll work hard. And put my best shot!

Okay that's all for the results. And on the other hand, the prom night information is out! So I am really really looking forward to it. It's been a great four years I have in Tanglin and I am sure that the Prom night is a proper and fun way. To (I don't want to say it) conclude my chapters of my secondary school life. Sweet memories will always be sweet memories. So treasure it!

And I was looking through Amanda's blog in which I saw this "Where the hell is Matt" video. And I saw this place in Bolivia called Salar de Uyuni in Bolivia. It seems like a salt desert and it was so beautiful! The reflection of the sky is like... OMG, I want to go there! It's awesome! Check the picture on top! Hehe.

Well alright that's all I guess, it was a normal day today. And oh, gonna come up to the stage tomorrow, Eeeek! Receiving prize for the World Math Day thingy for the class. Well, feeling normal, haha.

And oh, I hope I won't wake up late tomorrow. I woke up late twice in a row! OMG, this is so stressful haha. Okay see ya then!

I wanna be a bird. Fly to the sky. And grab freedom within me.

Tremors

And oh yes, I forgot, did you guys feel the tremor? I felt it too... Scary eh... And it's from Sumatra there. ><

Hope all these quakes will come to an end...

A place I could call my own

Pretty flowers. But. It's just a leaf.
Photography by Yours Truly.
It hurts. I let you go.

Hello people, sigh, as I know, more shocking results stroke me. But I am pleased with my AM marks, I was hmm, quite pleased. The rest was rather shocking. Negatively.

And I still had insomnia, which is rather bad but improving, cause I had 3 hours of sleep last night. Amazing right? And I woke up late! But that was because my alarm clock was dead. And it was dead at 5.30 AM. So in my mind it was 5.30... Okay ten more minutes and it goes on and on. And it was 6.50! But I made it on time. Just on time.

Well results were a little scary to find out. But no, I'm going to do better. And I am also looking forward for the Prom and Grad night after the Os! I don't know why, I know it's going to be sad, but I know it's going to be filled with ego and pride too. Weee.

You know, I always feel like giving up? But sometimes I just tell myself. My 7 years here are not going to be wasted just like that. It's just not worth it. Nope, not worth it at all. And also my blood, sweat and tears spent here won't go into the drain. Hell no.

So... Never give up people. Don't let your hard work go into the drain. What's the point? Right?

Okay I'm feeling rather moody today haha, I don't know why. Guess my menstruation is kicking in. Or maybe my results. I don't know. Okay I guess that's all for today. See you!

You know, isn't it obvious? Haha