Hello Again

Alright look who decided to come back! Hello hello hello. So much for planning to write every month huh! Okay once again as usual I have my reasons. January was a busy month. There was CNY coming, I had to prepare for many stuff and so on. It was pretty hectic to be honest. But here I am!

Well yeah I was actually planning to write at least once a week but that didn't happen. I have no idea how am I going to sustain this and keep this blog going ahaha. But well I'll try my best. Once again I'm not targeting myself to write n-amount of posts this month but my aim is to write at least 50 posts as usual. I don't know, any lesser than that feels so pathetic heh. Perhaps I should start the prompts.

I guess I'll start with some updates. 

So yes January was a rather busy month. So many things happened, like so many. I lost track of time last month, it was almost as if like boom, suddenly I'm in the last week of January. We had the usual CNY prayers in the CNY eve. Thankfully we're able to gather this year (unlike last year). 

We've entered the new Omicron wave here in Indonesia. Cases are shooting up again. Even though there's less mortality but it's still quite worrying. But looking at the high transmissibility of this variant I won't be surprised if everyone is going to get infected in one way or another - or if actually the infection has started a long time ago. It's just undetected; just like during the Delta wave. Nevertheless I hope everyone is staying safe and healthy. We just have to go through this wave once again.

I think we all share the same sentiment but boy is it tiring to live in a pandemic for 2 years now. I feel like the past two years felt like a limbo/illusion. But definitely a two-year that many people can't forget. I just truly wish for the world to heal soon. I don't think we'll ever get back to normal. This pandemic has changed this world and life as we know it. I hope we change for the better.

Alright I guess that's all from me now. Not gonna make promises but I'll try to update more often. In one way or another, I'll make things work heh. See you again soon! Take care. 

In 2021...

Look who decided to return after not blogging after a month! My goodness haha. Okay well yes I reckon I should come back here for a while to end this year. The year I blogged the least. That's sad, I didn't even hit 50 posts eep. Lets make more effort in 2022 I guess? Not too ambitious though ahaha.

Anyway yup it's the last day of 2021. I'm not sure if this is like a slow of fast year but it is definitely a busy one. I ventured into new areas, I have more responsibilities, life changed a lot. I just feel... Tired? At the end of this year. It really felt like I just did a sprint this whole year. And it's like never ending heh.

The weird thing is that at the end of the year, my heart feels full but it is somehow yearning for fulfillment. It's like I feel that I have achieved a lot but also feel like I wish I could do something more. I guess that's a good sign? There's still room for improvement we can strive in the upcoming year.

2021 has been a brutal year for the world. I think everyone feels this. The world had went through a lot in this wicked year and I seriously wish that we will never go through another year like this. So I really hope that in 2022 this world will begin to heal. And we can reclaim the life we once used to live.

But of course, this pandemic has changed our lives, and I think we cannot live our lives in the way we used to. We have to change for the better. But at least... I hope we can all live pandemic-anxiety-free soon. Because really, it gets tiring living with this thing for the past two years, no?

To be frank, after living in a pandemic for 2 years, I seriously have no hopes and goals and ambitions in 2022 heh. Like really I just want all of us to be well and healthy, and we can all get through 2022 smoothly. Cause seriously though, what else do we want/need in life? Okay hmm I really want a peace of mind haha. It's not easy living in this world seriously. But yeah I hope you get what I mean.

Anyway this is a really short update and reflection from me. I have done a 6 page reflection of 2022 on my journal haha. But this is a summary of what I have written.

Alright I guess that's all from me in this year. I hope you had a great 2021, despite of all the things that happened in this world. And here's to a better 2022 for all of us. Happy New Year!

Bye Bye Blogtober

Oh goodness here we are now, the last day of October! Which also means it's the last day of Blogtober 2021. And probably the last time I'll ever do Blogtober HAHAHA. Okay maybe not, perhaps I won't do it next year. Cause seriously, this year has been so hectic and busy, I didn't enjoy this Blogtober at all. So yeah if life gets less busy next year then I'll probably do it again! So lets see.

Anyway this whole Blogtober has prove yet once again that I cannot force myself to blog/write. And how writing everyday isn't really a good idea! But but, I am actually inspired by Marcus Aurelius and I'm thinking of writing everyday next year. Inspired by his Meditations haha. But now it's not like a page-long post kinda things. Just to write whatever there is on my mind. Perhaps when I wake up.

So yeah, I guess that's all for Blogtober 2021. Probably the least enjoyed Blogtober I've ever done. Sorry T_T but yeah I was just finding it hard to keep up with the posts.

Anyway, I hope you had an awesome October. We're down with the last two months of the year. So lets seize the year now! Wishing everyone a Neat and Nurturing November. See you soooon.

Sunset

Lying underneath the stormy skies,
I know the sun must set to rise

October's Leaving

We're down to the last 2 days of October. Is it me or has time flown in a weird and erratic way in 2021? It is as if.... I don't have much memories with this year. Like there's not much "exact" or "accurate" memories that I have of this year. All I remember is... July was a horrible month for Indonesia. As for the other months... It feels very wavy and blurry. Hahaha. Perhaps I'm just busy.

But for real though, this year has been way so hectic! I couldn't catch a breath. I wish there's just a way to slow things down, or perhaps for me to catch some breath. Hopefully soon by the year end. I feel like now things are settling down slowly. And we're just reaping what we sow in the earlier in the year. 

I'm not gonna lie, the 2020s so far have been pretty challenging. And somedays I just wonder when things will get easier. Perhaps we all need a miracle. Or perhaps we're just meant to go through whatever we're going through. And eventually things will work out. In the best outcome for everyone.

Well, here's to the last two months of the year! Lets go baby. 

Sustain

Okay, this might be the last time I'm going to do Blogtober. Because I cannot sustain it anymore T_T Okay well I'm just so busy this week that I actually never had the chance to blog every night. In fact I just managed to write this week's worth of blogs today. But like I mentioned, it's the end of the month where I get so busy. There's always things to do at night. Seems like neverending.

I find it funny how I can't wait for the end of month to pass. But then again, another end of month is dawning upon us heh. I guess I'll just have to live in the moment.

Invisible Front

Another music post tonight since I'm quite busy. A new EP from Olafur Arnalds was released also on Friday! This is actually a collection of old songs but they are now released into the world. It's a beautiful EP as always. This song is so beautiful. I'm not sure how but there's something about Olafur's music that really reminds me of a place I've never been before. Like a memory but.... Somewhere, a place. Perhaps I've been before. In my dreams, or past life.