Graveyard

Not sure why I've been having lots of weird dreams lately. And it feels surreal too. This time round... Not sure if I can consider this a "nightmare" or a scary dream, but I dreamt of being in a graveyard! Well it's not exactly a nightmare cause nothing scary happens. It's just me dreaming of going for Qing Ming at my grandparent's tomb, and walking through the graveyard. It's actually pretty peaceful.

So the dream began with me driving inside my car with my parents and brother. As I was in the car I saw people on a nearby graveyard doing Qing Ming (QM) and my mum told me like "oh look there's already people doing Qing Ming". The weird thing is that supposedly, because of the pandemic, we didn't want to go when there's a crowd. So we went to the graveyard before dawn. It was still dark!

And things went as per normal during QM, my cousins slowly came and join us one by one. We did the prayers and so on. Usually during QM my dad would go to my... Grand uncle? I'm not sure how to describe the relationship but yes, it's my granduncle cause it's my dad's uncle tomb. So in the dream my dad asked me to go there to light some incense and I went there myself, alone. 

As we went before dawn, the light was slowly turning bright. My grandparents' cemetery is located on a hill facing my hometown from above. So the sunrise sky in my dream was amazing. I was making my way to my granduncle's tomb when I couldn't find the way heh. So with the help of one guy from the cemetery, he was guiding me through the cemetery and giving me shortcuts etc. The sky was still kind of dark. The weird thing is the dream felt serene and peaceful. It's not like some scary dream.

Eventually I made my way near my granduncle's tomb and there's this massive tomb. And it's amazing too. The tomb actually consists of a carved horse carriage. There were a few horses pulling a carriage which apparently contains the body of a person. The cemetery guy told me that he's an important figure. The thing is, this tomb doesn't exist in real life (on my grandparents' cemetery heh).

Also another weird thing is I found some westeners carrying surfboards walking near the end of the cemetery. Which I presume, we are actually near a beach. So yes, weird dream.

Anyway the weird thing is... I usually dream of something because of experiencing that "thing" in real life before I sleep. Like maybe listening to graveyard stories, of watching something about graveyard, or talking about graveyard etc. But this time round, no. I dreamed this in my afternoon nap and I didn't "experience" anything about graveyard prior to that. So yeah, weird dream really!

I'm quite fascinated with dream meanings and symbols so I went to do a bit of googling and found out that dreams about cemeteries carry the meanings and symbols of rebirth, end of something and start of something new etc. So yeah I hope it symbolises the start of something new! Especially with the beautiful sunrise I saw in my dream, perhaps that fortifies the meaning of the dream.

And well yeah, this whole year is truly an interesting journey so far. It feels like the end of something and the start of something new. I'm embarking on new journeys right now and at times these felt a bit daunting. But at the same time I'm also excited for them, as it feels like I have a new direction to travel to, hopefully a direction that brings me, and all of us to a better place, a better position.

Alright not sure what's with all these weird dreams but they always leave me intrigued! 

To more weird and wonderful dreams haha.

In Need of Travel?

Right, back again for a dream diary post and it's an interesting dream mwahaha One that involves traveling. In the middle of a pandemic, to Bali. Perhaps I'm just in need of travel haha.

So the dream started with me being in the middle of an airport again. I don't know which airport I was in but definitely not Jakarta. I was just walking, making my way to the boarding gate. The layout of the gate is weird, cause 3 boarding gates are combined into one. My boarding gate was number 2, but somehow somewhat I entered number one instead. And the staff still stupidly let me in hahaha.

I entered the gate and was just walking through and through and eventually finding myself walking out of the gate, into the tarmac. It was so fishy because I couldn't see the plane, and find it. After that I found myself walking out of the airport. I asked the security guard where my flight is, and he told me "Oh you entered the wrong gate, please re enter the airport again". So Bizarre! And I made my way again.

Apparently gate number 2 is located hidden behind the door of gate 1. I found the gate, and I almost couldn't make it for the flight. The flight was weirdly full, but everyone was wearing a mask, thank goodness. And then we make our way to Bali. Which like magic, I just landed in Bali in like a few minutes heh. I landed in Bali and was walking inside the airport, getting some food to eat first.

And yeah, I woke up. 

Perhaps I'm just in need of travel! :P

Insomnia (again)

Not sure if I'm just simply fated to have insomnia in the middle and end of year. Perhaps my body is just preparing itself for solstice, which is arriving in about a month's time. It's kinda annoying cause I actually feel sleepy. But once I lay on my bed, I just don't fall asleep. Which is really weird.

So yeah the past few weeks I've only been getting 4-5 hours of sleep. It's really wrecking me, but well I kinda get used to it. There are some days where I manage to fall asleep normally tho.

Anyway it's November now. Can you believe it! Well I can. 2020 has been a weird year, where time seems to move quickly and slowly at the same time. It's like part of me is shocked that it's already November. But another part of me is also like of course it's November. I'm usually excited to end the year. Kind of anticipating what the new years has to offer. But not this year. I mean, I don't even know if this madness will come to an end or not. Or we're gonna have the new normal.

Well whatever the case, we have to continue. Gotta go on living I suppose. 2021 is going to bring its surprises and hopes too. Just like 2020. Who would have imagined we'll spend 9 months of 2020 in a pandemic. Nobody right haha. So yeah. Have faith and keep going I guess!

Alright that's all from me now. I will see you soon.