Philosophical

Sunset today

Okay I'm damn slow. I didn't realise I can write labels for my blog posts. Which I suppose also refer to the "tags" like thouse in Youtube videos or basically what my post is about -.- oh wel, now I know so hello! Haha. And I failed too, in a sense I tell myself I want to blog at 11 but well look at the time now. It's 12:15! How awesome. Been digressing a lot just now -.-

Anyway today was alright I guess. It's an ordinary Tuesday, but med micro was kind of fun! New case today and it's pretty interesting how siRNA works and its technology etc. We get to do more research about things as well. It may seem kind of complicated at first but when I got the hang of it, it was kind of alright so yep. Anyway, can't wait to fully understand the mechanism of siRNA! :D

Well we have this Advanced immuno tutorial that was due today. The answer was kind of hard to find, so we ended up asking Dr Simon about clues and etc. Today he went into the classroom and told us "The method is too correct, that's why it is wrong". Oh my antibody, those words are seriously the most philosophical words I've ever heard in the Immunology world! Haha.

We've submitted our answer, and I'm just hoping is the right one :P

After school the sky was heavenly gorgeous (Y). I took some photos but well, the most irritating part was... the sky was even more beautiful when I was running! And also when I didn't have anything to capture the moment with! No phone, no iPod touch and camera. Oh gosh I was feeling damn sad just now, it's always like that. When the moments are beautiful, I don't have my camera to capture it :(

Anyway... I should be thankful cause at least I've caught the moment with my own eyes! :) To see the beauty of life that not everyday, everyone can see :)

And yup I went running today. Pretty worried for my 2.4 cause... I still failed the timing. Felt do disappointed with myself. But I would say that the timing was kind of better, but still failed. Sigh, don't know what to do... But I know I'll pass. That's for sure :) Ran another 4K today! I have to say I don't like running at night, but can't help it either, I went home quite late today anyway.

Today I would say... I kind of push myself more. I was listening to music and the song was C'etait Ici by Yann Tiersen. It's a fast song, I think more than allegro. But I ran according to the pace of the song! And just push myself and push and push and push. I guess I know why my timing failed. I had stitches AGAIN at the beginning. Kinda slowed down...

I've to really get rid of the negative thoughts in my mind. At once glance, running is not a 100% about body. I've always thought I can't run faster than thin people. But whenever I run, there are always people who are of bigger size than me, who run faster than me. If they can run faster than me, I see no reason why I can't run faster than the thin people, right?

In most cases, running is a matter of how much you can push yourself, how much your mind can run with you. When your mind is not there, then you won't be able to run the distance. Our body might not be able to run a thousand miles. But our mind can :)

Sigh, I'm really missing Duolun these days. I guess life is kind of stressful? But... I can do this! I was just pondering those nights, where I would watch 我要上春晚 at night in Duolun, and then dozing off unknowingly. Life was simple and sweet. A hard day of work, followed by a fulfilling dinner, then a shower, a rest and chatting session, switch on the TV, and I'll sleep unknowingly.

I remember once night where I was writing those cards for my GT team (yes I'm revealing to you guys now that I wrote the cards at night actually! While Weijie is asleep haha!), and then suddenly I woke up at 4 AM and my body was slanted to the right from the waist top! I quickly packed my stuff and then just go to sleep again. Sigh, those were the days really! :)

Alright I have to sleep now. Awesome day tomorrow! Trekking Bukit Timah for the first time :D I hope I can reach the top smoothly. I don't want to be a burden to my team, and I know I won't :) See ya!

I won't let you guys down. I won't 

Another week

Raindrops on my window

It's 2:12 AM in the morning and yes I know I shouldn't be blogging. But well I just finished my work, and tomorrow school starts at 12 PM anyway so... All's good. Today was a rainy Sunday. Funny how the weather was all sunny in the late morning, then it just poured throughout the whole afternoon. First was downpour, then followed by lightnings and thunder. Weather oh weather.

Thanks to the rain I couldn't run :/ But I did some work out in my room just now hehe.

Anyway I just finished my work, 3 of them. Well or can I say 2.5 of them. Damn the Monoclonal antibodies, I was really bugged by it just now so yeah. Then it was Clinical Biochem. Lesson learnt don't eat too much prata. And last but not least was CChem reference interval tutorial. Felt so damn guilty for letting Syazwani do all the work (cause we all thought it was individual and turned out it was group so...) But I'll discuss again tomorrow. Got some pointers anyway hehe.

I.... Wouldn't want to feel guilty for literally spending my Saturday free. In fact I was slacking my way through. After this semester, I've made up my mind to make Saturday my rest day. Last semester it was Sunday, but somehow Saturday works better for me now. And after all, it was like 4 days of physically-demanding days. I was really hoping for a break on Saturday.

Another week gone, another week starting. Can't believe it's week 5 now. Time flies huh, felt like it was only yesterday when I stepped into sem 4. But yes, it's been a short month now.

Alright I guess that's all for now. Pretty sleepy, and still need to pack my bag. I'll sleep by 3, that's a promise.

Good morning world.

Aches

Where shall we go next?

Phew, it's the third day after Poly50 and my legs are still aching. Somehow, my hands, abdomen and chest area too heh. Perhaps it's because of the fact that I went for my KK training yesterday as well. 3 sets of 40 storey climbing! Oh gosh it felt so awesome haha. First time ever in my life that I've climbed such high storeys. But it's worth everything I guess. Pain is temporary, glory is forever! :)

Anyway yesterday was alright. Biostat got cancelled so Kai, Candy and I decided to go hunt for our trekking shoes. We went to Velocity but no shoe sizes for us. We then went to Toa Payoh! Thankfully I got it. Yayness for 30% discount! From 139 --> 83 ouyeah haha. Bought the base layer as well. There was a promotion too! Wee :) Good day to shop I guess.

I'm just left with a few more things and I'm ready (equipment wise) for the trip heh. Went back to school for the training. Was expecting myself to stop halfway cause I would feel tired. Well, I didn't! So proud of that haha. Even though yeah I sweat like a freaking pig. I guess I really do have excessive sweat glands heh. We also did sets of push ups and crunches in between the climbs.

I've got this awesome feeling about the trip, I think my team mates are awesome haha. We support each other and we're one bunch of fun-loving people. Sometimes when we're surrounded by awesome people, the hardest things in life will feel like a breeze. One, cause of the positive energy we're drawing and two, cause of the fun which takes away our fatigue.

Can't wait for my KK trip, I want to prove myself wrong again :)

Climbing a mountain is one thing I want to do before I die. I'm young, and considered "fit" so I think it's one opportunity of a lifetime for me to fulfil my wish. What's life without challenges? And yep, it's all in the mind I guess. If you don't have it, then you don't have it.

Anyway I came up with this today:

"The mind speaks louder than the body, as the heart speaks louder than the mind, just as action speaks louder than words"


Well basically, there are times in life when things go "mind over body". We might be limited by the boundaries of our body. But our mind doesn't have one. It can travel to the ends of the world while our body remains at the other end. Just like the mind, when we leave our hearts at home and go to a place. Then somehow we don't really belong to the place.

Wow I just wrote the above paragraph?! :O

Anyway yeah, that's the thing heh. Mr Helmi told us how our mind would "play" with us when we're reaching the submit. So well, I'm telling myself everyday that I will be reaching the summit, and see the sunrise with my own eyes woots! Haha.

Today was alright I guess, Biostat was cancelled again so I went home to put some stuff down, don't wanna carry my heavy bag for my sports elective in the evening. Met Doreen back in school and we went for our 2nd Sports Elective Fitness Programme! (SEP in short heh). Today we did circuit training! Not bad, quite fun :) And miraculously my aches we gone but... After we left school it's back rawr!

Then met Jolene, Sharon, WQ, Ben and YP for super belated birthday celebration for Sharon and Weilun! Ate at Char Grill bar in Clementi. So cheap and so good! I had this fish and salad which only cost 6.90! Really yummy as well. Then for dessert... YP baked a vanilla-based cake! OMG so freaking yummy, it's so fragrant and soft! Yumz, now I know who I need to look for to ask for baking stuff! Haha! :P

And we all headed home after that :)

This week has been an awesome week. Poly50 was really the highlight! I think highlight of my poly life as well, and my year two. Tomorrow I'm just going to take a break in the day, then do my work at night. Cause 4 days of physical training is no joke! But the feeling after that is simply awesome :) Alright see you soon then! Have a great weekend :D

I've gained some, I've lost some. Music is a part of my life afterall. It's my decision, and I shall bear the consequences. 

Poly50! GT did it! We did it! I DID IT!

Poly50 2011

DEFINITELY A RUN TO REMEMBER

Thank you so much for your hardwork my awesome GT team! :)

I hereby declare...

That the GT team finished our Poly50 today!


And I don't care which position we get, how fast we ran, if we're slower than other teams, if we are faster, cause  WE HAVE FINISHED THE RACE AND NOTHING CAN CHANGE THAT FACT (Y).


It was a really awesome experience! Definitely a run to remember! :) It was my first Poly50 round, and I think most of our first runs as well. So it was quite challenging and definitely  memorable for all of us. Isn't just so awesome when you do something for the first time, and just simply make this first one an awesome one? And the best part of all is to actually prove myself wrong!

When I entered poly, and saw the event poly50, I told myself straight in the face no, I won't join that as I know I can't do that. I know that we just need to roughly run 5 rounds (AKA 3 KM) but well not really run but sprint. When we decided to join this year's Poly50, I told myself yeah okay lets give it a try. And I've proved myself wrong! An event that I said I can't do, is done by me today! With my awesome team mates! :)

Seriously FABULOUS job to my GT team! We did it! With the fact that not all of us are seasoned runners, and that we have 5 girls in our team, I really feel we have done an awesome job! And to someone who feel she can only run one round, who says so! :D And to someone who looks thin and non-sporty like, well she gave it a try and ran the freaking Poly50! I really feel proud of the two of them! :D

Sometimes it's really not the time and distance that matters, but the will and effort and MINDSET we put in. Last night I was feeling really jittery about Poly50. I was thinking what if I'm the last few runners left behind. What if I dragged my team down and we lose. What if, what if, how about, and all those doubts. But hey! I did it and we all did it and we finished the race!

In the first two rounds I was feeling really sick to an extent I wanted to vomit. But I guess after consecutive rounds, I feel more "used" to it and then I can sprint more at some points of the race. It was quite bad, in a sense there are many people running at the same time. I was really scared I will knock onto someone and make he/she fall. Ended up, I'm the one getting knocked by this guy in the downhill part. Thankfully I didn't fall -.- if not the result would be disastrous.

Okay I shall enjoy my muscle aches from today! Do some stretchings before sleep and then KO till morning. I have KK training tomorrow :O Stairs here I come! But seriously, today is one of the happiest days in my life. Looking forward to have sweet dreams tonight! Today was such an awesome day, a day I'll never forget! A day that I'll mark in my heart's calendar :) Nights!

Poly50 2011, definitely a run to remember

Running with happiness

Don't stop running!

When you doubt yourself.

That's when you lose the battle >:)

Okay I actually took the title from The Best Pessimist's song, Walking With Happiness. Oh well I changed it to running because tomorrow is the day! Yes Poly50 day! I've been training for it so tomorrow we shall see our fruits of labour haha. Well I'm sure we can't beat the other awesome teams like CLS etc, but I just want to make this race a run to remember. It's the journey that matters, not the position.

It's our race! So lets just have fun, finish the race, and have a blast of our poly lifetime. For most of my team, this is our first time running for poly50 so not sure if it will be exciting, tough, challenging or fun, but yes let us finish the race and seriously make this race a run, a race to remember! :)

If I'm not wrong, this would be my first race in SP. I've never participated in any sporting event before so this would be my first one! Really hope I can make it, and but yeah, I mean my aim for this event is to simply run the race, finish the race, remember the race. I've learnt from our KK briefing today. To make a decision which you doubt, is already a sign you're brave enough to step out of your comfort zone. So you should be proud!

Anyway yep today we had our KK sharing session by the October team. Had my Napfa run today as well. Damn, failed by 2 minutes. Really hope I can pass. Not hope, but I'm sure I will and I can pass!

Well honestly speaking, I'm kind of "intimidated" by the trip. Well for someone like me, who have low self esteem, seeing the team today, I feel like I'm the fattest and most unfit guy there. The others look so lean and buff! I'm just... Some "big" guy there. And after hearing the sharing session by the October team, about how tough the condition there can be... I was a bit scared.

BUT.

Then again, I tell myself. It's not the mountain you conquer, but yourself. And didn't I always tell myself? That when I doubt myself, that's when I lost my battle. I would like to take this opportunity of climbing Mount Kinabalu as a challenge to myself. I've taken up the challenge, why bothered feeling scared and unsure about yourself? I think it's better to just take the challenge, do it, and finish it!

And yes as shared previously by the October group, the experience will be something of a lifetime. Something that could change my life and something I would remember for eternity. Just like the Inner Mongolian OCIP. It may be an environmental project, but it also taught me things about life. Not just about trees and being green.

That's the thing I guess. Travelling abroad, sometimes, could just give you more experience and teach you things that you cannot learn at whatever place you're at now. Because to me, life is the world undiscovered :)

Poly50 tomorrow! Jia you my GT runners!!! We can do this! Lets make this a run we'll remember! RAWRRRRR

Running

My all time favourite quote that I thought of while running last time.

My mantra for running

My third day of exercising. Whew, I'm pretty tired and shagged, and what's worst is that i'm helping at the Pol-ITE Canoe sprint event at Macritchie for the whole day. I hope I'm not too tired to last the whole event. But definitely going to take tomorrow night. Been really harsh and tiring for the past 3 days. Sure I deserve a break right whew.

Anyway today was alright I guess. It's my first fitness training programme! Signed up with Doreen hehe. The first lesson was alright I guess. It's more of an introduction to the 5 NAPFA stations etc. Hmm I wasn't expecting this. Cause in the description box of SAS, it says this programme teaches you how to exercise properly and how to keep fit properly. Didn't know it's about NAPFA training heh.

But at least we're taught how to do the stations properly and how to train for them. Sadly I couldn't do a single pull up. And do standing broad jump argh. My lap timing was rather horrible too. 2 min 10 seconds! Rawr. Not sure if I can really run within 12 minutes on Tuesday. Wait wait, I can! What's with the thought. Must be positive huh, and must be confident.

Honestly speaking, I'm not really a fan of the track :/ Somehow I run faster when I run ouside (like from my house to HV, or around Pandan Valley, or at the running track). I feel pretty confined to run in the track. Or well perhaps it's just because of the fact that I've been running for the past three days, not forgetting the gymming session as well. My muscles are tired and weary so... Argh, maybe.

Somehow, I love running. I may not be born to be a sportsman after all. But I'm really glad that I'm someone who can enjoy sports. Who enjoy running, and just simply exercising. I don't wanna be a runner too. Just someone who loves running. I know I can't make the commitment of a runner, like run everyday, train my timing etc.

Running to me is kind of similar like walking (even though they're VERY different haha). Just like walking, I get to forget about things while running. I love the feeling of running. Feels like you're free to run, to roam everywhere you want to. Too bad there's no grasslands in Singapore. If there is I would really love to run freely on the grassland. Just run as and where I want to.

Running is just a beautiful form of exercise. We humans are born to roam around the earth. For thousand of years the earlier humans have been walking here and there. Running to catch their food, running to avoid predators. Of course, running has been part of the sporting events. Ultimately, I really enjoy running. Sometimes I don't really care about my timing. I really care about my distance though.

I may be fat, and overweight. Run slower than other people, run slower than girls. But I really enjoy running. Running gives you the freedom to run. Gives you the time to get away from life. It's really one awesome feeling when you run. Feeling of freedom and liberation and at the same time, happiness. And of course, that joyful satisfaction you get after exercising.

Alright I need to sleep already, I have to wake up early tomorrow. Oh dear, hopefully I'll get enough rest and hopefully tomorrow's event will run smoothly! See you all!

Don't run for the sake of running.

Kept inside

Choose the path, walk on it

Walk the miles, with your own feet

But don't you ever decide to sit

And not walk the path, that lays in front of you

Today was a really, tiring day. But I guess all the fatigue was really worth it! Anyway just wanna tell you... I'm selected for KK trip this December!!! Okay not really "selected" but some people decided not to go so there was some empty slots. Kai called me up yesterday and Mr Helmi asked if I'm interested. So I just say sure why not. I mean... It's a freaking 4000m mountain! When in life can you climb one? :D

But comes the training as well. I hope I can pull through everything, even though I can't do pull up -.- I need to train! And yes I can and I will! Hehe. I think it's a good opportunity too, I mean to train for KK, I can also train for my SCMS 10K marathon which is in 31 more days T_T be positive! I can do it :D :D So I guess I'm killing three birds with one stone. For KK, for SCMS, for being healthy! (Y)

Tomorrow I'll be starting my fitness training programme. I hope I won't regret joining that. Well after hearing Vithya's story about how tough it is I was being a bit apprehensive. But I guess, I mean hopefully, it won't be -.- but she told me since I have a mindset of training for my SCMS, it won't be that tough. I hope.

Can't believe it but I've been exercising for the past consecutive three days... Really afraid my body can't take it but I think should be fine. I really need to sleep when I need to sleep. And I think it's only for this week and (half) of next week. I'm really scared of my 2.4k test this Tuesday. Somehow my timing was inconsistent. I used to run 12, 13, and today I run 17. But today should be due to the previous gymming session. Was really tired after that and we went for a run.

I hope on Tuesday I can pass the test. But at the same time I don't want to exhaust myself. Hmph, I can do this! :) I would really love to climb mount KK though. I seriously feel it's a once in a lifetime experience. I'm not someone who LOVES climbing and adventure. But I really do enjoy doing it, and I like to accept the challenge. And as the saying goes, it's not the mountain you conquer but yourself :)

And... Let me break this shocking news.

I've decided not to play for MD next year, and thus not going for band for this semester :( I don't really wanna say the whole thing but to put it in a short simple way, I think that I can't juggle band and studies for this semester :/ And I don't want to come for band as and when I want, depending on my workload. It wouldn't just be nice and appropriate. After all, if I couldn't fulfil the attendance requirement, then I wouldn't be able to play for MD either so yeah.

I couldn't blame anything to band. I'm blaming myself for my lousy time management. But yeah, and I don't want to quite halfway through MD and disappoint the others. I'll feel really guilty. Even now, I feel guilty for making the decision. But my heart have made up his mind. So do myself. In life we gain some, we lose some. I gain more time, while I lose the joy (temporarily) of being in the band.

Life has to go on as well.

Would love to thank Vanessa for the reply to my email, and for her kind understanding. I hope the others would mind it too.

Life is such an amazing journey, filled with winding roads and forked roads. When you meet a forked road, will you regret taking the left road and not the right? And vice versa? And if you took the wrong choice, you'll have no choice but to keep on walking till you found the right path again. But what's worst is when you just sit in between the road. You're not going anywhere, you're not progressing anywhere.

Life is funny.

Alright signing off now! Continuing my work again, just blogging cause I feel like it heh. See you!

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