The twenties

 You're off to great places

Hello hello and hello! I know sorry for not blogging on Saturday, the night I would usually leave aside for blogging. But well I decided to blog today. October's moving pretty fine I guess, moving on to the tenth month of the year, slowly and surely. And soon we'll say goodbye to 2013. Then we'll be amazed on how quickly time has passed us by.

Talking about time, I just went to Ko Harry's wedding last night. Well he's someone who works with my brother. And I suppose I came to a realisation that... You know you're growing up when you start attending weddings of people who you know well, or you're close with. Like your family, friends, colleagues and so on and forth. Not "strangers".

You know when you were young your parent would ask you to accompany them to weddings. And when you ask whose wedding? They'll say their name, their relationship to your family and so on. But you'll still end up with a question mark inside your head. Unless of course if this person is related closely to your family like aunts or uncles or so on.

But now that you grow up, you will attend weddings of people that you clearly know so yes.

Recently I've been seeing lots of people sharing blog posts about being in the twenties and growing up etc, be it people's blogs or even posts in buzzfeed. I enjoy reading them not only because I'm in my early twenties, but also I think that it applies to most of us in life. Like you don't have to be in the twenties to apply what's written on the post heh.

Reading these posts have really got me into thinking about my existence too. About my age, and the age of my friends, and other fellow people who are in their twenties. What is the significance of being in the twenties. What's so special, and so on. The twenties, sadly saying, to me, is one of the toughest years of your life. For various reasons.

To me the twenties, like I said once before on my birthday post, is the year where we're in the middle of choosing between the things we have to do, and the things we want to do. And in some cases, the things we promise to do. When reality gave us a call and like tell us "hello time to wake up from dreaming, I'm here waiting for you to be seen"

It's going to be the year you left the school, or academia as I would like to call it, and enter the school of life. The real life, not those you seen on TVs that shape the way you think about what life is. It's different, sad to say (ha ha). And when you step into it, you'll be shocked, amazed and puzzled by this "real life" that you start to go in denial. Just kidding, I'm just being dramatic.

But yeah, you seem to can't accept life as the way it is.

Perhaps you will start to pile up regrets after regrets in your head. You'll blame yourself, you'll blame others to make it better. But no it won't. Whatever happened, has happened. There's no way you can turn back time to rectify whatever you want to rectify and so on. You can only make do with what you have now, and work well to get what you want.

I saw this on TV a few days ago. Like the rice has turned into a porridge, so what do you do now? Eat the porridge! Don't waste the porridge away. Hahaha

Of course this doesn't apply to everyone. I know some individuals who know what they want to do, choose the path they want to be and at the end of the day, ended up at the destination they want to be in. And good for them!

The twenties may seem daunting but I suppose at the same time, it is the years where we explore. We'll go to places we never been before, try new things, do things we hate, enjoy things we love and so on. Perhaps the years we find our love and soulmate and then settle down and so on an forth. I suppose it is daunting at the beginning. But sweet in the end.

And remember, only us, can make it a sweet ending.

Alright, that's all for tonight. I just want to share my feelings with you and I hope you enjoy reading the post above. Here's to a fanta-bulous second week of October for everyone! You're off to great places, you're off and away!

Hello October

 Það Besta Sem Guð Hefur Skapað Er Nýr Dagur 

-The best thing god has created is a new day-

Sigur Ros, Viðrar vel til loftárása

Okay there was a short earthquake JUST now, jolted my bed for a good 2 seconds and I'm awake now. Was really going to sleep so might as well blog now! Heh heh. Anyho yes can't believe it's October now! We're only left with 3 more months to go through and we're done with 2013, forever. I thought it was yesterday when 2013 begins!

Well it's another month of the year, closer to the end. Hmm comparing to last year's October, I suppose this time round October will be so different, duh, I'm back home already haha. I hope it's going to be a great month ahead. I know it will, and only I can make it a great month ahead. I don't know why but I'm looking forward to year-end heh.

My grandpa's piano is back, as seen from the previous post! I was playing my heart out on Sunday haha. It's so exciting to finally own a piano and be able to play it! Although sadly everything is brought down by half a step because if it's tuned to the original tuning the strings will snap as told by the repairman. So C becomes B and B becomes Bb and so on.

I am so going to be a good transposer after playing the piano for a while haha.

I'll try to play the piano as much as I can, when I can. Although currently the piano is placed at my brother's house. We're planning to make a small room beside my room where we'll put the piano at, so that I can play it easily. Trying to find ways for cheap soundproofing haha I think I can make it. Thinking of using the foams or the egg cartons.

Well September has come to an end so I hope for October to welcome a great smoother ride ahead. Perhaps this will be the month where change is going to take place, for the better. So yup. Only I can make this month an awesome one! :)

Alright that's all for today. Feeling sleepy now so... Good night! Or morning

Last Sunday of September

 Always look for the golden lining

Hello again, blogging on a Sunday dawn as usual, to be exact the last Sunday of this month. September well was a bumpy month no? I don't know but well, seems like it's going to end up on a sweet note. It was a normal Saturday today I suppose, but a Saturday that once again makes me think of how fast time is flying and so on.

Today I came to a realisation that well, now we (our generation) are the ones writing our chapters, our stories. We are no longer the kids that read, and see the chapters our parents and relatives and parents' friends etc are writing. But we are the one writing them now. I suppose time is changing as we all grow up. When we realise that we're adults and no longer the kids we used to be. No longer the young us where world, seems like nothing to us.

So I was talking with one of my (distant) relative and a friend. And we're talking about... Business. About the growth of my hometown, the prospect of the future. About how I can improve the sales of flowers and so on. Seems like it was a few months back when I was talking about random things with friends, chuckling and having fun, enjoying youth like we always wanted to. Now everything seems different, and well, it's normal I suppose.

Even Jeslyn and I were talking about USD/SGD/Rupiah conversion oh gosh haha.

Well I guess she's right, that when we grow up, the topic of the chats we have will change. And it seems pretty weird but well it's life. We are suppose to do this, this is suppose to happen because we are all growing up and life is just doing its job, and time is doing its job too. We're just their employees and yeah, doing what we have to do.

Life is life, like I always said.

Anyway yes September is going to end on a sweet note, literally because my grandpa's piano, which we sent for restoration 2 months back, is finished and will be sent umm today! In fact in a few hours' time haha. So I'm excited to see it back, and also of course, to play on it! My dream is owning a piano comes true, and it's made even better with the fact that it is the piano that my grandfather used to play. So it has a family and historical value to it I suppose.

And after being unplayable for like 15+ years, or for as long as I can remember, it will finally be back in its glory days once more!

Alright gonna wake up early tomorrow for the dearest piano so... I'll talk to you soon :)

Untitled

 I really don't know what title to give for today's post so... Untitled it is.

Anyway hello! It's been 2 weeks since I last blogged. Uh oh feel bad but well last week I really didn't feel like blogging at all somehow, not sure why. Just one of those nights I suppose. Life's so so I guess, was kinda a rough week but hey it's over, and a new one is coming so look ahead yeah! :) Can't believe we're in the middle of September already.

Or more like we're 8 days away from October.

At the beginning of the year I decided to carry out the 365 project where I promise to take a photo a day and compile it so that I can look back on those days. And well yeah I did... Break my promise. I found out I didn't take photo on every single day for the past 264 days. Yes two hundred and sixty four! Left with 101 more days to the end of 2013.

So well I gave up, because I know I can't go back in time to take a photo on a day I missed right? So be it. Nevertheless I have most of the days covered. Like I only miss about 5 days in the 264 days. So it's not bad I guess. Besides, the absence of photo means that there's nothing really special on that day to make me snap a photo. So yay yay.

And yes, looking back on the photos... I feel really really shocked at how fast time has been flying really. January, I was still in SP... And February, left SP and so on and forth. Feels like graduation was a month ago when it's actually 4 months back. It just feels so weird and bizarre really. But well time is time I guess and no one can comprehend it well.

And then looking front, we're left with like 3 more months to the end of this year. Next month is October, and next next month is November and... Then December. Feels really quick huh. I thought time would fly slower when I got back here but it's really the complete opposite of what I've been thinking before I return here. I suppose it's the things I do everyday.

Sure, school fills up most of my time in the day but here I have more things that fill my day I suppose? And well when you have things that become a daily routine, and then you do it for a good long time, I suppose it will really make time seem to fly fast.

I always have an analogy for the speed of time. It's like well imagine time is like a water gushing at a constant speed through a hose. When you have nothing much to do the hose has a normal shape and the water just gushed normally. But when you have lots of things to do the space inside the hose got smaller and water gushed faster. Get it?

So yeah activities = the space of the inside of the hose.

Well it's been almost 4 months since I'm back home and well I finally get the hang of it here. The routine and stuff. Though my heart is still at conflict with reality, I'm trying to find the middle way where I can walk on, peacefully. And I suppose, I've been making my plans and strategies to do so. Life will give a way I believe so yes. I'll just have to wait (and do) patiently.

Alright that's all for now. Here's to insomnia.

Sadness

 

 Just get back up, like you always do.

Hello again, it's Saturday (gone) again, it's Sunday today! Yay! Ahh alright, kinda sad that another weekend is coming to an end, but I'm sure the next one is coming soon hehe. Well when it comes to work, you will seriously treasure the value of a weekend. Sure, you love weekends during school too. But trust me when you work, it's even more valuable.

But well, not sure if my weekend counts as a weekend.

Anyway, emo title? Yes but no but well, alright let me talk about sadness today. Let me discuss about it. Well for the whole day today I was feeling moody. And I seriously don't know why, like seriously. I suppose it's "that time of the month again" and well I somehow always have it. Once a month, there's always a day where I'll feel sad for no reason.

I suppose being sad is really a norm in life? We all know that life is like a roller coaster. There's the up moments, the down moments and so on. And thus when we're sad we're just really in that down side of life and just like any other roller coaster ride a down moment is always followed by an up moment. Unless you want your roller coaster ride to hit the ground (yikes).

And somehow we're told that it's not good to be sad. But I beg to differ.

I think it's really alright to be sad. To just be sad, to go into your room and be sad. Switch off the lights, shut off your world with music and feel sad. To drown yourself in sorrow and just be sad. Be sad as much as you can and as you want. It's really fine to be sad.

Just make sure that you get back up again, like you always do.

I always remember the song Mausam by Nithin Sawhney. One of the lines from the lyric is translated as "too much of sadness, or happiness is not good for you my friend". Something along that line. Which is very true. So the next time you feel sad, just feel sad. Just tell yourself is alright to feel sad. But remind yourself that you can't be sad all the time.

I suppose in life, nowadays we've forgotten to be "negative". Well I mean of course, please don't be negative. But I refer to the fact that we've forgotten to taste the bitterness in life. We search for the sweet things but when we got something bitter we feel like as if no, it's unacceptable, I won't eat it, I'm not gonna taste it.

Just like how we launch a complain to a restaurant if their food isn't up to standard.

Life isn't made out of sugar. It's a mix of things we taste and savour and just like any other food, we won't want to eat one food and one food only for the rest of our lives, yeah? So it's good to taste bitterness at times, just make sure you don't taste it for the rest of your life but learn the bitterness so the next time you come across with it, you're not that shocked.

Just remember, to get back up again like you always do!

Seven Hundred And Thirty One Days Ago

 

 Seven Hundred And Thirty One Days Ago

Seven hundred and thirty one days ago, I was in Duolun. In fact we just reached Duolun from the 8 hours bus ride from Beijing. Probably at the exact time now I was asleep cause I remember that day, I was tired haha. At Duolun Grand Hotel to be exact, and today (or later in the morning) we were all preparing for our first day of the project.

731 days ago, felt like yesterday.

It sucks being a sentimental person I suppose, but I'm glad that I prepared myself for future sentimentality because I always keep a journal wherever I travel. So that I can relive the moments again whenever I need to in the future. Well I know one shouldn't cling to the past so much. But it's good that I treasure moments I suppose? It's quite... Interesting.

I really have to say that the Green Desert Project back in 2011 was really the best 2 weeks I had in my life. It's the trip that truly opens up my eyes to a lot of things. Firstly to China itself, as a country. To the environment. To traveling. And to friendship. I learned so much in that 2 weeks, done a lot and treasured a lot as well.

The awesome team I worked with, the friendly locals of Duolun, the beautiful sights of Inner Mongolia and of course the planting of the trees. What more can I ask for, right? It was definitely truly a memorable experience for me that I am so glad to be a part of.

Alright I'm just going to spend the next 11 days reminiscing. As usual. For the 2nd year.

Thank you my fellow GTs

Reminiscent

 Reminiscent

The tittle pretty much says everything about how I felt for the past two days. Reminiscent. I suppose it's just one of those days where you look back upon the past, and tell yourself again, remind yourself again about it. But particularly though, I'm really missing my band life a lot. I don't know why but yeah, I just miss it very much. Perhaps because I was looking through the photos I took for last year's MD and I just got really band-sick about it (haha).

I guess being band-sick, I call it, will happen to all bandits out there unless you really hate band (which if so, then why did you join band in the first place). The feeling of playing together with a bunch of awesome music-maker or music-making-enjoyer. The feeling of being on stage making music, moving along with it. All these feelings and experience are really precious and priceless. I wish I can go back, and feel these feelings all again but well. I can't.

There's no band in my hometown. Classical music is rarely heard here. I suppose my only option for being in a band again is to actually start one but of course that sounds rather crazy. Anyway, but yeah it's a dream of mine to become a conductor, although I myself can't conduct except when I'm in my room enjoying some music with a pen on my hand. Then my room turns into my esplenade and my wall turns into my band. If you get what I mean.

Well I love music since young and thus I joined band. I'm just so so thankful that I made the decision to join back to band when I'm in poly. I seriously can't and don't want to imagine if I were not to. Terrifying! Band has been a platform for me to really express myself with music and also to enjoy it. I believe as much as you enjoy listening to music, nothing beats the joy to have the ability to make it. Just like cooking. Imagine you love pizza, and you can make pizza.

Joining band was definitely a great choice I made in life.

Remembering my SYF days, my MD days and so on and forth. It's just so nice really.

Anyho, it's Saturday (gone) again! And also, hello September! I had an Awesome August. I know I will have a Superb September :) Happy Sunday folks!