Decision

 We all want to go

With the breeze, we will blow

Today was an awesome Thursday....! Yes somehow I feel that today was a Thursday -_- I don't know why but I kept on telling myself that it's Thursday and since I have to do something on Friday I kept on telling myself that I have to do it tomorrow. It was only when Candy and Kai brought up the fact that it's Thursday tomorrow that I realised oh it's a Wednesday.

Not sure if I'm growing old or... I don't know.

Totally enjoyed today's pizza-lunch treat from Dr Simon with my fellow DBS research people who are in school :D There were only like 8 of us, and I miss the 16 of us. Being in the exchange today really made me miss that place a lot. It's like literally our second home for last semester, since we've been using that for our classroom and were only required to move out of there when there's lab or Biostat.

Projects, discussions with friends, lunch when FCs are full, breakfast, early morning sessions before class starts, studying session with Candy, presentations. Oh man I really miss The Exchange! Haha. Nevermind soon I will come back there. And I even heard that the place is going to be even better ^^ So can't wait to see the revamped exchange eh.

Anyway it was really a great chit chat session the 8 of us had with Dr Simon, Mr Lui and Miss Kwek. Talking about lots of stuff from being a vegetarian to researchers and careers and so on. Great to have laughters and chatters once again I guess. Since most of us are now doing ITP either alone or pairs so... Yeah can get pretty lonely no?

After work today I went to have Starbucks with Candy! Cause I owe the 5 of them Starbucks and promised to treat them if I win the International Friendship Day Photography Competition. And I did win the  consolation prize so I owe them a drink. So I don't owe Candy anymore! Hehe. Then Jon came and we were talking about apps haha. So cool, but IT is never my forte I suppose :P

That's all for the day and we went off in the end :) A good 2 hours chat really made me happy. Thanks to the two of you! :)

Well somehow at the end of the day I was feeling really sulky again. Somehow. Felt like I don't want to do anything. In fact it took me like 40 minutes to get up and bathe. Since I was just lazying around in bed. But the call my sis made just now really made my day. So thank you (Y). I'm just tired perhaps. And yes I kinda miss home (especially the food!).

It's the Wednesday syndrome I suppose.

Sometimes all I need after a long day is to take a longer bus route home, or to have a long walk, or just purposely walk a bit longer home. Many people would want to rush home so that they can get a good rest. But it is these longer walks and solitary times that sort of made me happier :l And calmer and more relaxed. That's why I believe at times, Loneliness gives me happiness.

Alright that's all for now. I'll see you again! :)

Humidity

 I would sit down and stare at the sky

Watching puffy clouds going by

Sometimes, little black birds flying high

Feeling as if time would never fly

As I watched the night saying hi

So today marks the beginning of week 7. It's an awesome day to start the week I suppose. Pretty busy and productive and... Enlightening day haha. And a humid one too (thus the title). Still having aches from Sundown but it's good. Pain from running is one of the best pains we can have and can feel haha. Plus I believe it will go away soon so yep :)

Anyway I met Dr Simon again today and we were discussing about my findings about image quantification. The discussion was really rather "intense" and quite funny! But at the end of the day, thanks to him I understand so much better about it. And also cause I accidentally broke my pen's tip and Dr Simon was like "are you okay?" he must have thought I'm angry or something like that hahaha. Nahh it's just my itchy hands. I've broken so many pen tips before.

Today was good cause Candy and Kai came to school so the 4 of us had lunch again. Just like the old days. I miss us, the 6 of us. Oh well the day will come sooner or later. It was rather an interesting talk during lunch about our future. We've yet come to another stage of indecisiveness and insecurity and confusion. But much worst as compared to the last time we had it - which was sec 4?

The more we grow up, the more life reveals itself to us.

Nevertheless, keep on doing what you love, keep on doing what is true. At the end of the day, we'll be who we wanna be I guess?

After I left work today it was somehow funny cause a rush of sadness just come and hit me. Suddenly. Maybe it's the songs that I'm listening to (found some awesome songs recently by the way hehe). Or maybe is the fatigue from work that I got, and everything wasn't a great match maybe and thus I just felt sad. It has nothing to do with work. Just... Hormones I would call it.

So I decided to drown it all off with music. So I took my iPod and listened to music while sitting outside my room, watching the sky. Slowly and slowly, somehow I closed my eyes and when I opened it, the night has fallen. It was a surreally relaxing experience. It feels really good and just calm. I think I can do this more often. Best way to destress and unwind.

I'm puzzled by life. So let's enjoy its bittersweet-ness

Sundown 10KM Marathon - DONE :D

 Sundown 10 KM - DONE

Hello people! Yes I just finished my Sundown 10KM marathon! It's sundown so of course it's a night marathon. The first ever time in my life that I run past 9 O clock so yeah. But it was great! I truly enjoyed running past the Singapore night line though we didn't pass by the flyer, MBS and so on. But nevertheless I loved the run and it was great :)

Well as I once said in my blog (a few days or a week ago) that running Sundown is truly something like defying gravity for me. Not only that I only trained for one month, I have not been running for like 2 or 3 months before that. Tracing back I started running on 29th April. So yup about a month. Along the way I've been feeling afraid that I won't be able to make it and I'll feel really tired and so on.

Well today I proved everything wrong :)

I've been also telling myself that well since I've only been training for one month, it's alright for me to not reach my target (of beating my PB). I was already targetting that a 1h20m is my target or worst a 1h30m. And once again I broke those words and prove myself wrong. So I'm very happy with that. Even though my PB is 1h10m from Standchart, and that this time round I ran for 1h12m, I'm still very happy :)

The thing is I'm not really an avid runner. Not someone who's crazy into running and would love to run fast, beat my PB everytime and so on. Well of course I do want to beat my PB. I just enjoy running. Cause one, I feel that running is an activity where I can forget about life. Just run and be focused about the race. Hit my target, hit my goal and cross the finish line. Life was somehow left behind at the starting line.

Running is something I do to prove myself wrong, to prove others wrong. As you read from above along the 4 months of training I kept on telling myself that it's alright for me to hit 1h20m for this race. And I've been feeling scared and so forth. But hey I did it last night. I ran Sundown and I even ran before the time that I thought would finish my race.

And of course running is an awesome sport I enjoy doing. Kinda funny how I only started to enjoy running last year when I wanted to sign up for Standchart. Then it just becomes something I enjoy doing and then a weekly affair. Then it was Poly50, KK trip, Standchart and now Sundown. More races to come of course!

Of course deep down I'm disappointed that I couldn't beat my PB. I'm sad that well perhaps I could have trained harder, pushed harder during the race, could have done this and that. But it's all over, I may not break my PB but all I know is I've given all my best and I've truly enjoyed my race just now. And honestly speaking, enjoying my race and finishing it are the two things that I want to achieve in my race.

I realised the more I'm worried about time, about the distance as I was running just now. As I listened to my songs I was telling myself "Oh no I've reached this song that means the time is about ____" and when I looked at the distance I've ran I was "Oh my I have __ KM more to go!" And well whenever I have those thoughts in my mind, I'll shut it off and continue running. To an extend I started lip-syncing to the songs as I ran.

The thing is, I learnt not to be bothered so much by the time. By the distance. I want to enjoy running. I learnt from my past experiences that doing things for the reason that you want to enjoy it, for the sake of joy and just because you love doing it, is much more enjoyable. Sometimes we try so hard to be perfect, to do well, to be the best and we totally forgot to enjoy the thing we are doing! :)

I can't imagine running and looking at the time every KM or so, then feeling so insecure and stressed out cause I will feel the need to run faster, or the thought that I've been really running slowly for the past KM and so on. It will feel sucky really (for me that is).

Of course it's important to have a goal or mindset as well. I mean we wouldn't want to just run a marathon for the sake of running only eh? I did have a goal, to beat my PB. I don't really care (keyword: really) about my timing. Because to me every run is just something that I give my best for. Something I will enjoy about and something I will love.

So if at the end of the day I don't run before my targeted timing, I will feel disappointed of course. But I won't be devastated by it. I won't regret and blame myself for not running faster and so on. As long as I enjoyed my race and I gave it all, I will be contented with the result.

You can call me a loser, I guess this is one "loser" part of me. But this is my philosophy to running.  It will just be something I enjoy doing, and I love doing. I just want to remain in a part, in a place where running is something I do for joy and not for achievements. Well, of course it is for achievements too.

It's for self-achievements :)

Congratulations to all runners! Don't be too saddened by your timing. Runs like these are just something that tell you there's another time for you to prove yourself wrong. And thus to run faster. And to those who are still running as I'm writing this now, all the best and don't give up! :) Alright going to bed now, see you!

Another race down, many more to go, many more to prove myself wrong. It's alright when others defeat you. But it is when you let yourself defeat you, then you should be ashamed of yourself.

Alone

 Going to the airport never fail to make me feel

Of going somewhere else, somewhere far

Let's forget about life, about reality

To a place we've never been before.

Hey! Sorry for not blogging for the entire week. Was rather busy and tired and somehow whenever I reached home, I'll get so tired that I will just sleep. Like I fell asleep on Monday, and woke up at 5 AM on Tuesday and then I was late. And so on. Plus my sisters were in Singapore from Wednesday to today. They went back this afternoon and went to the airport to send them. Thus I only worked for half a day.

I'm alone once again.

Yesterday I went to the National Skin Centre to get this lump on my face checked. Since it's been there for 3 weeks oh my. Good news is, it's benign. It's an epidermoid cyst and apparently it's kinda common. The doctor was really nice, he explained to me everything about that cyst. The bad news is, I might need to do an excision to it AKA surgery. And another good news is, it may go off on its own.

Dear cyst on my face, as much as you love me, my face, for being your home, I would totally appreciate it if you can go off. I mean... It's not good to just live in someone else's property you know? Okay you get what I mean. With the power of my mind I bet I can get rid of it! :)

So today I went off at 1230 and we headed for the airport at about 1.30 plus. After sending them off... Somehow I just have this unexplainable urge to be alone once again. Perhaps it's the emo ness that my sis had went back. I don't know what, but I decided to take the long ride back which is by train. I usually take the taxi. So I took the train and alighted at City Hall which from there I took a bus.

Today felt weird. I don't know why.

Anyho, I cooked dinner for today and it kinda failed. Meant to make potato and carrot soup and it turned into this baby-food-like food BLEAH. But it's good haha. Thankfully there's chicken. And today my Oliver Shanti Album arrived! All the way from the US which I bought it from Amazon. I've been looking for the CD and now it's here! I love all his songs from the album. But Sacral Nirvana - best.

He may be a child molester, but his songs make me happy. Such a pity he did those things (I'm not too sure either, just reading up on the net). Though he's a genious in making music but well... We're not sure of other's life are we?

It's Sundown race day tomorrow and I'm very nervous and excited and whoop whoop haha. I'm going to give in my best, and gonna try to beat my PB! Even though it seems impossible. Really, I'm defying gravity tomorrow! Alright guys that's all for now. I'll update you about my race! :)

Sacral Nirvana

Happy Graduation 2012!

 Passing time!

Yes happy graduation 2012 to the fellow graduants who'll be graduating this week! It'll be my turn soon and in one year's time (around there) I'll get to congratulate myself hahaha. Anyway yup to those graduating from poly this year, happy graduation! Time to celebrate and give yourself a pat on your back for the three years of hardwork and sweat and tears and blood (for Biomed student HAHAHA). You guys deserve it! :)

I'm still on my journey of my graduation and I'll make it a beautiful one.

Today was alright I guess... It's pretty mentally draining though. I don't know why. I guess it's the loads of articles that I've been reading, and the fact that I couldn't find the answer for one question that have been bugging me. Dr Tan told me to look at the basics again. Well, I will! Research is really a mentally draining job cause yeah... Well all the readings etc is really heavy. But at the end it will be rewarding.

Well the rule in life is that hardwork will be paid off with something satisfying. Not only research! Hehe. Well it's simple. In life there can be many lies, but there's only one truth. So no matter how difficult the question can be, there WILL be an answer and I will find it. Trust me. I cannot give up! :) Lets just follow what Dr Tan told me I'll disect the question again. I'll find it for sure.

Although today was mentally tiring, at the end of the day I get to enjoy a great sectional and dinner with my awesome clarinet section! Thank you for the laughter and the stories :) And we celebrated Chris' belated birthday celebration too hehe. Kinda sad we only have 4 year ones now. I hope some of the others would come back! :)

And today marks the beginning of the graduation week as I said on top. Well yeah, seeing all the happy graduants on their black-and-yellow gowns (as Kayheng put it, bumblebee haha) makes me feel happy too! And of course, I can't wait to be on that gown as well, taking and snapping photos away with my friends. That will happen next year of course.

Well yes I wrote this yesterday, but I wrote another line in my diary.

I'm waiting for the day where these days would turn into a memory. Into something we can smile and laugh about, and at the same time something rewarding that we can look back upon to. And the only way we can and we should make this a reality is to make these days, great days. So just push it, give in your best and live in the moment!

And I'm also waiting for the day when I would return back into this page of my blog, or that page of my diary where I would smile like an idiot, reminiscing the days that passed by me in the blink of an eye. Yet a bittersweet reminder to me of how fast time could fly.

Ah well. Adhi. Let's just live in the moment. Ironic much of how I can't wait to graduate, but don't want my poly life and year 3 to end. And yes, I terribly much miss my life as a student.

Bon nuit!

I'm waiting for these days

 The sun engulfed by the clouds.

It's another Sunday, always funny how time seems to fly quickly during the weekends no? Well, whatever it is, time flies, and we move along with it. It's week 6 tomorrow so lets welcome it with all the open arms and joy! Yay :) 5 weeks went by so yup, still have 23 more hahaha. Which I truly believe it will be gone in a blink of an eye.

Today was another ordinary Sunday I suppose, the usual run, the usual grocery shopping etc. Oh I cut my hair! Hehe. Yes yes some of you might feel that my hair is still short and why do I bother cutting it short? Cause I love short hair :P I come to an extend that when I feel my hair is thick, it's time to go for a haircut. When I can feel my sideburns irritating me, it's time to cut them off. And I even plan my haircut, and my next one. Ho ho ho. I just love myself in short hair, I don't know why.

Cutting my hair on the same shop always reminds me how much time has passed by. Cause I've been going to that shop since I was in primary 5. And the aunty still recognises me, still knows me, still asks me how's poly life and so on. And the occasional chat about the days when I was still in primary 5. How awesome is she eh? And yeah that's why I'm always reminded of how much time has flown by.

Went to eat at Holland in the afternoon again. Craving for some chicken rice but I ended up getting some roasted pork haha. So yummy! And I succumbed to a slice of Coffee Macadamia cheescake from Coffee Bean which is lovely as well, accompanied by a cup of Chai tea latte of course. Well nothing's wrong with indulging and pampering yourself once in a while I guess.

And went for my Sunday running session and oh gosh I don't like today. I don't know why but my timing was worst than last week's one :/ When somehow for the past 3 weeks my timing improves EVERY week. Maybe it's the fatigue factor, or the fact that I actually ran too quickly in the beginning and that's why I get tired easily. So yeah...

Somehow now I'm feeling really scared of Sundown. I don't know, I felt unprepared and just... Not confident about it. Well as I said I may not beat my PB this time round, but that doesn't mean I won't give my best shot. I will run and I will finish the race! That, for sure, will happen. I'm just hoping I can roughly maintain my PB and if best, improve it.

I feel Sundown is my literal meaning of defying gravity. I've been training for Sundown for the past 3 weeks already. As compared to SCMS, I trained it for 3 months or so. See the difference? So if I can really beat my PB in Sundown, I have really defied gravity! You know what I mean right.

Oh well here I come week 6! It's gonna be an awesome week, I know! With my sis coming to Singapore on Wednesday hehe. And Sundown on Saturday, and I have to continue my report and my research! So gonna be busy but I can do it :) See you! Have a great week ahead :)

I'm waiting for these days to turn into a memory. Something we can smile about, but something rewarding we can always look back upon. Like how my memories bring a smile to me, I'm sure these days will do the same to me :)

I guess memories are right

 I guess memories are right

They smile when I needed to smile

Talk to me when I have no one to talk to

Take me to another time, another place

Just like once, where I always do

Today... Was a headach-ey Saturday :/

I woke up in the morning as planned to go for the reccee with the year 3s band members at St John Island but urgh I woke up with a headache and I was sweating! Feeling rather feverish so I decided not to come. Don't wish my condition to be worst when I go there. Even though I already packed my lunch etc, so sorry for not being able to go :( I really wish I could though sigh...

Still having headache now, but thankfully fever's gone. I don't know why either!

Yesterday was a great night cause I fell asleep haha. Reached home at 10 and I lay down in my bed and I didn't realise that I fell asleep till 4. Then I woke up to change into home clothes and then, finally, I continue sleeping till 7 which I then realised I was having fever :/ So I decided to stay at home for the whole day. The day was really hot. But it's good to see the blue skies :)

At night I went for an impromptu dinner with Ade and Neal haha. Oh well we and our impromptuness heh. And was discussing something rather funny hahaha. I don't know, but my choice is ignorance is bliss. Though I find it'll be an interesting choice HAHAHA. And all the best to Neal for your field camp! You can do it! :D

Today when I woke up, those 5 words on the title pop out in my head, suddenly.

I guess memories are right

I don't know how they came about but well yeah. I guess memories are right. Maybe it's time for me to write a poem about it mwahaha. What.

Anyway I haven't showed you have I? Here's a lyric video I made to the song Beautiful Life by Corrinne May! I made the video kinda long ago but just sharing it now. I hope you like it! :) Man can't wait for her concert next month! It'll be awesome :D

Enjoy the video and don't forget to smile! It's a beautiful life~


I guess memories are right

Le drive

Wow I'm currently blogging with my cousin's laptop! Haha. Cause he sent it for repair here and we're making sure that the problem really disappears and nothing's wrong with the lappy. Damn I love the laptop! Haha feel like getting one too heh. Talking about lappy, I realised something is wrong with my laptop! Okay not the laptop but this weird icon appears on my file, especially PDF and PPT files. And it's the downloaded ones that have them.

OMG I hope it's not a virus! :/

And I was talking with Candy on twitter last night about getting Mac haha. Yes Mac is really tempting for me. It has Photoshop and Garageband and so on! That like completes my wish please! Haha. Oh well but I won't be getting one like soon, cause my laptop is working fine. I'm thinking of buying a new one after I graduate though. And yes I'm looking and staring and mesmerising at Mac.

Today was an awesome Thursday I guess. Had a meeting with Dr Tan again, and we talked and new task is given. He gave me an inspiration about something. I'll talk about it below. And since Vithya is still not well yet today I went to lunch with Saeyeoh and Niv! Thanks for accompanying me :D And also then Miss Kwek joined us. We had a great laugh together! :D

And I'm back to work.

Band was alright as well. We had sectionals and I get to practice Indiana Jones. Whew can't believe I'm playing first cause now is the first time that I play first part on clarinet in my life. But it's great, I'll play with my best ability of course! :) Band ended early today but we had a briefing after that. Hehe can't wait for the camp. My station's gonna be awesome.

Okay so what inspiration did Dr Tan gave me?

Alright I really hope just now I don't sound like a lazy guy to him asking about holidays during my ITP. I'm just asking to clarify cause I'm rather confused heh. But then he told me that well in year 3s, we have no holiday. Not entirely true, but metaphorically it is. And I agreed to him telling him well yes, in year 3 all we can do is to push ourselves hard and finish this last sprint of my poly life.

And yeah, his words gave me some inspiration. Like well I know FYP and year 3 and modules and CCA and life and the future is not really a perfect match to begin with. But well I feel that, let's turn the table around and make FYP something we don't dread. But something that turns to drive us through this tough and rough year. Make it a reward you will take from your polytechnic life.

We can do this! We're all in our last sprint already so lets go! :D

Alright I guess that's all for tonight. I want to rest early tonight cause last night I somehow don't get enough sleep. Oh well I have to break the habbit of sleeping late really. Once a habit is formed, it's hard to break. Cultivate good habits. Not bad ones. Nights! TGIF everyone :D

PS: My Moonlit Sailor CD is here!!! From Sweden! Woohoo :D

It's such a cold cold world!

Yup I'm currently listening to Paramore's song Hello Cold World! Actually I found this song a long time ago, thanks to an awesome Youtube user who made a nice lyric video of the song. I'll post it below hehe. It's such an awesome song! Really awesome. I officially found a new song for running haha. Perfect song to run, it will make you like just run, don't care about the world! Haha just kidding.



But yeah, don't care about all the negativities that we get from this world. Cause it's such a cold cold world! And I'll just make the best of everything I have :D :D :D

Somehow today makes me feel old. Cause... Okay not only today.

Somehow I feel that today was a Thursday. So this morning I freaked out cause I thought I forgot to bring my mouthpiece for band "later". Even though last night I packed my bag with an extra shirt (thinking I will be changing for the talk today which is a freaking Wednesday). Secondly on Monday I wanted to tell Kayheng that I can't come for the reccee on Saturday as I want to rest before Sundown. But the race is next Saturday! Hahaha. Oh dead, I'm growing old.

But well, we are all growing old aren't we?

Today was a normal day I guess... Just ordinary Thursday. Lunched with Cai Hong again as Vithya went back home halfway to see the doctor. Hope everything will be fine for you ASAP! Just take care and rest well hehe. Drink lotsa water. After work today I went to the sharing session for the LEAP Team Nepal and Kili who went for their expeditions last March/April. Thanks for the awesome sharing session today, cause it really drives me to accomplish my LEAP Advance too! :)

I'm aiming for Nepal. It's a beautiful country which I really aim to go. Plus it's one item from my life's to-do list so yeah... I hope I can go there! Plus seeing the photos from today's sharing. Ahh so gorgeous! And... Looked scary too. Oh well. I'll make this a come true! As Paramore says... It's not how you planned it to be but how you make it happen! Woohoo (still high on the song apparently).

Alright that's all for today. I'll see you once again. Ciao!

Shallow

 Miss those tree planting days

When peace and joy come in different ways

The smell of soil, the autumn's breeze

Where I let go of reality, setting it free

I'm currently writing this while listening to Distant World CD from Chrisvensia. Yes. Distant World. FINAL FANTASY SONGS! I sweat, FF is like one of the best memories of my childhood. Something that's worth remembering about, something I feel proud of playing. Though I only play like FFV (I think) VII, VIII, IX, and lastly was X. I did play FF tactics on Gameboy though haha. My favourite gotta be VIII and IX. X is nice too, but the first 2 are just special. Somehow.

I always feel sad whenever I listen to Final Fantasy songs. A sense of sentimentality, and a tinge of the good days of my childhood, the songs of Nobuo Uematsu, everything just fits in so nicely. And that's how I feel sad. And the sad thing is I don't know where did my songs go to! I used to have a bunch of FF songs in my computer. I think it's in my computer but it's.. Practically unused now. I hope can retrieve back the stuff I got there heh.

Anyway today was a normal Tuesday I suppose. What an unlucky morning where I lost my  phone's bottom cover! The one used to cover the simcard and SD. And thanks tot hat my phone wasn't functioning, it always asks me to restart and so on. So today after school I went to HTC Help Centre straight ahead (I was planning to run in school :/) And yup got a replacement now.

Vithya has been sick for the past two days, she's coming back tomorrow though! I hope you're feeling better already today so that you've the health and strength to come tomorrow hehe.

Today I just realised how shallow minded people can be. How dare you judge other people without even knowing the real fact. Nevermind, Karma will do its job.

But anyway at the end of the day, I went home and I put down my bag, changed and went right away for a run! It was like 7.15 PM by the time I ran. And so the sky was dark and it feels good to run at night, along the car lights and under the street lamps! Ran to Holland and back, it really feels good hehe. Seriously can't wait for Sundown now :)

And I cooked the fluffiest omelette I've ever cooked! So fluffy and nice, with tomatoes :D Damn I hope I can maintain the quality of my future omelettes heh. It's pretty hard to cook an egg. Fluffy and nice. Most of the time my eggs are either normal, ruined, and destroyed haha. Even my chorizo Spanish omelette wasn't as fluffy as today's one! So I'm proud heh :P

Ah cause today Vithya was still on MC, Caihong was kind enough to accompany me for lunch! I was just going back to my office when I met her and she asked me if I wanna go lunch together. Though she didn't eat as she ate ice cream already hahaha. Nevertheless thank you for your company and it feels good to know I have someone who shares the same thought as me! Apparently I'm not alone. And it feels good to know that :)

Yeah... I guess that's all for this Tuesday. What a day! Haha. See you then :) Going for tomorrow's LEAP Nepal and Kili sharing! Yep, I WANT to be the next one going next year :D

C'est la vie, la vie continue

Happy Mother's Day

 Inner Mongolia, oh Inner Mongolia

How much I miss you

Well first of all wishing all the beautiful mothers around the world a Happy Mother's Day! Well... Theoretically, it's not Mother's Day in Indonesia so... But who cares, doesn't need a Mother's day to tell our mums how much we love them and how wonderful they are! So to my mum, I love you! Hehe. Well... It's very hard for me, well I'm a guy, to say that to my mum like suddenly. I think if I do that she'll be damn shocked too. Hehe.

Today was another unfruitful Sunday :( Sigh, again I woke up late! Can't believe that I woke up late again even though I set like 3 alarms haha. I did wake up at 9 though, then at 10. And I told myself lets wake up. I sat up straight on my bed, only knowing to wake up again at 1130 :/ Oh well so I just woke up and I went to Clementi to get lunch and to go to Popular to get my pen refill cause it's empty heh.

I have to get used to eating lunch alone every Sunday now. I wanted to go to Holland but mehh wanna try something new so I went to Clementi instead. I guess the sucky thing about eating alone, one of it that is, that it's hard to find a sear heh. Cause no one will be there to help you "chop" seat while you go get your food. But nevertheless I found one just now, and was sharing it with an old man just now haha.

Solitary lunch, solitary happiness.

Then went for the usual grocery shopping and yup that's all for my day out. It was a normal Sunday as usual. I had some works for Space done! I hope can continue further sooner or later heh. And then I went for a run! Okay now I learnt that I should go for a run latest by 530. 5 is a perfect timing. I went to run at about 450 just now and finished at about 530 or something like that. I went for a long walk after my run! Ran 5K today :D :D Actually more, about 5.6 heh.

So anyway I went for a new route today and I went for a run at the Sunset Way track! Not the Dover one. It's been like 7 YEARS since I ran there, or 8. Cause I remember I used to run there with my sister almost every Sunday morning there to train for our Napfa test. Yes a primary 5 kid running 2.4 for it haha. But nahh I was walking and running then :P

Somehwo it's quite funny cause I've always have the thought that it's 4.8 K in one way. So today I was thinking of running a 9.6 K through and back. But well I was surprised to know it's only 2.4 and the run was really great, my timing improved that's for sure, but I still need to improve. I'm almost there :) So yeah the weird thing was... When I was young I somehow feel that 2.4 K was such a long long and endless track that I was so happy to finish it.

I guess there are two possible reasons. One that I was still a kid, small body and the world looks so huge to me. And two... I'm a better runner! Mwahaha. Duh, I mean I wasn't really trained then right.

But it's just funny how much... The world has changed. How much I have changed. Being a kid, being a primary 5 kid. Oh and I even remember asking my sis to rush back home cause I want to watch Yu-Gi-Oh at channel i. Back then the channel still existed! Haha. And I love their weather forecast song. Now it's no longer here heh.

Oh well those were the good old days when I was still a young boy, still innocent and yeah. Cute. HAHAHA. Can't believe that it was 8 years ago. Now I'm in Poly, a grown up young adult and well, my chapter here in Poly is also coming to an end. Time flies.

Alright that's all for today! It's 12:11 now, I've been dragging to blog oh gosh. Shame on me. See you soon! Here's to an awesome week 5 ahead! Have an awesome week everyone :)

Sundown Lets Go!

 Sundown here we come!

It's passed 12 AM now, but again I want to blog int he content of a great Saturday! Hehe. Well the afternoon was not so great. It was great... Slacking around. Oh so lovely. But then NONE of my plans for the day was executed. I failed once again, but nevermind I guess, time has went by so I can't possibly return the clock can I? Whatever it is, I did have an awesome night though!

Anyway my plan for the day was to actually wake up like 10 AM, then do some of my "projects" hehe. Personal one that is. I ended up waking up at 1130 -_- oh man, but nevertheless I quickly rise and shine and then I went to yeah, start on my project. After about 30-45 minutes of lazying around in bed. Mehh. anyway so yep, I did one already. And it feels good! But my "major" one wasn't done :/ I want to do it tomorrow hehe.

You will see them soon.

At night I went to collect the Sundown race pack with Doreen, Yong An and Saeyeoh joined us too in the end! So did Alicia. Oh man now I really can't wait for the race! My second 10K marathon and I'm so excited about it haha. And best is that I'll be running with lots of friends! So yup. And I think I'll really enjoy running beside the Singapore night scenes. So gonna be exciting.

There's still two more weeks though. And I gotta keep on training and pushing! :)

Then we went for dinner at a new mall... I think, opposite Expo MRT. Well honestly speaking it was my first time today that I stopped at Expo and went inside there. Yes, I know, I'm slow. Dinner at Bagus haha, really yummy and it feels good to have a nice chat with the 4 of them again! So miss my GT :( Hope we can all gather once again in one fine day! :)

All of us head back home, but I went to meet Jes, WQ and Neal! It was a Korean restaurant and it's awesome haha. Should go there another time! And my first time drinking Soju with Weiqi! It's nice, since it's only 20% it's so much better than vodka, and we can drink shots without feeling bleargh. And I love their onion pancake! So yum yum. Will go back!

And to Neal all the best for your field camp! :)

Somehow I realised, as much as I love to simply laze around and do nothing on a Saturday, I feel that the more I do nothing, the more this sulky feeling will reach me. It's just... I don't know. One of the best things to do in life is to really laze around without feeling guilty, laze around because you want to, because you plan to. I have to make my weekends more meaningful I guess.

But the weather is playing too. As much as I would love to go out for a shoot, or simply wonder around and so on, sometimes the weather is just not on my side  and I can't do the things I planned to do either. Like today I wanted to go to ECP before meeting Yong An and Doreen. Firstly, I checked the weather online and it says it was going to be rainy from 2-4 PM. Then I looked outside my window, it was cloudy and sunny at the same time. I feel so lost heh. I ended up not going.

Next few weekends I should e busy... So yeah I hope I can get to go to some places. I kept telling myself that I need a getaway. I need to go somewhere. But I never make it happen. And the only person that can make it happen is who else, but me.

Human nature. Or... My nature.

Oh well alright that's all for tonight. I'm going to have a great Sunday tomorrow! See you all soon, I seriously can't wait for Sundown! Though I might not beat my personal's best (PB), that doesn't mean I won't give me best shot in the race. Alright nights all!

We're all growing up.

Long week

 And this is part of the journey

It's Friday finally! Feels so glad to end the week. This long week. Well not long week in a sense it's actually longer than 7 days. Just that I feel I'm rather busy with work and feels so good to welcome the weekends! You know the feeling, of having a rough week then you have 2 days of break. Ahh so lovely! But well I've decided not to just waste them away. Spend it as meaningfully as possible.

I know it's crazy but yes I plan to wake up early tomorrow (like 9-10 AM heh) and yeah do some stuff. I got some "ongoing" projects that I "let's do it today!" and till now I haven't do it -.- So must do some of it tomorrow. And I'm going to take the Sundown racepack tomorrow with Doreen and Yong An! Arggh feels unprepared. Two weeks left! I can do this (Y). I need to run more at night... Hmm.

But I don't think it'll make a huge difference really. But must get used to it hehe.

Haha today Vithya was so funny. She's more paranoid than me!! I swear hahaha. After work I went to meet Brenda! OMG it's been such a long time since we met, and we talked. So we had a nice chat in Starbucks and we're off! She went home and I went to meet Vithya hehe. Went to accompany her to look for a nice gift for her mum in celebration of mother's day! :) Hope she likes it.

It's kinda weird to know that in Singapore, mother's day falls on this Sunday cause back in Indonesia, it's the 22nd of January. And well... We don't really "celebrate" it like here. Went for dinner or something like that. It's a national thing though. But well I think we celebrate my mum's birthday more heh. Whatever the case is, whether we celebrate it or not, we give present or not, it's the love for our mothers that matter the most.

Celebration, is just the icing on the cake you can say hehe.

Anyway today is the 11th of May. Somehow today speaks to me. The date, it shouts to me. As if there's some sort of significance. But it's just a Friday, what's special about it?

Well 365 days ago, is the day where I went for my Inner Mongolia OCIP interview as I found out. Somehow... It's just weird. It's just weird cause I totally forgot the date, until I read my blog again. Well. Yeah funny isn't it. Memories speak to me like wordless stories that whispers words to my ears.

365 days ago. A great journey begins.

365 days later. The journey still continues.

Finish line?

 Yesterday's sunrise. So pretty

It's Thursday once again! And it's been an awesome one I guess. And a tiring one as well. Mentally. Well this is not the first time this is happening to me. You know the usual brain-frying experience you get from reading too many articles that are confusing and difficult to digest. But oh well. I can do this! Why can't I right? Need to plan, a workflow, a flow where I can flow through and so on. Gonna be lovely.

It's all in the mind :)

After work I went to band as usual. Met Chris first for dinner, I finally had the new KFC double down! It's so divinely.... Fattening. But once in a while. Plus I just want to eat it to give it a try as I've been wanting to eat it! Haha. Well after first try, okay that will be a double down for the next long long time. It's really good though heh. Cause I'm less of a bun person but more of a meat person. Ask my friends, they should get it.

Cause I eat burgers part by part! The bun first, then the meat.

Band was great. And tiring. An Chun was teaching us techniques about breathing and listening and it's really fun haha. I think he can be a great conductor/instructor one day. And I can't believe it but I PLAYED 1812!!! When I first heard that song back in sec one or something like that, I wished there's a "simplified" band version of this song but. NO. We're playing the real deal haha. It was really... Tiring. But such a great piece. Plus it's from one of my favourite composers Tchaikovsky :)

It will really be a great piece for MD. A great and brilliant peace to end this journey that I've been traveling with and venturing about. Yes I know, I might not be continuing band after poly. I will let fate decide. But as much as I can be, I'll continue it. I might end this journey, but my love for music will never cease till I die. That's a promise. No, that's my life heh.

Somehow it's quite funny that these few days I've been realising that well, things are coming to an end. My poly life that is. FYP, IBM, MD XXXVI, year 3, school, being a station master in band camp and so on. Nothing lasts forever, we all know that. Though these "physical" things might come to an end, and will surely come to an end, the memories, the lessons, the JOURNEYS, will never end.

Like a foetus in the womb who can't stay forever inside his mother's uterus, everything will one one day come to an end, like a pregnancy. And like life. But some things will remain. Be it inside us, or continue to remain in the inside of someone. Okay the first sentence was taken from a video in Youtube about Tibetan sky burial. Hehe. I'm just using it as an example here.

It's like a race we've been running through. Perhaps, say a 10 KM run, and now we're at the 7th-8th KM mark? Or even like the 1KM mark. And we can see the finishing line. All we have to do us to keep on running to reach it. It might be tiring after the 9 KM we've ventured. But at the end, you know this race will be a great one for you. Though you leave with bittersweet memories, you have it with yourself, stories of victories. In this great race we run.

Part of me wish for time to fly faster. Part of me wish time to fly slower. I'll let time fly, I can't control it. All I want is for it to fly meaningfully in this last 9 months I have in polytechnic (minus the acad-year end holiday). And for it to fly meaningfully, only I can do it.

Good night.

Getaway

 Today was a fine, fine day

Yes I need a getaway. Anywhere, anytime haha. Just go somewhere and enjoy myself to the fullest! I'm planning to go for one in Saturday. Guess where? MacRitchie! Hahaha. Or somewhere else. I don't know, maybe take some photos. And just go out and so on. It will be awesome isn't it. Just let go of everything and enjoy myself and free flow and unwind. Hmm hmm?

Today was a great day I guess. Quite a sad and bittersweet and happy one too. Been reading on cervical cancer today as I'm tasked to do so. Very happy cause I got most of the information needed! Tomorrow I'll continue a bit more and write a more proper information on my notebook. Cause currently my paper is just... Messy and unreadable and ununderstandable in the eyes of others. But not me.

I didn't know reading articles could get so personal. Well... Reading about cancer today reminds me of my late aunt. Somehow her conditions match this article I'm reading. It feels weirdly horrible to realise how, the more things you understand about a certain conditions, the scarier things get for you. But... Well I guess this is life. There's only one truth it has. Not many truths. Just one in every situation we face.

And when the truth ravels, it might be ugly, it might be pretty. But that's the truth.

So after school I went to meet Shihui to pass her some postcards! Thanks Shihui for the keychain and the postcard too ^^ Don't worry I think my postcard is coming... Or came. I've yet to ask my guardian's maid. Then after that I went for a talk on forensic science by Julie Edgar from the Northumbria University in Newcastle! It was a really enriching talk. I get to know how CSI work haha. And oh man it's really mind blowing! But at the same time awesome :D

And we were also briefed a little about continuing our education in the university. One year BSc! Damn it's really tempting. But I'll make full consideration first. Cause the price is quite high, but at the same time it's really worth it too. So yeah... Oh well I'll think about it.

And the great thing that happened? It's like we're having a mini DBS 1.5 outing just now! So awesome :D Man it felt like as if we were back to the year one days. But of course with an older and wiser age, but the memories remain. And to think we only have one more year to our polytechnic life... It feels so weird and scary and shocking at the same time. It feels good to reunite back though!

Alright that's all for today. I wanna head to bed early. Yesterday I went to bed late and I woke up late today oh dear haha. Time to catch up some sleep hehe. Alrighty see you! :)

I want to go for a getaway
Even though it's only for a day 

And happy birthday to my sister! :D

Sunday night

A taste of home, away from home

I hate this feeling. I guess, it's the Sunday night feeling. The feeling of knowing you have work tomorrow. That the weekend is over and another week is waiting. Well I guess everyone will have this feeling on Sunday nights. Unless you really love your job that you hate the weekend. Which I think is something rather impossible of happening. But anyway, as Buddha says, the mind is everything and what we think we become. The more you dread the new week the more horrible your week will be! So be happy~

But anyway yes, I don't know why buy I'm feeling rather emo just now. Just out of a sudden. Perhaps it's my monthly PMS period. It's the hormones playing tricks in my body. Perhaps it's the song that I found yesterday (look below, on the previous day post). Been listening to it and well it makes me sad. But it's so good! I keep on listening to it haha.

And recently I've just re-discover my love for Sarah Brightman's Harem album! I bought it again cause I think the album is lost somewhere in my house back in Indo. Somewhere there. So I decided to buy a new one (and thankfully it was like the last one on the shelf!) and sigh, brings back memories and I really love Sarah Brightman. She's beautiful, her voice is beautiful and the songs are beautiful. Beautiful beautiful beautiful heh.

I remember that time... I think it was secondary 1 or 2 when my dad always play the song in the car when we go out. And there was a time when we went to Pelabuhan Ratu, and there was no CD except for Harem. So we played it throughout our journey and it was really pleasant :) So these songs remind me of those days. The first time I fell in love with her songs.

Music and memories, are like cookies and cream.

Especially the song "Beautiful" from the Harem album. The lyric goes like:

If you can depend, on certainty 
Count it out and weigh it up again
You can be sure
You've reached the end
And still you don't feel  

Do you know, you're beautiful?
You are, yes you are, yes you are

If you can ignore, what you've become
Take it out and see it die again
You can be here
So who's a friend
And still you don't feel 

I love the 2nd verse a lot. I don't know but the words are really special and unique. If you can ignore what you've become, take it out and see it die again. Well if only we can do that. Take out what we hate from us now, and go back to what we used to be. But of course we can't. I mean we can change, but not in a snap of a finger.

Then comes the chorus which goes like: Do you know, you're beautiful? I think it goes to show like how much we have to embrace us, ourselves, as of who we are. We're all imperfect creatures. There's part of us we hate and part of us we love. But these imperfections are the ones that make us human. Human without imperfections... Are not human heh.

Alright I guess that's all for now. I'm meeting Nivedha for breakfast tomorrow so gonna head to bed now! See you all and have a great week ahead! And here's to an awesome week-4 of my attachment! :)

It's all in the mind. I can do this :)

The path in life

 Today's sunset. Weird in a beautiful way.

Or is it beautiful in a weird way?

Whatever it is, it ends this beautiful day

Today I was watching Project Runway Season 8 Finale! Oh man I agree with the judges that... The three finalists are really really good. And that Gretchen and Mondo are two very very talented finalists and that they deserve the position. But Andy is nice too. If I were the judge I'll be very confused as well haha. But I choose Mondo though. I love his designs and boldness! He won the all-star challenge (not aired in Singapore yet I think). So good for him! :)

Anyway while it was Andy's turn for the runway show, the song he used for his collection caught my ears. It is so beautiful, relaxing and totally suit his show (and his collection!). Knowing he gained his inspiration from where he comes from (Laos) the song really suits it! It's nice, Asian-feel, relaxing and just wonderful. And so thanks to the power of internet, I Googled it and... I FOUND THE SONG!



It's titled The Prayer (Chanting Inner Peace) by Ketsana! Well I found out that she's a Laotian artist and man, I really love this song. Wish I can buy her CD one day (hopefully in Singapore!) cause this song is really beautiful. And I hope to hear more songs from her hehe. If this is nice, I think the rest will be good as well! :)

I love Asian chilout songs. Like Huong Vietnam by My Phuong Nguyen and Thiery David, Sacral Nirvana by Oliver Shanti, and then Ketsana's song, the above one, my latest addition! I don't know but they give me a nice vibe and feeling. Perhaps it's the exotic feeling, or the effect of the song that transfers me to a place. And that's if I know the artist origin of course. Or what the song reminds me, or tells me of.

But this song, is special. When I first heard the full song on Youtube, it makes me sad. Yet at the same time, melancholic and just a mixed feeling of sadness, happiness and calm. Okay so when I close my eyes and listen to this song, I feel like I'm sitting on this grass field, my legs crossed and folded. And then in front of me is the sea, crashing waves, the sea breeze. An orange sky with a bluish hue. The wind blows softly onto my face and I feel at bliss. That's what this song tells me. The scene it gives me.

Yet at the same time I feel sad too. I don't know why. It's kind of like Sacral Nirvana. It gives me a tinge of sadness, though full of joy and also calmness. Well... Music is really funny. It evokes a thousand different emotions and lets you do things you can never do. Like transporting you somewhere else, without making a move. Right?

I guess I just need a good break. A good getaway that lets me stop thinking about life. How good will that be! I'm waiting for the day.

Alright enough thoughts for tonight. I planned an awesome I-don't-wanna-do-anything-Saturday and sure I didn't do anything heh. Besides going to Orchard to collect my cousin's lappy (which is now working fine!) and being a vegan today! Hahaha. Yup I successfully accomplished my plan of being a vegan on this Vesak day. Look at what I cooked for dinner today!

It's my favourite T-C-M soup. Not Traditional Chinese Medicine but Tofu-Carrot-Mushroom soup haha. With vegetable stock of course :) So yummy.

Okay ciao and have an awesome Sunday everyone! :)

"Sometimes life already gives us a path. And when we choose to get out of it, in one way or another, that's when things get wrong. Well. Everything happens for a reason"

Two years

 Taken from the same bench I've been sitting for the past 2 years.

With a chocolate waffle and a melon soy milk from Bang Deli

I'm still doing the same thing.

But now, as a year three

Today comes a sad realisation for me haha. Well not sad just... Shocking? And simply sentimental. Today was an awesome Thursday and I got to accomplish many tasks :) Love it! Plus the year ones came for band today so I get to interact with them too. Reminds me when I first came for band! Those sweet memories still stick with my like a glue. But it's cool.

Had another awesome lunch with Candy and Kai as they were in school doing gel again. And Leon joined us too! It's good to eat with them. Just makes me feel like as if I'm a student again. Not an internee heh. And since it's not everyday that we eat together like we once used to just a couple of months ago. Hope we can have more lunches together! Before I get really busy for ITP as I might travel here and there too.

I miss student's life. Well the days where I can wear short pants and SP shirt to school. Sandals and so on. Oh today was my first day in 3 weeks wearing SP shirt in school! Cause I changed before band as I was feeling damn warm with my collared shirt heh. I miss those carefree days where laughter filled my day with jokes and so on. Not that I don't have them just that, I have them less.

It's more carefree I would say. Though we're filled with assignments and tests and so on, it's still more carefree. But well it's also a good thing that I have ITP. It's a good exposure of what I might be working as in the future. And not many people in life can get these opportunities like us. Which is something I'm grateful about and so yeah. 7 months, #wecandothis

So what's my sad realisation?

These days I would meet my year 3 friends in T11A Level 4 and most of them are there for their FYP briefings and so on. It kinda feels funny that it was 2 years ago when we first met, and we were talking about the FYP of our seniors, what they are, and I was so scared of it etc. Now I'm the one doing it. We're the ones doing it. Just feels surreally funny. And weird at the same time.

And take a look at the above photo. This photo is taken outside the band room. The same spot I would sit at for the past 2 years before band, where I would either have my dinner or just something to fill me up like my favourite chocolate waffle and Vitasoy Melon soymilk from Bang Deli. I would sometime take photo there. And now I'm sitting down there, as a year 3. Again I feel funny and weird.

Time flies I guess. What matters, is now. It's the final leap of my poly life and I got to give in everything I have, everything I can. To just push through and passed that final hurdle. As much as I don't want poly life to end. For I'll miss all the fun, joy, adventure, thrill and pride that I had. But time goes on. And one day things will come to an end. But journeys, will never come to one.

Alright enough of the mo post. I wanna take a good break tonight. Very tired and I've not been sleeping well for the past few days. No idea why. So today is the day then hehe. See you!

TGILD

Life is a merry-go-round....

Or merry-go-swing in this case

TGILD - Thank God It's Labour Day!

Yes it's labour day today so meaning I have no work! Hehe. It's a day off for me... But oh well having a day off, I still got to do some work! Nevermind, I'd rather have an active holiday anyway hehe. Plus it's my plan for doing work today and... I did it...! Not to my expectation but oh well, I'm continuing today! :) I mean now, there's only one more hour to today haha.

Well the reason why I failed was because I fell asleep last night and I so I didn't wake up early today -.- In fact I overslept by 3 hours! I woke up at 12 :( Oh man that three hours could make a big difference! But what's done is done so I didn't waste anymore time, woke up, got lunch from Holland and I planned to start work by 3! And yes I did and was reading stuff till 6. And now I'm left with the other half.

Which is a lot.

But anyway yeah, I have a tendency not to be disciplined by... Laying down on my bed after I eat and then I'll watch TV for 30 minutes which then could drag till 3 hours. Hahaha. Not today I'm sorry. And yeah so it's awesome!

Anyway today's evening sky was really lovely. I waited for rain from 2 PM. And it finally rained at 6! The sky was so dark then, it felt like it was 7. I was busy typing stuff that I didn't realise it was 7. And when I looked outside the window the sky was in this... Mysterious orange and purplish hue and it looks really nice. Too bad it was really dark and I didn't manage to get a good shot.

But one glance to that view... I got this deja vu all of a sudden. Like as if I've seen the sky before. Then I remember I once saw a scene, like this when I was young. Maybe in P5 or P6. Similar thing. It was raining, and the sky was reddish in colour, the smell of rain filled the air, and I was looking at it from my window. It's quite funny isn't it?

Then I came up with this:

Today's evening sky, a view I've never seen
Yet it gives me a nostalgia, of a day I once been
A particular evening when I was young
And memories meant nothing to me
Yet now, I think it seems funny
That a small thing can spark my memory
Of a meaningless day, I once lived 

Well I really love the last 3 lines. It's quite true how small things can spark my memory now. Be it a sight, a smell or a sound. Reminds me of a particular space, a particular place and time I once been. No matter how special or how meaningless that particular memory is. To me a  memory is a memory. It is a still a part of your life that once passed by. And to remember that piece of memory... It's just... Special.

I guess the saying "You don't know how much a piece of moment is worth until it becomes a memory" is very true. We tend to just not treasure every moment, love everyday, and do something with all our heart. We only have a one way ticket to life. We can't go back to another moment just to relive it.

Well unless, we travel with our memories to relive them.