Hello hello hello, look who's back after one month! Gosh, I think my prediction of going to blog one post A MONTH is coming true haha. Okay, ya'll know the reason. I'm going to skip the explanation.
Anyway yes I just turned 29. This is crazy, like where did time go to man. This is the 2nd birthday of my life in a pandemic heh. It's weird, 2020 was quite a rather weird year to turn 28 and now I think it's even a weirder time to turn 29. To be honest, I really have no-feels in this birthday. As usual it's just another day. A day of growing older. I think so many things have happened in this year that my birthday just becomes another day. And I think that's fine, not that I'm someone who celebrates it either.
In fact I actually forgot it's my birthday heh. Like on the 16th I know it's the 16th, but that's it. I didn't really think about what's gonna happen the next day. And I like to keep it that way.
My birthday went on as per normal Saturday. Went to work as usual, and just had a mini celebration with the office people of our housing project (thanks for the pudding!). And yeah that was it.
I always say this again and again, every year. The older I grow, the more clueless I get to think about turning a year older. It's just another day, another year. And as I have learned last year, it's a year closer to my death. So a reminder of our own impermanence and at the same time the beauty of life too. It's a weird year for all of us. I think this whole pandemic has taught us of how fragile life can be. And it made me do a lot of retrospect and reflection. About the meaning of being alive.
29 years is a pretty long time for sure. I have learned a lot and everything about who I am now has definitely to do with everything I have been through. They say we are still continuously shaping our lives and identity till we're 40? That's when life seems to plateau (as in we can't learn and do much) and then we get better and better at whatever we're doing then. 30, is still a time of experiments.
I think the biggest lesson I've learned so far, is really impermanence? That everything is constantly changing. It never stays the same. And thus, anything can happen. And when I mean anything, I mean anything. And I feel like at the end of the day, our job is to really walk through this sea of change. And adapt, and just live through it. Be prepared for what's coming, but at the same time walk through with the idea that this is not your final destination. Things can, will, and always change.
I haven't really thought of what to write for this birthday of mine. No sophisticated posts and stuff. Perhaps I'll write them down in my journal first. I am however kind of excited to walk towards the big three-O? I don't know, like I'm just excited to see how life will turn out. Although in some days life seems bleak and so on. But, I believe there's always a way. And where I am is where I'm supposed to be!
Alright that's all from me now. I hope this is not my last post of July haha. As always, stay safe and take care! I think I need to do another post on life update soon. See you again!
