In 2018...

It's the last dawn of the year and as usual, here I am writing and reflecting about the year. To be honest, as I'm sitting down here on my chair, blogging, I don't really know how to describe 2018. I really can't put it into words. Because 2018 has officially become the weirdest year that I've went through. It is really weird. So yeah don't expect a lengthy reflection post for this year!

To put it simply, I felt a lot of different emotions, feelings and be visited with a lot of different thoughts that I've never felt before. It feels like I was caught in a whirlwind of many different emotions and thoughts that could feel overwhelming at time. If it's not for the 4 years of meditation that I've been doing, I think I'm not sure where I'll be now haha. So thankful for that.

I used to really befriend uncertainty. I used to just give in and let life take me wherever it wants to take me, trusting on the journey and the process that I am going through. Yet at the same time, I feel the opposite this year. I feel like I am thirsty for certainty. I wish I can know how will life unravel for me. I wish I can know what the future holds for me. And of course, all of these are impossible.

I no longer just give in, but I started to think more about myself. And it is hard, because when this happens, ego plays a part. You start to think if you deserve this love, or you're just being selfish.

But amidst all of these confusion, I did learn a huge lesson that the flowers have taught me.

"You can't stop a flower from blooming

as much as you can't stop life

from unraveling what it has in store for you.

So be brave, have faith and keep going

because you can't stop the flower from blooming"

This was what I told myself, after experiencing the flowers in the farm blooming much faster than they are supposed to bloom heh. Which brought me a bit of comfort, and remind me again to just be here in the moment, and stop being frightened by uncertainty, because it is the only certain thing in life!

I think I do understand that I am growing up. I am no longer that young kid, that poly graduate and so on. There is a life that I have to live, and I am going to live. And who doesn't love some certainty. Who doesn't love knowing the future. And who are able to do those? Nobody.

Well if I can sum up 2018 in 3 words, it would be: trust the process. And I think it will be one thing that will be in my mind for a long time now. A short and simple reminder that we just have to keep on going really. To keep on holding on, to just do what we can do in the amount of given time.

2018 has also made me question about a lot of things in life. The things I went through have definitely made me question about a lot of things. About money, about the purpose of life, about the meaning of life. And so on. They say life will get interesting and also tough at the same time when you begin to ask these kind of questions. So here's me wishing that I will find the fragments of answers to these really difficult questions that we will ask one day in our lives.

I also do feel like a failure this year because well personally there isn't much things that I have achieved. I broke my promise of traveling somewhere I've never been before every year. I didn't achieve many goals but I know I don't have many either heh. But like I said I don't want to punish myself for not achieving them. I hope I can continue to make the new year a better one.

On the other hand, I did change my habits and even form new ones too! I think they are quite life-changing for this year. For instance I changed my chanting time to the morning when I wake up. I managed to meditate longer this year (15-20 minutes now, compared to the previous 10). I also managed to find my joy in journaling again, and I'm going to try something new in the new year.

Also I feel like I've become more of a spiritual hippie this year. I read up a lot about spiritual stuff this year and I feel like I've made a click to them. Or more like... I've re-built some connections I've lost with these stuffs. Because I think I was more of a spiritual person in the 2014-ish era. But somehow I've changed and now I feel like I'm going back again. And it feels good.

You know if 2017 was a year that taught me not to lose hope, and how it is a year where life had shown me the way (and that there will always be a way), I feel like 2018 was a year of test given by life. Where it doesn't show my anything, but it is trying to teach me of patience, hope and just perseverance. 

And I surely do hope that whatever I learn and went through this year, will give me a better energy and better footing for 2019. And well I think I kinda do.

As usual, I'm not going to write any goals or resolutions for the new year. I'm just going to enter the new year and slowly by slowly, I'm going to add new goals and resolutions and share it with you. I did have some plans already, and I can't wait to make it into a fruition!

Well well, 2018, what a year it has been. The weirdest year I've been through and it is a year where I can't explain much, and can't put much words into it. But whatever the case is, I hope you 2018 has been treating you well. I hope 2018 has made you into a better person. Even if you feel that you have changed, even if you have went through shitty times in this year, I hope you come out of this year as a stronger, better and more mindful person. That whatever you went through, had made you stronger! Yup, that's all for this year I guess. Here's me wishing you an adventurous and beautiful 2019 ahead.

Before I bid farewell to this year, I hope you will always remember this:

Be brave, have faith and keep going.

Trust the process

Somehow, somewhere, someday,

everything will make sense.

Beautiful Endings

Not sure why but I've been blessed with beautiful sunsets on the last few days of the year. Perhaps it's just a serendipitous reminder that everything will be beautiful in the end.

Somehow, somewhere, someday.

Streamy Spotify II

Featuring my favourite album of 2018: Community by Favela!

One of the most life changing things I've done this year... Is to actually switch to Spotify for my music listening experience haha. Well I would say it's quite an achievement because come to think of it I was actually quite against music streaming services haha. Well I just don't like the idea of requiring internet to listen to music, because I believe that music doesn't need internet to be played!

But alas everything changed when I discovered that you can download your music on Spotify Premium haha. So yes, do your research before hating something heh. And yup so far my experience in Spotify has been amazing. I think streaming music is truly a revolutionary thing to happen. It changes a lot of thing about music. How we enjoy them, how we listen and how we "interact" with it.

Although I did also read how streaming music doesn't really benefit the artist (or something along those line), and that purchasing an album/going to gigs is still the best way you can do to support an artist. But as the years go by, more and more artist are on the streaming wagon. Some of my favourite artists only put their music on digital formats, so yeah hopefully things will work out better!

One of the most life-changing moment for me, for Spotify, was when I get this new laptop of mine. So after getting a new laptop, I was downloading iTunes and also transferring the old datas from my external hard drive. It was also when I decided to try Spotify and I eventually come to a realisation that with digital streaming, I don't have to worry about my old data. All of my songs are already saved in my library. Booms! That was a very cool discovery to be made hah.

Anyway I'm going to continue to use Spotify. But I'm also considering to give Apple Music a try. Cause there are still some of my favourite music that are not available on Spotify. But I think I can play them on my iPod while still being connected to Apple Music. So we'll see.

And as always, I will never stop collecting physical formats!

Great Music of 2018

Some of the great music of 2018!

Right, supposed to do this on Christmas but I was pretty busy, end of month affair as usual. Things have wind down now and so it's time to do the yearly review of the great music I discovered in this year! Before that let me share with you great music of December, not many though.

Great Music of December:

- Clothed With Sky by Hammock

- Thirst by Hammock

- Close To You by Axel Flovent

- Jetty by Tycho

Great song of December: Clothed With Sky by Hammock

Hammock just released their new album Universalis back on 7th December! It's a 3-part album from last year's Mysterium and it is described as an upward movement, going up (something like that). And yes, it does feel like that, as compared to Mysterium. Hammock is such an incredible band. I enjoy every album that they have released since I discovered them back about 6 years ago. As usual, their songs are a good accompaniment to think about life and our existence here. I am very excited about their 3rd part of this series, cause Universalis is already sounding amazing.

I discovered Axel Flovent from Spotify! He was playing in one of the radios I played and wow it's another amazing discovery of 2018 weee. I did see his name on the Iceland Airwaves poster though. As for Tycho I just found out that he relased this song, even though it was released last month I think hah. It's such a great song and it reminds me of the Awake days. Looking forward to his new album!

Now time to get to business. Great Music of 2018

Let us begin with the new bands/artists I discovered this year! All list are in no particular order.

Great artists/bands I discovered in 2018

[] S. Carey [] Nick Mulvey [] Pale Waves [] Still Parade [] Young and Sick []

[] Rex Orange County [] Wet [] Anna of The North [] Craft Spells [] Sigrid []

[] Boy Pablo [] George Ogilvie [] Katz [] FM 84 [] Axel Flovent [] Wardruna []

Same as last year, I discovered most of these wonderful people from YouTube, and also the new addition for this year: Spotify! Also some of them are introduced by my friends/fellow favourite artists/bands that I love, who share some of the music by these wounderful artists on their social media. I am looking forward to more music from them and also to discover more next year! <3

Breakthrough artist of 2018 for me: Sigrid, S Carey and Nick Mulvey

Great Albums of 2018

[] Ruins by First Aid Kit [] Blood by Rhye [] Hundred Acres by S Carey [] Littleton by Mesita []

[] Wake Up Now by Nick Mulvey [] Cold Fire + Line by Line EP by PREP [] EP III by Yumi Zouma [] 

[] Loves Is Dead by Chvrches [] Community by Favela [] Palo Santo by Years and Years [] 

[] Wilderness by Snow Patrol [] High As Hope by Florence and The Machine [] 

[] re:member by Olafur Arnalds [] Bloom by Troye Sivan [] Young Romance by Roosevelt [] 

[] Chris by Christine and The Queens [] Superclean Vol II by The Marias [] Birthplace by Novo Amor []

[] Infection of A Different Kind (part 1) by Aurora [] Mantra Mantra by Kunto Aji [] 

[] Roy Pablo by Boy Pablo [] Universalis by Hammock [] 

And here are my top ten albums of 2018. Some of them are tied!

1. re:member by Olafur Arnalds

2. Chris by Christine and The Queens (or Chris?)

3. High As Hope by Florence and The Machine

4. Hundred Acres by S Carey

4. Wilderness by Snow Patrol (tied!)

5. Palo Santo by Years and Years

6. Love is Dead by Chvrches

7. Bloom by Troye Sivan

8. Cold Fire & Line by Line EP by PREP

Favourite album of 2018: Community by Favela

Okay I might be biased here but I've been a fan of Favela since 2015 when I discovered him through "Easy Yoke". It is still one of my favourite songs till today. When he released Nevermore My Temples Leave last year, which is also one of my favourite songs ever, I was feeling really eager to more music from him! Well he didn't announce any new album/EP after English Letters. But he did say that more music is on the way, and eventually he did announce the arrival of his debut.

I think Community speaks for itself. Lyrically, musically and emotionally. Favela is truly a talented songwriter and musician. His songs gave me feelings I've never felt before. And I have to agree that he's great in melancholia haha. Songs like Nevermore, English Letters, Slowly, Patience and of course, Medals, they all made me feel warm and fuzzy inside. To me songs that made me feel both happy and sad at the same time are great songs haha. So far there are only a few songs in my life that are able to make me feel this way. Favela's songs are definitely inside the list.

I am looking forward to more music from him in 2019 and please do check him out guys!

Great songs of 2018:

[] Should Have Known and Fields by Still Parade [] Ojai by Young and Sick [] Hollow by Katz []

[] Fireworks and Rebel Heart by First Aid Kit [] Count To Five and Waste by Rhye []

[] Ayahuasca by Vancouver Sleep Clinic [] Loving Is Easy and Happiness by Rex O.C []

[] More I See, True North and Yellowstone by S Carey [] Wander and Future by Mesita [] 

[] New Year's Eve by Pale Waves [] Don't Kill My Vibe, Strangers and Sucker Punch by Sigrid []

[] Graffiti, Miracle and Graves by Chvrches [] Medals, Patience and Slowly by Favela []

[] Mountains To Move and Cucurucu by Nick Mulvey [] Empress and Life on Earth by Snow Patrol []

[] Helvegen by Wardruna [] No Place by Rufus du Sol [] Komorebi by Craft Spells [] Dew by Pynkie [] 

[] Hunger, South London Forever and Sky Full of Songs by FATM [] Bloom and My my my by Troye []

[] Hypnotised, Up In Flames and If You're Over me by Years and Years [] Missing U by Robyn []

[] re:member, saman, nyepi and unfold by Olafur Arnalds [] Time In A Tree by Raleigh Ritchie [] 

[] Damn, dis-moi, 5 Dollars and Le Mercheuse by Chris [] Queendom and Soft Universe by Aurora []

[] Clueless and Ruthless by The Marias [] Powder Blue and In Camera by Yumi Zouma [] 

[] Don't Bring Me Down, Line by Line and Leaning on You by PREP [] Rehat by Kunto Aji []

[] Sick Feeling by Boy Pablo [] Stone by Stone by Arnor Dan [] Light On by Maggie Rogers []

[] I'm Still Here by Sia [] Give Me Fire, Give Me Rain by The Paper Kites [] Lovers by AOTN []

Okay too lazy to write out everything, but there's definitely more to this! Here are my top 10:

1. More I See by S Carey

2. Don't Bring Me Down // Line By Line by PREP

3. Loving Is Easy by Rex Orange County

4. Hunger by Florence and The Machine

5. Empress by Snow Patrol

6. re:member by Olafur Arnalds

7. Queendom by Aurora

8. Damn, dis-moi by Chris

9. Powder Blue by Yumi Zouma

Favourite song of 2018: Medals by Favela

To me it is pretty rare for a song to click with my heart right away after I listened to it for the first time. Medals is definitely one of those songs. I remember when I first heard it on BBC Radio One (where it premiered in Phil Taggart show), I saved the link for the show and couldn't stop listening to it, till the album is finally released! It is such a melancholic song, and it truly speaks volume about the world that we're living in today. How we seem to be caught in a chase for money and wealth.

Personally, I've faced a lot of encounters in life where I'm... Speechless and disgusted knowing the things that some people do for money. Also how recently I feel that we live in a world where we can never feel enough. All of these confusion and feelings are beautifully summarised and expressed in this amazing song by Favela. The line "I don't want golden medals, I don't want golden medals" truly ring in my mind and my heart. And how in the chorus where he sang "Help me see through eyes that only focus on medals" is like a silent prayer that I tell myself whenever I listen to it.

I am still listening to Medals almost every day ever since I discovered it. It's such a great song. Thank you Favela for this incredible song, and a beautiful album. I look forward to more music from him in 2019 and also ultimately, I hope I can see him live one day! That'll be a dream come true.

Last but not least, here are some of the artists/bands that I am excited for in 2019! Maggie Rogers with her debut album in January eeep. IOADK part 2 by Aurora, Sucker Punch by Sigrid and a new album from Yumi Zouma! Potential new albums from: Soak, Lapsley, Shura, Rex Orange County, Phum Viphurit, Asgeir, PREP, Oh Wonder, Tycho, Mesita and many many more! Also here's to discovering more new artists/bands in the new year, as always.

Also I'm gonna write another blog post about Spotify! Coming soon.

That's all for the great music of 2018! Thank you for adding colours to my life and as always,

for keeping me sane.

Of Wedding and Weekend

Congratulations Mel and Andry!

Unofficial photo taken with my phone haha

Hello! I just got back from Mel's Wedding reception yesterday! I only had like 1.5 hours of sleep before that so I got knocked out right away in the car. Then I had lots of work to do after I reached home so I couldn't blog about it. But anyway here I am! Anyway I just want to firstly congratulate the new couple on your wedding! May you both love each other more everyday and form a warm loving family <3

Anyway I left for Bandung at 7 AM on Sunday. Even though the reception only begins at 7 PM, I was told that the traffic to Bandung was really bad the day before on Saturday. So my cousin recommended me to leave earlier (was planning to leave on like 8-9 AM ish). Well yup there was a bit of jam here and there. Only reached Bandung at 1230 PM! That's like 5.5 hours whew.

My go to vegan place in Bandung!

Weird name I know but well veganism is very spiritual heh

Helped my brother to check in the hotel first and thankfully my sister (who booked the hotel) got the green light for early check in and yay we got 2 rooms before check in time mwahaha. One of the room was used for makeup first so some of the ladies decided to do their makeup first as my aunts have to attend the tea-ceremony at 2 PM. I went to get lunch first before heading back to my brother's hotel room to doze off for a good 2 hours! Went to see the tea ceremony after that.

Congratulations Mel and Andry!

We went earlier into the ballroom for family photos and then the reception started! Quite touched to see my cousin walked inside on the ballroom. We grew up together during my younger days until she left for university in Bandung. Also it also means that all of my late aunt's children are now married. She must be happy over there :') congratulations to the new couple once again! Then more photo sessions followed and yup, it was just a great Sunday spent in Bandung with my family! :)

With the cousins and some of their other-halfs :P

After that I went back home, while most of my relatives spent another night in Bandung. I got knocked out right away in the car, only waking up when I was near my hometown haha.

Alrighty that's all for yesterday's gathering with my family! It's Christmas eve now and it's a pretty silent night indeed right here in my hometown. Gonna spend the night reflecting and do some journaling. I will see you again tomorrow hopefully haha. Hope you have a good Christmas eve too! :)

Lamun Ombak

Rajakelana

Currently blogging while spinning the wonderful album from Mondo Gascaro, "Rajakelana"! Even though the album was released back in 2016, it is released on vinyl for Japan Record Store Day last month and thankfully Om Mondo brought some back for sale in Indonesia. Actually I asked him if there's plans to release the album in vinyl a year ago and he said yes! So I was very excited and I've been anticipating the vinyl release. Here it is now, and it's sounding real good.

Rajakelana is one of my top albums of 2016. And definitely one of my favourite Indonesian albums. It's rare to find a songwriter like Mondo these days here in Indonesia. The lyrics from this album is so eloquent, poetic and beautiful. Especially Lamun Ombak and Sanubari!

It's... 10 more days to the end of 2018. Couldn't have asked for a better album to chill to during this time of the year. Well not sure why I haven't gone into that "reflective" mood of the year. Perhaps I've been really busy with work the past week. Always have stuff to do at night.

And I'm going to have quite an exciting weekend too cause I'll be going to Bandung on Sunday for Mel's wedding! We're also going to have a long ass weekend heh. Monday is officially a public holiday and Tuesday is Christmas. Then next week will be New Year's day. Damn, time flies.

Well I've got a couple of posts to do so yes I will write again tomorrow night I guess.

See you soon, gonna go and enjoy some music now.

Broken Promise

At Mt Kinabalu, December 2011

I was at Mt Kinabalu with the awesome KK LEAP team seven years ago, when I decided to make a promise to myself that I will (at least) try to travel to a place I've never been before every year. And it was the view above that made me decide to start this personal project I called "Project Wanderlust" (cheesy name, I know). I was just so mesemerised by that view, that made me come to a realisation that there is so much more to this planet that I've never seen, and have to see.

This photo was taken the day after our summit (the day of descent). Most of us were caught in a rain during via ferrata so our equipment and shirts were drenched. The next day was a clear and sunny day, and we went out of our hostel to dry our stuff. Shirts, shoes and so on. We were chatting about our climb, about random things and were just having a good time. With that view in front of us.

Climbing a mountain was never in my agenda at that point of my life. I've never expected to do it either. But we did, and it was an amazing and life-changing experience. Kinabalu has opened up my eyes to the beauty of the world and it made me crave for more. I'm not an active and adventurous person but I'd love to climb another mountain one day! And return to Kinabalu for sure.

So yes, I decided to start that personal project. I went to the US in 2012 (this wasn't planned but I took it anyway), Bali in 2013, Iceland in 2014, Australia in 2015, Tibet in 2016, Cambodia in 2017, and nowhere in 2018. Yup, I broke that promise I made to myself but it's okay!

As I've written last year, I was having a "traveler mindblock" last year. And the same happened to me this year. Also time wasn't really on my side this year, even though I fully understand why time has to not be on my side this year. And I'm fine with it. Hopefully time will be on my side next year :P

Also I used to be a wanderlust, who tells myself that I have to travel, and I can't live without traveling. Err it's still true, but I'll definitely still live without a year of traveling haha. And I came up with this last year: travel not because you have to, but because you can.

I've decided that I don't want to rely on anything to make me happy. And yes, this includes traveling.

There's a reason why I broke the promise I made to myself on this year.

And I am very sure there's also a reason why I won't break that promise again. Be it next year, next next year or whenever. Well... I'll try to not break this promise again next year :)

Happy Wedding Mel!

Congratulations to the newlyweds!

Hello! Just got back yesterday from Cipanas to attend the wedding ceremony of my cousin Mel and her husband Andry! Congratulations to you both on your marriage, may you love each other more everyday and all the best for the big day... Which is next Sunday aha. Man, she's one of the closest cousins that grew up together with me! We went to the same primary school so we always went to school together every morning. And now she's married! Time where did you go to.

Bless the bakmi gods for this veggie bakmi

Anyway I went to Cipanas with Nanan and Febi (thank you Nanan for driving!). My brother went too but he's going straight to Jakarta with his family so I gotta take another car. My aunt went ahead first with my cousins too. Reached Cipanas early so we went to get lunch first at the famous Kalimantan restaurant. I think I've eaten there when I was really really young, can't remember. So thankful that they had vegetarian bakmi AKA noodles. Just noodles with oil and soy sauce but it's so damn good!

After that we went to the temple at the ceremony started at 3 PM ish. The temple (Vihara Nagasena) is such a beautiful temple! It has a wonderful interior, even though I am surprised to see paintings of Vishnu, Krishna, Ganesha, Hanuman and other Hindu Gods/Goddesses on the ceiling. 

Well the Siddhartha was a Hindu Prince after all, so no surprise! :P

Team Baros United

After the ceremony we went back to the hotel first to wait for my cousins and aunt to change before we head out again to have dinner before we go back! I had so much food the whole of yesterday so I decided to just eat the food without rice for dinner. Then after that my cousins and I went back to my hometown, while the rest went back to the hotel and my aunt to Jakarta. We're gonna rendezvous again next Sunday mwahaha. Can't wait for the wedding reception!

I only had 3 hours of sleep on Thursday night so I got knocked out in the car right away. Felt so embarrassed last night when I was talking rubbish with my cousin Febi in a convo because I was drifting away haha. Then I got knocked out once I reached home. And had a fabulous sleep last night.

Alright that's all for that short but fun trip to Cipanas yesterday! Sometimes I can't believe that my cousins and I are all grown ups now. One by one we're getting married, some of us have kids already and soon we'll be like... Uncles and aunties. Well technically we are all now haha. Well, time moves on! I wish it can slow down a little bit but nahh, it always goes on right. Alrighty I will see you again soon. 

Open For Business

Well I was really busy the past three days, so I wasn't able to write about what happened on Wednesday :P Anyway we... Opened a new shop! Haha. So beside the current shop where we're selling farming goods and pesticides etc, we also opened a shop selling household goods mwahaha. From pots and pans, to glasses and plates and so on. It was a random idea we came up with earlier this year and it's finally come to a fruition now heh. So yes, exciting times ahead!

Business so far is doing good since Wednesday, where we opened the shop. It's not as much as the farming shop cause come to think of it, it's not everyday where people would break a plate, spoil a pot/pan and so on haha. Whereas people always need fertilisers, pesticides, fungicides etc once their products are finished. But it's okay, I'm not really into the "money". Just wanna help the locals there!

You know come to think of it, making money was never my main intention of opening the farming shop. I just thought it was a strategic place, because we're surrounded by farming lands. And thus I thought it would be great to have a shop here, as farmers won't have to go to town to get the stuff they need. Cause before the shop opened, even us (the farm) have to go to town to buy the stuff we need. The town is about 10 KM away so yeah, I reckon it helps a lot to have a shop there.

So similarly for this new shop, I just hope that my existence there would help the locals to get their household needs. Also come to think of it, there isn't a household shop nearby our area! :O 

I've always believed that the universe will help you as long as your intention is good. It may not give you an excess, but enough to take care of you I guess? Also when it comes to money, we won't have enough right heh. Think about it, we always want more and crave more isn't it haha.

Anyway I hope the new shop will run smoothly. And may it benefit a lot of people around us. 

I'm going to try my best to blog more entries before this year ends. Been busy the past week, but I guess I can breathe easier now. I hope you had a great beginning of December.

May we end this year beautifully! I'll see you soon.

Breather

Whew, as you can read from my post on Friday, it's been a crazy hectic last week of November for me. Been doing work non stop and only finishing at 5 AM. And this is made worst with the fact that I was waiting for the water tanks at my house to fill up, yup till 5 AM. I was lucky enough to be able to take some time off last night and tonight. Currently blogging to the new Novo Amor album spinning on the record player! And moving on to Olafur Arnalds' re:member next. Life is good indeed.

Feels good to just take some time off and not doing work after an intense week. Well yup, the last few days of the month has always been a busy period for me. Lots of reports and this and that. I think most companies are always busy at the end of each month heh. Anyway, December is here now. Last month of the year, and a new one is coming soon in about 28 more days eeep! Time just seems to fly faster and faster as we grow older isn't it. As Jon Koenig terms it, zenosyne. 

Alright, talking about time flying faster and faster, it did come to my attention that I'll probably just reach about a hundred posts for this year. It's okay, it is sill inside my goal of writing 100 posts in one year eh. But well, I do have plans to write more! As usual, the year end reflection, the music reflection and so on. I do have a few events for this month and I hope I can accomplish them well. 

Well, I've hit my goal of blogging for 10 years now. Even though I will always continue to blog, I'm not sure if I can blog consistently as compared to these ten years. I do also have a journal, and similar to this blog, I am also planning to fill up my journal before the year ends! I think journaling and blogging are one of the two hobbies that I still do up till today. Photography is another. I really miss playing music though, I am thinking of getting another keyboard to be put in my sis' room next year.

Okay that's all for me in this short update. Things are gonna exciting leading up to Wednesday! Shall talk about it when the day arrives hehe. Here's to a Delightful December for all of us. Time to end off this year beautifully! Also PS you have 28 more days to finish you resolutions!!!

Thankfully I have none :P

Don't Look Back

Whew, it's been such a hectic last week of November. Taking some time off to talk about the great music of November! Before continuing to do work of course. Hahaha. Alright here goes!

Great Music of November

- Line by Line EP by PREP

- Birthplace by Novo Amor (album)

- Play by Jax Jones (Featuring Years and Years)

- Foreign Hands by George Ogilvie

Song of the month: Line by Line by PREP

Alright there isn't many music I discovered in November actually. But I was really excited when PREP announced the release of their 3rd EP (and second one for the year), which was released on 9th November! Few days before their gig in Jakarta haha. Well they did say on their Instagram that new music was on the way, I wasn't expecting an EP so yes, what a lovely surprise indeed!

Well like I said in my previous post, there isn't a single song that I dislike from PREP, and their 3rd EP is no exception. It's such an awesome and another feel good EP as usual. I would say it's kind of a marriage between their first two EP? But then again, every PREP song is unique on its own. And so far I can't really pin-point their music. Like when I recommend them to my friends, and they asked back with "what does their music sound like?" I would say I don't know man, PREP sounds like PREP hah!

Novo Amor released his debut album Birthplace back in October actually. I just discovered this back in early November heh. I think it's such an incredible debut album from him! I like how the tracks seem to flow one by one throughout the whole album. And gosh I love his voice haha. I remember discovering him through his song Anchor last year I think, when it appeared on my recommended tab on YouTube. Been looking forward to more music from him, and this album doesn't disappoint!

Jax Jones released his song featuring Y&Y a few days ago and it's such a great tune! Love how the visuals of him and Olly dancing together really fits the song well I guess haha.

And one of the new singers I discovered this month is George Ogilvie! My Spotify radio was playing when his song "Foreign Hands" played. I love his voice and also the lyrics of this song! Clicked on his profile to listen to more of his music and damn, I instantly become his new fan haha. Another song that I like from him is Surveillance. Looking forward to more music from him.

Right that's all for this month's great music! We have one more month to this year and hmm come to think of it I don't really have new music to look forward to in December heh. Well usually I just listen to the songs that accompanied me throughout the year, and to also reflect on the music of 2018. I'd say 2018 is a fantastic year for music whoop! Lots of surprise releases and also discovered quite a few new artists/bands. Stay tuned for my great music of 2018 post next month!

Alright, it's been quite a hectic last week of November, and I still got a few exciting days ahead of me. Stay with me, universe. Lets push through everything to a beautiful fruition. I hope you had a great November! Let us all end this year beautifully shall we :) See you soon! 

26 Years Young

I know this sounds weird, but there are time where I actually have to remind myself that I'm a 26 year old man. Not because I feel old. But because I feel like people around me don't think I'm a 26 year old guy. Or maybe because my mind thinks/feels people around me acts that way hah!

Maybe it's because I'm brought up in a traditional, family-oriented Asian family, where child-parents relationship is always kept at an all-time high haha. Or is it because I was brought up quite strictly when I was young. So even up till today, I behave like a "kid" to my parents, even though I'm big now.

Okay there's something that happened that made me talk about this haha.

So yes 10 days ago I went to see PREP in Jakarta. I only told my parents that I'm going to Jakarta a day earlier (the plan was to go on the 15th) 3 days before the trip (on Sunday). I don't know why but... I'm "scared" (?) to tell my parents that I'm going to Jakarta for a gig? And guess what I actually told them a white lie heh. I told them that I'm going a day earlier to meet my friend, a secondary school friend from Singapore whom I never met in a long time. Well I did meet Wilus for the concert HAHAHA.

And also I didn't tell them that I am taking a train to go to Jakarta, because our driver is going to pick my worker's wife who will be joining us for the shopping errand on Thursday. And also I'd seriously rather take the train cause it's much more comfortable and also reliable (no traffic jams with trains heh). On Tuesday night, my mum asked me what time I was leaving tomorrow. And I told her that I'm taking the 1030 AM train. And she was shocked. She was like "Alone? How are you going to go to Jakarta from Bogor? How are you spending the night?" and she looked worried and everything.

I was like well mum I have taken so many trips to Jakarta by train alone and I know how. Also I'm meeting one of my workers there (cause even though I know how to go to Jakarta, I don't know how to get around the city haha). I was feeling rather annoyed cause I feel like I'm being treated like a kid -.- I was like telling my mum "Mum I'm big already, you don't have to be so worried seriously"

But well to be frank, my parents are never over-protective of their children. Just that sometimes they get worried about me doing things "out of the norm". Since I usually go to Jakarta with a car. Also there's this weird thought that they have, where I shouldn't do things alone. I remember back in 2013 when I told them that I'm seeing Sigur Ros Live in Jakarta they're both like shocked. They even asked if I want my sister to go with me, even though she obviously doesn't want to cause it's not her kind of music.

Like I told them in Singapore I always do things alone. I watch movies alone, I eat alone and I'm fine. I don't always need someone to accompany me to do things. I think nobody absolutely needs either.

So yes returning to my first point - sometimes I have to remind myself that I am a 26 year old man. This incidence made me think of two things. Firstly, why do I have to feel scared to tell my parents whenever I want to go somewhere/go out of town to do things? Secondly, why do my parents still feel worried about me doing some things, and treat me still like a kid?

The night after I told my parents that I'm going to Jakarta a day earlier (with lots of relief), I asked myself why do I have to be "scared"? I was like... Adhi, you're a 26 year old guy and you should be able to make decisions on your own. You should be able to go to places you want to go to without your parent's consent. Sure, informing them is important too, they know what you're doing. But sometimes I feel like do I even need my parent's approval to do things that are leisure in nature heh.

Which reminds me of something. When I was in Singapore, I know someone from the UK who traveled across Southeast Asia alone by herself when she was 18. Also how I have a friend from the US who went to India alone by himself when he was 20 I think. Okay I'm not sure how the parents of my two friends react when they tell them they're going to travel. But you can see the difference right haha. 

Here I am, taking a train to Jakarta, which is like 4 hours of travel time from my hometown, and my mum is worried like as if I'm flying somewhere far heh. And you know what the weirdest things is? They're never worried about me when I was in Singapore! Maybe it's because they know Singapore is safe etc. And also the fact that they couldn't see what I was doing when I was in Singapore (oops).

I mean... I went to Sweden alone to meet my sister in 2009, and I did have my fair share of solo travel experiences to places I've never been before .Even though yes, these decisions are still met with a pair of wide eye from my parents, but... You get what I mean. I am old enough to take care of myself.

I know it's the nature of parents to get worried of their kids. They want their kids to be well, to be safe and so on. But I think it's also important for parents to have trust in their children, that they are old enough to be responsible for themselves. Like I seriously won't do stupid things that would do harm to me. Also to those who know me, I am a very paranoid person. I will usually do quatro-checks to make sure that I'm not doing something that would be detrimental to me and others.

Also perhaps, maybe I'm not the only one who experiences this. Perhaps a bunch of my Asian friends are experiencing the same thing too heh. But well to be honest these days I don't feel as "scared" as last time. Now I don't even ask my parents for consent. I just told them "Mum, dan I'm going to ______". My dad would most of the time go "oh okay" but my mum sometimes will look apprehensive heh.

Well whatever the case is, I still respect my parents. Although I wish that sometimes they can give me more space. We live in a world with contrasting cultures and beliefs. If you compare my scenario to the scenario of people in the Western world, you can't help but to also feel puzzled to justify which one is more rightful? Well only life can find out haha. And yeah, I think I'm still going to give myself bouts of reminders that I am a 26 year young man. Or 26 year old man. Or both.

Full of Dreams

A Head Full of Dreams

Last Wednesday while I was in Jakarta for PREP, I took the chance to also catch the Coldplay documentary "A Head Full of Dreams" which was showing for one day only worldwide on the 14th of November! When I saw the announcement I quickly bought a ticket from CGV, which thankfully has a branch in Pacific Place. Also thankfully the timing didn't clash! I caught the one at 16:30.

Well I would say it was an amazing documentary. I'm so thankful that Matt Whitecross, the director of the film, decided to document the life of Codplay since their beginning. The documentary really shows how Coldplay was formed, their trial and tribulations, and of course their journey. From doing gigs in a small pub, to sold-out stadiums worldwide. It literally is a movie about a head full of dreams!

There's no way we can deny that Coldplay is one of the greatest bands of my generation. A lot of people around the world grew up with them. And I am pretty sure they will be like the "Beatles" of our parents. Like how my parents talk about how much they love the Beatles in their 50s. When we are in our 50s, we'll probably talk to people about how much we love Coldplay haha.

There is also a central theme, in my opinion, that surround the movie. It is about manifestation... Am I the only one who thinks about this? I like how Chris Martin has this image of the band. How the 4 of them will be big in 20 years time, how they will get signed, and this and that. And somehow all of these words come true! Of course, the band has worked really hard all of these years. There's also a theme of not giving up, of always having hope. Which is essentially what their latest album is all about.

I was a bit surprised when Chris said that "this is just a beginning" at the end of their AHFOD tour in Sao Paulo. But after watching the documentary, I truly understand what he meant! :)

I hope you can give this a watch, it's on Amazon Prime videos I think. Their live album and DVD is coming out on 9th December! Thank you Matt for making such a beautiful documentary of my favourite band on earth. If the universe allows, I want to see them live one more time :)

Ending off this post with the lyrics from A Head Full of Dreams!

"When you get a head full of dreams, 

you can see the change you wanted

be what you want to be"

PREP Live in Jakarta

PREP Live in Jakarta!

Hello hello! Well I just returned... Not really just returned. But yes I got back from Jakarta last night catching PREP live in Jakarta on Wednesday, and also doing some shopping errands on Thursday! Man, PREP's gig was so so awesome. Still thinking about it, and probably will take some more days to move on from it haha. They're my favourite band that I discovered in the recent years.

Anyway I went to Jakarta on Wednesday via train, cause I'll be rendezvous-ing with my worker on Thursday for the shopping errands. Love taking train rides to Bogor, and now I'm kind of familiar with the KRL (Jakarta metro) system, although I'm still pretty clueless about Jakarta itself haha. Before the show I went to catch Coldplay's documentary, A Head Full of Dreams which was co-incidentally showing for one day only on the 14th. I'll talk about that on a separate post!

After the movie I met up with Wilus first before the gig. Wow man it's been almost 9 years since we both last met! We probably last met back in Tanglin while I was taking my O Level results back in 2010 haha. I remembered meeting with some of the Indon peeps on that day. Anyway glad to know she's doing well in Jakarta now! We had lots of catching up and also talking about music and gigs.

The gig was held in Hard Rock Cafe Jakarta. The venue is kinda small but I thought it was a good venue cause the show felt more intimate and fun, moving alongside with the other fans haha. I caught PREP last year at Kampoeng Jazz and it was such an awesome show. They sound really good live. And this gig is no different. They played all of their songs from the 3 EPs and they sound so good T_T

Ollie Weston killing it with the sax solo

Not gonna go into details but some of my favourite songs are Line By Line from their new EP, Don't Bring Me Down from Cold Fire, and to end everything, singing along to Cheapest Flight with the rest of the audience. Definitely one of the highlights of 2018! There isn't a single song that I don't like from them. So to see them play every song from the EP is really like bliss to me. 

Thank you PREP for signing my Futures EP booklet!

And Tom for the photo (sigh, I want to take a photo with the band!)

After the show there was a signing session and we were all queuing for the moment! The VIP ticket holders are given priorities to go in first so we patiently waited to go in. The 4 members of PREP are such a friendly and humble bunch! Had a good time talking to them, and Tom, the vocalist, actually remembered me from Kampoeng Jazz! He was like I think I remembered you, we were at that white tent signing stuff hahaha. No photo with the whole band but got a photo with Tom! 

Great to see you again, Wilus!

Thank you PREP for coming to Jakarta and for the incredible show. Well at least I don't have to take a cheapest flight, just a (second) cheapest train ticket to catch em live mwahaha. I hope to see you again one day in Indonesia! And also thank you Wilus for coming to the gig with me! What a great way to meet after such a long time of not meeting one another haha. All the best to you in Jakarta :)

Then I headed back to the hotel and went to do the shopping errand the next day.

Well, like I mentioned for WTF'18, music has always been my escape. It's great to take a break just for that one hour plus and enjoy some great music. To quote the song that started it all:

"I'll take one more sleepless night, and I'm on the cheapest flight to give my head a chance to clear"

Thank you PREP!

Line By Line

PREP just released their 3rd EP on Friday and I am currently hooked with every song! I'll be seeing them live on Wednesday with Wilus and I can't wait for it arrgghhh. Okay short random post. See you with the concert post haha. I always look forward to seeing PREP live. It's an awesome experience!

Weird Dreams

Okay I know this is a weird way to start a post in a new month but... Here's another dream diary entry. I've been having weird dreams, in fact, 3 nights in a row! I can't remember the dream I had last night but it was weird. But the dreams I had back 2 nights ago are still vivid in my head.

Here goes. So on Friday night when I went to bed... I dreamt that I was in Amazing Race! Or something like that. Basically a traveling reality show thingy. I was with my cousin, Febi, and as usual we had to do some challenges to get our next clue for the next destination. The weird thing was I don't know where we were, all I know was that our first challenge was to try this traditional Chinese medicine treatment method. And there was a lady assisting me who speaks with a thick Chinese accent so... 

I assume I was in China or something haha.

The "treatment" involved me entering this hot water tub. After that she threw some leeches in! WTH haha. Apparently it was some acupuncture method but instead of needles, it was leeches. The weird thing was that I can feel "sensations" while I was dreaming. Not sure how, it felt really real. And the worst part was... After they sucked my blood, they turn into centipedes -.- Anyway I finished the challenge and we were happy because we were the first team. Then I woke up.

And on Saturday night I dreamt of going back to Singapore! But it was a super weird dream... Like I was actually walking in my hometown, on this particular street I know. After walking for a while, I just told myself "Hmm I want to go back to Singapore". And after a few turns I actually arrived in Somerset 313 WTF HAHAHA. And I was feeling really sad because my favourite CD shops were closed down already? And it was like 12 PM and I called Jeslyn if she wanted to have lunch. 

Weird weird dreams really.

Okay sorry for the weird post to welcome this new month of November! Can't believe we're in the last two months of the year already. 2018 will soon come to an end and a new year is dawning upon us. 2018 has been a weird year. Can't really put it into words. Well I'm just seriously hoping that the rest of the year will go and end beautifully. And not weirdly heh. Hope you had a great October. Wishing you a beautiful epilogue to this year too! Seize the day, take care and see ya :)

Tired

Not sure what I'm feeling the past few days

Just tired.

Solace

Whew, it's the last day of October tomorrow! 2 months left into the year. That is crazy eh.

Anyway as usual I'm getting busy for the end of month stuff so here's me leaving some short time to blog about some great music I discovered this month! Not so much actually hmm.

Great Music of November:

- Treat You Better by Rufus Du Sol

- Premonition by Charlie Lim (ft Weish)

- Unconditional by Charlie Lim

- Sick Feeling by Boy Pablo

- tkm by Boy Pablo

- Missing U by Robyn

- Light On by Maggie Roggers

- I'm Still Here by Sia

Song of The Month: Light On by Maggie Roggers

Right there are a few albums releases in October but... Hmm. Somehow I didn't quite enjoy them haha. Even though I was expecting them for quite some time. But it's ok! Artists are always free to create whatever music they want so yeah. Perhaps it is not just my cup of tea.

Charlie Lim released his new album this month! It's more upbeat and more catchy I guess, even though I kinda miss his more mellow and subtle music from his EPs. But the songs from his new album are awesome. I love Premonition with Weish in it! I hope to see him live one day still sob sob.

Boy Pablo also released his new EP which is a collection of songs that he has released in the past few months. Well Boy Pablo has his signature sound and this EP is no stranger to that! I think it's a great album with the same familiar chill vibes. Can't wait to see him next month in Jakarta eeep.

Rufus Du Sol also released their new album Solace. I love the opener song "Treat You Better" and No Place, which has been in my playlist for quite some time now. Although hmm I don't quite get the album as a whole. I thought their first album was better as a whole album kinda thing. But still nevertheless a good album! I hope they'll come to Jakarta and I wanna see em live woop.

Robyn also released her new album after a long time! Well I only got to know Robyn back err 2-3 years ago I think? When I chanced upon her video for Dancing on My Own on YouTube. I would say Honey is a good album but yeah, I think I need to listen to it more and more I suppose!

Next last but not least there are a few songs released in this month! Light On by Maggie Roggers is such an incredible song. I really love the lyrics, which I find really relatable to me I guess haha. I am so excited for her new album in January arrgghh. And also Sia's empowering and uplifting I'm Still Here which is also a song relatable to me. Been having some rough times this month :l

Alright that's all from me and the new music of October! Not sure why the music this month aren't really touching and clicking my heart heh. Oh well, to more music in November I guess! :) I hope you had a great October. And here's me wishing you a Nourishing November mwahaha.

Fear and Worry

A continuation from my previous post, again.

Now that we have talked about how it seems like the world is function to make us feel like we never have and never be enough, lets branch out to why this can happen. What if perhaps... The world is constantly making us worried that we can never have enough, and never be enough?

What if we're made to live in fear that we will be inadequate. And we're always worried about this. Somehow we are all trapped into this system and we can't seem to get out of it. Buddhism calls it Samsara, the cycle of birth and death. And the aims of Buddhists is to get out of this cycle!

Sometimes I feel that the world is feeding us with fear and worries. And how it seems rather impossible not to have them. It feels like they have become a part of our lives, and we can't shake them off easily. And when we don't have them, people will think we're just insane and bizarre.

Or should I say that when we try to clear our minds off them, people will think that we are just "lazy" and that we do not think "wisely"of our own lives. What if, fear and worries become our "supplements" that we need in life. And how we become incomplete without them.

The thing is, I've always wished to become a more fearless person. I am striving to worry less because I have realised that worrying is truly a waste of time and energy. It doesn't do anything good to the already existing problem. Like the saying goes, worrying is like sitting on a rocking chair. It gives you something to do, but it gets you to nowhere. Yup, beautiful representation of worrying.

And also I feel that this world uses fear and worry as a tool to manipulate us. In a world where we never feel enough, hence secured, hence stress-free, it seems like I can't runaway from these two words.

Well I can go on and on to talk about what's wrong with the world. There are many wrongs with this world but I believe we can avoid them. And I think only mindfulness can cure this problem. The only skill we can put into practice that breaks away these two words from us. To learn to see everything for what they are and what they are not. To be a human here, and not a human in the (non-existing-yet) future. Not a human who lives in a fraction of our own created thought, that will disappear.

I hope the universe can give me clarity to help me to see through things. Grant me the courage to walk fearlessly forward. Stray me away from the darkness. And when I land on it, 

may you shine some light on my path.

Function

Sometimes I can't help to think that

there's something horribly wrong

with the way the world functions

Being Enough

Having enough and being enough are two different things. Though they may differ completely, being enough is pretty hard to define isn't it. How do we enough being define, when it is already difficult for us to define "being me" haha. Well for me being is just another branch that reaches out from "have". It's about how we feel ourselves as a person, and eventually what defines whether we have enough. 

Have you ever felt good enough? When you look into the mirror and see yourself, are you happy and proud of who you are? Have you ever felt that what you are doing in this world is good enough? Your career, its progression, where you are right now etc. And similarly to the previous post, this world seems to always make us feel that we can never be enough. Always chasing for something better.

Which is nothing wrong, I think growth is essential in life. Without growth, without movement, we're all stuck in a place that we can never get out of, unless we decided to hustle forward, or... Slowdown backward. The problem is however, when the world seems to push us too much and too fast out of our comfort zone. When we feel good enough about ourselves, the world will always try to find ways to make us feel like we're not good enough. And so on. That's my observation.

There are times where I feel that we're chasing for the wrong things in life. Or that the world has designed a path that it is asking us to follow, to chase for these wrong things. Some of us have seen through this and decided not to follow the path and walk on our own designed paths. But the world will somehow make us feel uncomfortable, and eventually we leave our own paths.

People who walk on their own are deemed insane.

Or is the the other way round? That the insane ones are actually the sane ones instead.

I'm still struggling to define the word "enough" in my life. Sometimes I feel like I don't want to be great. I just want to be enough. Enough of everything. Financially enough, happy enough, satisfied enough and so on. But now that I'm still struggling to define that word, I'll continue this journey to give it a meaning. 

Never Enough

Right this is a continuation of my previous post, about how at times I feel that we live in a world that is designed to make us feel that we can never have enough, and never be enough. 

It's quite a terrifying thought sometimes, how I met quite a lot of people who seem to never have enough. Even though in my opinion, they already have enough. I thought to myself, are they just craving for more, or are they just oblivious to what they already have? And how as I move along with life, this is no strange thing to me. It felt very common. Which makes me question myself if this world makes us feel like we can never have enough. And it's a terrifying question to ask, to be honest.

We seem to always want more. We want a better house, a better car, a better phone and so on. Seems like when we're happy with what we have, the world urges us to get something better. Well of course this doesn't apply to everyone. Especially me. Cause I've been practising minimalism. I do not want to get new things unless I really need them (ie they are broken, lost and so on).

My dad once told me that people are becoming more and more reliant with money. Which is why I really agree with the Chinese saying of "Money isn't everything, but without money we can't do a lot of things". And being in the working world for 5 years, meeting people and so on, that statement has become more evident. People seem to... Never have enough. And they seem to want more.

Which then leads me to the question why? Why do we do things even though we know we can't do it, or will make our lives more difficult. Why do we get/want things even though we know we can't afford it? Is it greed? Is it just a irrational thought that we have? I'd say it's ungratefulness. 

Ungratefulness for what we have, craving for more, suffering in the end, and the cycle continues.

Okay continued to part 2 about being never enough.

Enough

Perhaps the world is designed to make us feel that

we can never have enough, we will never be enough

Digging Saturday

Chandelier at the wedding

Hello, I just got back from a short trip to Jakarta yesterday! Well I went there to attend a wedding, my customer's daughter to be exact. But since the wedding is at night, I went for a short day trip to the South of Jakarta too. Went to Paperpot records to do some digging and also went to have some good vegan ramen at Yoisho ramen at Gunamarwan. Both places I've been wanting to go to!

Digging some treasures! They are at Blok M Plaza Level 4 by the way

So I reached Blok M at about 2:30 PM I think. Went straight to Paperpot to do some digging. They have A LOT of records haha. I couldn't pick a lot. And I regretted that I didn't pick some of them eeep. Well I picked two records: Both are classical music haha. The first one is a collection of brass music from a brass festival in the UK. Another one is James Galway playing the Mozart flute concerto and also his clarinet concerto but played in flute. It was my first time digging and it was a meditative experience.

I was in such a focus zone. Couldn't care what's and who are around me haha.

Anyway I was just digging when one of the staff (I think the owner? From their instastory) came and asked me if he can recommend me some music. He was just like "tell me what kind of music you like" and it happened that they were playing some nice house music earlier. So I pointed to him the music "that was playing" HAHAHA. But he kindly recommended me some music and damn I love the recommendations. Also we have a bit of convo about the many different kind of jazz and house genres and how small their differences are. Genres always confuse me hahaha.

Hope to come back one day again!

Next I went to for a late lunch at Yoisho ramen. I wanted to go to Bluezone center to try their impossible meat burger but stupid me, I didn't check their Saturday opening times and they are only open at 6:30 PM on Saturdays :( So I went to Yoisho ramen instead. Have always wanted to try them too! From some of the vegan instagrammers in Jakarta. Thankfully they have 1/2 portions of their ramens and so I get both of the soup and dry ramen (Mazemen).

Shoyu ramen at the foreground, mazemen at the background

The soup one has a shoyu base (wanted to try their miso but they ran out of soy milk which is homemade! Must be famous I guess). The shoyu soup was light but has a heartening feel to it. The dry ramen is a green chili mazemen and it is such a genius combo really. Slurped both bowls quickly cause I was hungry, and also they were both delicious haha. I wanna try their miso ramen one day! :)

Always feel out of place here

Before heading for the wedding, I went to Kem Chicks at Pacific Place to do some shopping and also to buy back some bread for the fam. Meh, I always feel out of place in the SCBD area. Like everything was so glitz and glamour kind but... I'm not that kind of person heh. But anyway Kemchicks is really complete. But of course it is expensive to shop there too haha. Just bought the usual soy and almond milk for me. And also tried hazelnut milk now haha.

After that I went to fetch one of my workers and we went for the wedding together. Congratulations for the newlyweds! Also the reason why I ate before the wedding is of course, I can't eat at the wedding as there's not much veggie option except for fruits and pudding. #veggielyfe #vegetarianproblems

Alright that's all for my short but kinda sweet Saturday. Man, it's been so long since I blog this style. You know, just talking and describing how my day went. Just like those days in Singapore where I would talk about a particular scene or happening of my day. I think I should do this more. Okay I will see you soon. We're halfway through October now, hope you're having a great October so far! :)