Friday 31 December 2021

In 2021...

Look who decided to return after not blogging after a month! My goodness haha. Okay well yes I reckon I should come back here for a while to end this year. The year I blogged the least. That's sad, I didn't even hit 50 posts eep. Lets make more effort in 2022 I guess? Not too ambitious though ahaha.

Anyway yup it's the last day of 2021. I'm not sure if this is like a slow of fast year but it is definitely a busy one. I ventured into new areas, I have more responsibilities, life changed a lot. I just feel... Tired? At the end of this year. It really felt like I just did a sprint this whole year. And it's like never ending heh.

The weird thing is that at the end of the year, my heart feels full but it is somehow yearning for fulfillment. It's like I feel that I have achieved a lot but also feel like I wish I could do something more. I guess that's a good sign? There's still room for improvement we can strive in the upcoming year.

2021 has been a brutal year for the world. I think everyone feels this. The world had went through a lot in this wicked year and I seriously wish that we will never go through another year like this. So I really hope that in 2022 this world will begin to heal. And we can reclaim the life we once used to live.

But of course, this pandemic has changed our lives, and I think we cannot live our lives in the way we used to. We have to change for the better. But at least... I hope we can all live pandemic-anxiety-free soon. Because really, it gets tiring living with this thing for the past two years, no?

To be frank, after living in a pandemic for 2 years, I seriously have no hopes and goals and ambitions in 2022 heh. Like really I just want all of us to be well and healthy, and we can all get through 2022 smoothly. Cause seriously though, what else do we want/need in life? Okay hmm I really want a peace of mind haha. It's not easy living in this world seriously. But yeah I hope you get what I mean.

Anyway this is a really short update and reflection from me. I have done a 6 page reflection of 2022 on my journal haha. But this is a summary of what I have written.

Alright I guess that's all from me in this year. I hope you had a great 2021, despite of all the things that happened in this world. And here's to a better 2022 for all of us. Happy New Year!

Sunday 31 October 2021

Bye Bye Blogtober

Oh goodness here we are now, the last day of October! Which also means it's the last day of Blogtober 2021. And probably the last time I'll ever do Blogtober HAHAHA. Okay maybe not, perhaps I won't do it next year. Cause seriously, this year has been so hectic and busy, I didn't enjoy this Blogtober at all. So yeah if life gets less busy next year then I'll probably do it again! So lets see.

Anyway this whole Blogtober has prove yet once again that I cannot force myself to blog/write. And how writing everyday isn't really a good idea! But but, I am actually inspired by Marcus Aurelius and I'm thinking of writing everyday next year. Inspired by his Meditations haha. But now it's not like a page-long post kinda things. Just to write whatever there is on my mind. Perhaps when I wake up.

So yeah, I guess that's all for Blogtober 2021. Probably the least enjoyed Blogtober I've ever done. Sorry T_T but yeah I was just finding it hard to keep up with the posts.

Anyway, I hope you had an awesome October. We're down with the last two months of the year. So lets seize the year now! Wishing everyone a Neat and Nurturing November. See you soooon.

Saturday 30 October 2021

Sunset


Lying underneath the stormy skies,
I know the sun must set to rise

Friday 29 October 2021

October's Leaving

We're down to the last 2 days of October. Is it me or has time flown in a weird and erratic way in 2021? It is as if.... I don't have much memories with this year. Like there's not much "exact" or "accurate" memories that I have of this year. All I remember is... July was a horrible month for Indonesia. As for the other months... It feels very wavy and blurry. Hahaha. Perhaps I'm just busy.

But for real though, this year has been way so hectic! I couldn't catch a breath. I wish there's just a way to slow things down, or perhaps for me to catch some breath. Hopefully soon by the year end. I feel like now things are settling down slowly. And we're just reaping what we sow in the earlier in the year. 

I'm not gonna lie, the 2020s so far have been pretty challenging. And somedays I just wonder when things will get easier. Perhaps we all need a miracle. Or perhaps we're just meant to go through whatever we're going through. And eventually things will work out. In the best outcome for everyone.

Well, here's to the last two months of the year! Lets go baby. 

Thursday 28 October 2021

Sustain

Okay, this might be the last time I'm going to do Blogtober. Because I cannot sustain it anymore T_T Okay well I'm just so busy this week that I actually never had the chance to blog every night. In fact I just managed to write this week's worth of blogs today. But like I mentioned, it's the end of the month where I get so busy. There's always things to do at night. Seems like neverending.

I find it funny how I can't wait for the end of month to pass. But then again, another end of month is dawning upon us heh. I guess I'll just have to live in the moment.

Wednesday 27 October 2021

Invisible Front


Another music post tonight since I'm quite busy. A new EP from Olafur Arnalds was released also on Friday! This is actually a collection of old songs but they are now released into the world. It's a beautiful EP as always. This song is so beautiful. I'm not sure how but there's something about Olafur's music that really reminds me of a place I've never been before. Like a memory but.... Somewhere, a place. Perhaps I've been before. In my dreams, or past life.

Tuesday 26 October 2021

Always


Rufus du Sol just released their new album on Friday and it's so good! I'm currently obsessed with this song from the new album - Always. It reminds me a lot of their amazing song from their debut - Innerbloom. Been listening to this song at night to wind down and it's just so good.

I really hope I can see them live one day!

Monday 25 October 2021

Monday

It's gonna be a really busy week - cause it's the end of the month! I've been preparing myself for this haha. I think it's just become a norm for me (and us) that we'll be busy for the end of the month. 

So godspeed, let's go. 

Sunday 24 October 2021

Eternity

Some days feel like an eternity
Whatever I'm going through
The path I'm walking through
Seems to never end

Yet some days I'm reminded
That nothing is eternal

I wonder when the pain would stop
If we'll ever make a breakthrough
If whatever I'm going through
Will be worth it in the end.

Saturday 23 October 2021

Saturday

Just another random update post I guess. So as mentioned last week I've been waking up early on Saturday for the Buteyko breathing workshop for the past 7 weeks. Now that I've done the workshop, it feels weird to not wake up early on Saturday haha. But today I still woke up early cause I fell asleep early last night. In fact, my sleeping pattern has been pretty erratic lately. It's not fixed!

On some days I would sleep earlier. Or I would fall asleep unknowingly, earlier hah. On some other days I would sleep at the usual ungodly hours. I thought I was having a new fixed sleeping pattern. But then not really. The problem is I need to wake up early on some days, and on some other days, I don't. So on the latter days, I usually sleep a little later. Perhaps I need to sort out my schedule first hah.

But I must say waking up earlier has its perks, and also downsides. The perks is that I get to do work and at night, I'm left with more free time. The downside is, I have less time to do the things that I usually do at night. Like journaling, surfing through YouTube and even Netflix. 

I mean I could do this in the day/morning. But you know it, it just feels different to do it at night. Perhaps it's because I've been doing this at night. So it feels weird to have a change in scenery/habit. But journaling at night just feels better. It's quiet, it's dark, I feel more "free" to journal and blog at night as compared to the day. Although currently I've been setting aside Saturday night as my journaling nights. That is provided I... Don't fall asleep again haha. Cause I usually do.

Nowadays I even fall asleep while listening to my vinyl records. Which is kinda a good thing? In fact I usually fall asleep to music now. I would play music on the speaker and switch my Spotify to Offline mode (so that the radio won't play) and then just unknowingly fall asleep. 

Alright that's all for this mini sleeping pattern update haha. I will see you again soon.

Friday 22 October 2021

Time To Fall


Another music post today. This time is from a Enfant Sauvage, AKA Guillaume Alric who is half of The Blaze. About a month ago, he announced his solo project and released a song called Silent Love. The video for Silent Love is so so beautiful. This is the 2nd part of the trilogy and it's also another beautiful video. I love the ending shot of this video where the man falls asleep on the shoulder of the lady. And as the lady looks out of the window. That shot is amazing really.

Can't wait for the 3rd video and of course the whole album which is out next month! 

Thursday 21 October 2021

Vood

Right as promised in my previous post, here's a post dedicated to the vegan food I ate in my trip to Bandung mwahaha. Since it's only a day trip I didn't try many. But at least I managed to try one food that I've always wanted to try! Follow through the post.

First of all I just wanna thank my cousin and aunt for providing vegan food at the reception mwahaha. There's pumpkin soup and pasta with marinara sauce. Thankful for these vegan options <3

This is the vegan food I've been wanting to try. It's Eath Plantbased and they sell FRIED CHICKN! Oh my goodness haha. Their fried chickn is really really good. Best fried Chickn ever! I bought the cajun spiced and garlic parmesan flavour. Together with their honey mustard and ranch sauce dip. They are just so damn good. The dipping sauce is really good too. I can't wait to try the other flavour!


Look at this fried chickn with their honey mustard sauce! It's so good I finish them in one go haha.


And to wash it all off I have Burgreens brown sugar mylk boba. It's my first time drinking brown sugar boba and it's good I must say! I love the nuttiness of the foam. And they use vegan whipped cream which I believe is my first time having it too. I wanna try their earl grey mylk tea!


And last but not least I bought their fried chicken tenders home to have it for dinner haha. It's pretty yummy too. Love the chili sauce that comes with it. Burgreens is a go-to place for vegan food. Hope to return to try their other food. The last time I went there was in 2018 goodness haha.

Alright that's all from me today. It's not a trip out of town without me trying vegan food! I can't wait to travel again and go out of town to try more vegan food. Funny how I've been following all these restaurants and cafes on IG but I never get to try them hah. But I will one day :P

Wednesday 20 October 2021

Skies Clearing


I love seeing skies clear up after the rain. It's like the sky telling me.
"Everything's gonna be okay in the end" 

Taken today after an afternoon of rain

Tuesday 19 October 2021

596 Days (Part II)


So yeah as mentioned previously, it feels rather weird and good to travel again after 596 days. As mentioned in the previous post, the last time that I ever went out of town was on 29 February 2021. It was for Java Jazz. That's like almost 2 years of not going out of town! Haha.

Well normally I didn't go out of town often either. I only go out of town if there's concerts, or if I'm traveling abroad. Or of course the usual weddings and also business trips. After the pandemic hit I have never went out of town. Out of fear of my health and also yeah you know it. 

The COVID situation in Indonesia has improved a lot in the past few weeks. Cases are decreasing a lot. We still have about 1000 cases everyday (sometimes lower than that). I see many people are traveling again. I think Bali was packed last weekend too. And international travel has resumed on the 14th (albeit with not many international tourists visiting us). Things are kinda looking up. Even though news of a possible 3rd wave is coming in December. I hope we are so totally wrong this time haha.

I think the pandemic has taken a toll on many of us. And yes it's sad to think about the huge negative impact that the tourism sector faced in the past (almost) 2 years. So it's great to see things opening up again. Although at the same time I'm wary of the possibility of a new wave with the eased restrictions and traveling of people. But yes, PCR and antigen tests are still a requirement for travel.

The world has changed a lot in the past 1.75 years. And sometimes I wonder if it'll change forever

Like I mean... I still feel wary somehow of traveling out. And I wonder when will I stop feeling this way? Or will I feel like this forever haha. Oh gosh I hope not. But yep, I am still looking forward to the day we can all travel freely again. I don't mind wearing masks when on the plane. But I hope I can take it off when I'm out of the plane haha. I can't wait to go back to Singapore again to see my friends. It's been almost 2 years since I last went back! I miss SG so much.

Well, here's to the future of traveling. It's a lot to take in sometimes, when you look forward to that day. The world has changed and it will continue to change. But will our love and thirst for travel be changed too? How will we step inside this whole new world soon? Hmm.

Monday 18 October 2021

Of Pandemic and Weddings

Right so let me just talk about yesterday's wedding trip to Bandung a bit more!

So yes my cousin Iyo held his wedding reception yesterday. Congratulations to him and Melissa! <3 

The reception was supposed to be held in June. But back in June we had a surge in cases and Bandung was heightened to a red zone (like 2 days before the wedding). So back in June they just held the holy matrimony with their immediate families and the reception was postponed to a later date. Thankfully the COVID situation has improved a lot in the past few weeks and the government allowed (large scale) weddings again back in early October I think.

So I left my hometown at 6 AM ish after fetching my sister and the nephew. It was a rather smooth trip to Bandung with bits of jams here and there. I swear it feels kinda weird to travel again. I mean 596 days of not traveling out of my hometown haha. Reached Bandung at about 9 AM. The nephews reunited and went for a swim while I went to my sister's room to take a really short nap.

Mind you I have not slept a wink on the previous night!

After that the tea ceremony was held at 10:30. I didn't join but I just went down with my aunts, uncle and siblings to see it. After that the ceremony started at 12 PM! Okay health protocols were very tight in the event. Temperature checks, vaccination checks and what I love the most: Social distancing haha. The tables were separated widely so it feels very spacious. Everyone was wearing masks except when we're eating. No handshakes and so on but we could take photos. So it was great!

Also I think they only use like.... 30-50% of the ballroom capacity. There were a lot of space. Like a lot.

The reception ended at 2 PM. We took some photos and we went back to my sister's room to head back home. Before heading back home I took the chance to buy some vegan goodies! 

Okay maybe more of this on another post. #lazyme

Yup I think that's all for that wonderful Sunday! Once again congratulations to my cousin Iyo and Melissa for their wedding reception. Welcome to the Baros united family mwahaha. May you both have a blissful marriage, and all the best for the new chapter ahead!

Alright see you on another post.

Sunday 17 October 2021

596 Days

Right hello! I just got back from Bandung today. Well not exactly just got back but yes I went to Bandung today for my cousin's wedding! Got back home a few hours ago. Can you believe it, I finally took a trip out of town after 596 days! The last time I went out of town was 22 February 2020 for Java Jazz. Since then, I have never left my hometown haha. It feels weird and good to travel again.

Okay really tired right now so I'm going to save more for another post. Talk to you soon!

Saturday 16 October 2021

Breathe

Hello, it's another morning post from me! I woke up early today to attend my last online class for a Buteyko breathing course. In fact I've been waking up early on Saturday mornings for the past 7 Saturdays for this full course. It's been an interesting course so far and now I have learned a new knowledge about breathing heh. And I hope I can incorporate this into my life forward.

Personally I've always been intrigued with the human breath. As an avid meditator, I've learned to watch my breath. And ever since then I've always been interested with this mechanism of the human body that really keeps us alive. And when you think about it, our breath is one of the things we can consciously control. We cannot control our heartbeat, the movement of our organs or the firing of neurons. But we can control our breath. So there's something special and intriguing about it.

I've actually tried doing the Wim Hof method last year. It's also a powerful exercise, but this year I came across the Buteyko breathing training and I'm interested about it too. They're kiiiiind of similar, I mean both involve the control of our breathing but yeah different methods. I took the basic course back in April and have been practising it since then. It's only back in September that I joined the full course. The full course has more options and also deeper training as well.

So according to some studies and people sharing their experiences with the method, it is deemed to have the ability to improve our well being, and even improve some conditions (like asthma etc). The interesting thing is that.... Perhaps why and how I can get through Covid without any severe symptom, is this breathing method that I've been practising? It might be one of them.

I mean okay apart from me eating a plant-based diet, drinking turmeric water everyday, practising Buteyko, taking cold shower in the morning. I believe one of these habit (or all of them) definitely contribute to my prognosis. Okay I'm no expert in explaining how Buteyko helps in the improvement of the immune system or something like that but it has to do with one simple thing: breathing through our nose. It has shown to have many benefits. Like increasing Nitric Oxide intake!

And there are lots of studies showing how Nitric Oxide is a powerful gas that helps to fight infection. So yeah maybe it does help with my infection. Nevertheless I definitely want to make this a part of my daily life. Even though I'm not gonna practise it as often as when I began the course.

Alright that's all from me now. Special thanks to Pak Gobnd and Bu Adel for the course and teachings! If you're interested please check Buteyko method out. Hope you can give it a try too.

Friday 15 October 2021

Music of The Spheres


Happy Music of The Spheres day everyone! So I just gave this album a listen last night and wow wow wow. Okay this is definitely Coldplay's most adventurous album. I mean... We have electronic pop, a choral piece, a rock anthem (this song), a pop banger with BTS and to close this album off, a 10-minute ballad. Pretty pretty diverse and ambitious but well that's Coldplay ladies and gentlemen!

My favourite song from the album is definitely this song above. People of The Pride. The day is finally here, the day Coldplay writes a rocking gay anthem mwahaha. I love the lyrics of this song as it really reflects the current situation of the world. I think it doesn't only apply to the LGBTQ community but also to everyone who's fighting for justice. So kudos to that Coldplay.

If Chris Martin says at the end of their AHFOD tour that this is only just the beginning, I am so excited for what's coming ahead for the band. I hope you enjoy this album too!

Thursday 14 October 2021

The Return

It's Thursday and it's an exciting one too. Simply because so many artists/bands are making a comeback tomorrow haha. We have Coldplay with their awaited new album "Music of The Spheres". Then Aquilo with their new album "A Safe Place To Be" and last but not least, Adele is finally releasing a new single after 6 years tomorrow too! Seems like tomorrow is a great day to release music hah.

I think 2021 has been a great year of comebacks for music. So many bands/artists released/are releasing new music and some of them even drop surprise albums haha. I'd say it's a special treat for us music lovers to have new music and to have our favourite musicians releasing new albums. Especially in this tough year. At the end of the day, music is still some sort of escape for us.

Alright I'm gonna spend tonight listening to these new albums and music. Will write more soon!

Wednesday 13 October 2021

Happen

“Don't seek to have events happen as you wish, but wish them to happen as they do happen, and all will be well with you." - Epictetus

I'm currently reading Stoicism For Inner Peace: Ancient Philosophy for Everyday Life by one of my favourite Youtube Channels Einzelganger. So far it's been an enjoyable read! I will share with you my thoughts about it soon. In the meantime, I came across this quote in the book and it's such a comforting sentence to come across with. I really love Stoicism! 

Tuesday 12 October 2021

沖縄からの風


Another short music post. Current earworm which I discovered on Spotify's release radar playlist. Such a beautiful song. I'm not sure what genre does this music belong to but it sounds like Japanese folk-pop? Cause I hear elements of Okinawan folk tune in it. Lovely song.

Monday 11 October 2021

Ideas

Today was rather a productive day. Went to a meeting and discussed lots of great ideas. I hope it's a start of something great, and a light at the end of the tunnel. May what we aspire become our achievements! This year has been a year of learning. Learned many things, exchanged ideas and squeezed my brain out. It's quite challenging but I think that's what living is all about. 

Just making sure we pull through everything. And make our way through here and there.

Let's pull through this.

Sunday 10 October 2021

Self Care

I know I'm probably going to get flagged for saying this. But sometimes, a bottle of Soju and a can of beer is a form of self care. Photo from last night. When I got a good drink. 

Saturday 9 October 2021

Local Valley

Hello, back again for another music review/post in this Blogtober. Today I will be talking about one of my favourite albums of 2021, and also one of the most anticipated albums of 2021 for me! 

It's none other than Jose Gonzales' Local Valley. When Jose released El Invento back in February, his return was really something... Comforting? I'm not sure what to call it, but yeah it's been quite long since he released new music so it was kind of a respite to have him back.

I discovered Jose back in 2014 after watching Walter Mitty. His song "Step Out" actually soundtracked my trip to Iceland in the same year. I went to listen to the rest of his discography and really fell in love with his music! So this album is truly something I was anticipating a lot in 2021.

The singles from the album have been incredible and I just couldn't wait for the album to arrive. To me this is such a beautiful album. I was a bit puzzled and intrigued to why he named the album "Local Valley". But after listening to his explanations in an KEXP interview, how Local Valley refers to earth, this place in the universe. And the title track of the song refers to two tribes not being able to talk with each other, and not being able to see other tribes nearby living in harmony.

I feel this whole theme is so familiar in today's world. The pandemic has really divides us into "two tribes". Anti vaxxer vs vaccinated people. Conspiracy theorist (and basically people who spread hoaxes) and people who believe in science. There's this whole divided conversation between these two groups but the ignorance from the other group really shadows these whole groups.

Personally I love this album because it arrives at the right time. These whole 1.5 (soon 2) years of pandemic have really made me contemplate a lot. Contemplate a lot about life, and this whole mystery that we're living in. And I think this album really provides that platform for us to contemplate. 

The first single El Invento is still my favourite form the album. The chorus speaks a lot about what I'm feeling above. The lyric of the chorus is translated as "Tell me why is it so, tell me where you're going, tell my where we're from, tell me why is it so, and tell me why". 

These are the same questions I've been asking myself in this pandemic. I feel like as we went through the pandemic, I asked myself how did we land ourselves in this position. Why are we here, on this planet. Why and how do we allow this to happen and take over our lives. These are the questions I've been asking myself and I still haven't found the answers to them. So yeah.

And his song "Visions"? Wow that is truly a masterpiece that talks about the whole pandemic!

So yeah personally this is such a wonderful album for humanity. For all of us, to contemplate on what has been going on for the past 1.5 years. And personally it's truly a beautiful album to really accompany us. Although I'm probably gonna be reminded of the whole pandemic when I listen to this album in the future hahaha. But that's music for me. It's a time machine that brings me to a certain point in time.

Alright that's all from me now. It's Saturday and I feel more free. I have time to write more stuff haha. Maybe I should do a music review every Saturday. We'll see how it goes. See you soon!

Friday 8 October 2021

Afternoon

Sorry folks, was really tired last night that I didn't write at all. Woke up earlier today and I'm just done finishing some work so here I am writing on the blog! So yeah as you can see I kinda have a new habit now. I actually slept at about 2-3 AM last night. Can't remember the exact time. I woke up at 10:30 just now, with an occasional wake-ups at about 5-7 AM. And then I finish up some work till now.

On one hand I kinda like this new habit of mine, as I get to sleep earlier and also wake up earlier. Although at the same time I kinda miss the night. But these days life become so busy that I don't have much time to do things I like at night. Most of the time I feel really tired and worn out by the end of the night that I just go to bed straight away. That explains my lack of presence in this blog.

Well I guess I just need to find a new balance, as always. We're always bound to have a new habit and we'll get used to it. I think life is all about finding balance in everything.

Alright that's all from me now. Gotta go shower.

Thursday 7 October 2021

Tired

Sorry folks I really have no mood to write. Just tired. 

Wednesday 6 October 2021

Slither of Hope

Was making my way to the temple today in the evening. The sky looks dark and overcast but along the way I see a streak of pink in the sky. And as I continued to drive, the pink gets brighter and brighter and boom, there was this big patch of pink in the sky. The sky looks gorgeous really. 

I don't know. I'm just suddenly thinking of hope. There's a slither of hope that can appear out of nowhere. Just like this patch of pink clouds that appear out of the dark and overcast sky. 

Tuesday 5 October 2021

Reclamation

 

First music post!

Recently discovered Brandee Younger from Spotify. I was listening to Nubya Garcia's Pace when the radio plays on and this song was playing. I thought Brandee was another saxophone artist but when I found out she plays the harp, I was blown away! As if playing harp is not already difficult, now she plays jazz with it. She is such an incredible player really. Glad to have discovered her! 

Monday 4 October 2021

Open Space

I miss being in wide open spaces
I miss being in places I've never been in
I miss breathing in the air of strange lands
I miss seeing the unfamiliar

Even though I'm traversing through
the unfamiliarity of life itself

Somewhere in Inner Mongolia // 2011

Sunday 3 October 2021

This Is What The Living Do

Hello! Here's my Blogtober entry for the day. I decided to try doing one of the Isolation Journal (IJ) prompt for today. And I do this by generating a random number and seeing which prompt the number lands on my folder haha. Today's number is 72! 

Your prompt is:
This is what the living do...

Use this line from Marie Howe's poem an inspiration - perhaps as the opening sentence of your journal entry, or as a poetic refrain. Reflect on the mundane; revel in the glorious everyday details of living.

This is what the living do
Living in the comforting illusion
of the ebb and flow of ignorance
Floating on the sea of suffering
But not asking for help
Not save themselves

This is what the living do
Doing everything they could
To try and prove their worth
To try and tell they're right
Even though they're wrong
Without knowing, without thinking

This is what the living do
Thinking they own this planet
When it's the planet that owns them
Exploiting the hell out of it
Without realising they're releasing
hell from doing it.

This is what the living do
Hating each other,
With no logical reason
whatsoever
Living in an imaginary fear
Of the false things they hear

This is what the living do
But we can always change
We can always improve
What we do wrong
There's time to save ourselves
Only if we want to

Saturday 2 October 2021

Blogtober 2021

Right as mentioned yesterday, I might do something crazy this month.

I'm going to attempt Blogtober this year!

Yes to make up for the lost posts that I should be writing in the last two months, I think it's a good idea to do this challenge. Also I hope my "more humane" sleeping patterns are going to make this a breeze. Also perhaps I need to go back to blogging. Not gonna lie, I kinda miss blogging!

Anyway there are no rules for this year's Blogtober. I'm not going to write a list of posts to write, but I'm just going to attempt writing everyday. I do have some inspiration and ideas for this year's Blogtober.

Firstly as usual I might look out for ideas and blog prompts. Prompts have been kinda my saviour in blogging. But I'm not going to make a list of it. Also there are lots of ideas for Blogtober too!

Secondly I'm thinking of writing prompts from the Isolation Journal project. Not sure if I've talked about this before but year Isolation Journal is a project started by Suleika Jaouad last year, when the world went into lockdown. I've been receiving journaling prompts and I kept them in a special folder in my email. So I'm going to use some of the prompts to write in this month. I do write some of them on my journal as some of the questions can be pretty personal at times!

Last but not least, as usual, I'm going to post some photos that I take, music, posts, articles and so on.

Alright let Blogtober 2021 start today! I wonder what I will write tomorrow. Okay I'm kind of cheating cause I didn't write a Blogtober post yesterday but well, lets count it as a post haha.

See you!

Friday 1 October 2021

Hello, It's Me

Hello hello hello.

Look who's back after not blogging for TWO MONTHS!

Look who's back after missing his blog's 13th anniversary?!

It's me. I'm back again HAHAHA.

Okay sorry for the cheesy intro but yes I'm here again and oh my goodness what have I been doing! I've been so busy that I neglected this space for two months. Once again I don't wanna explain why, you know the reason! But okay maybe I'll give you an update for a while. 

Firstly as always yes I've been busy. September was truly an intense month. Both in terms of work and emotionally. Shall not explain why. August was also quite a crazy month. In fact I think 2021 has been a crazy year. And I'm glad I made it this far. July was a dark month for Indonesia, where we saw crazy amount of cases. Thankfully things are slowing down now. For the first time in... I don't know how long, we're seeing under 2000s cases daily. That's a big improvement.

Next, I've also been changing my sleeping habit. I think I should be happy that I'm sleeping earlier now. I've been sleeping at 2-3 AM now, and of course waking up earlier. Cause in the morning I usually have meetings. And also I've been enjoying doing work in the morning actually. But I've been trying to stay awake at night/afternoon cause somehow I usually feel sleepy then. But there are some days where I'm back to my weird sleeping times. But I try my best to be "humane" again haha.

Anyway yes that's kind of a mini update. 

We're now down to the last 3 months of the year. I hope we're going to write an awesome epilogue of this year! But as COVID has taught me, we need to be prepared for everything. Just really do your best and give your best shot in everything. Life should be in your favour. Like I said in the previous years, every year seems to be going faster and faster, faster than the year before. Perhaps it's just growing old, perhaps it's us getting busier. Or maybe it's just a law of the universe.

Alrighty that's all from me today. I might try to do something crazy this month. See you tomorrow!

Saturday 17 July 2021

Twenty Nine

Hello hello hello, look who's back after one month! Gosh, I think my prediction of going to blog one post A MONTH is coming true haha. Okay, ya'll know the reason. I'm going to skip the explanation.

Anyway yes I just turned 29. This is crazy, like where did time go to man. This is the 2nd birthday of my life in a pandemic heh. It's weird, 2020 was quite a rather weird year to turn 28 and now I think it's even a weirder time to turn 29. To be honest, I really have no-feels in this birthday. As usual it's just another day. A day of growing older. I think so many things have happened in this year that my birthday just becomes another day. And I think that's fine, not that I'm someone who celebrates it either.

In fact I actually forgot it's my birthday heh. Like on the 16th I know it's the 16th, but that's it. I didn't really think about what's gonna happen the next day. And I like to keep it that way.

My birthday went on as per normal Saturday. Went to work as usual, and just had a mini celebration with the office people of our housing project (thanks for the pudding!). And yeah that was it.

I always say this again and again, every year. The older I grow, the more clueless I get to think about turning a year older. It's just another day, another year. And as I have learned last year, it's a year closer to my death. So a reminder of our own impermanence and at the same time the beauty of life too. It's a weird year for all of us. I think this whole pandemic has taught us of how fragile life can be. And it made me do a lot of retrospect and reflection. About the meaning of being alive.

29 years is a pretty long time for sure. I have learned a lot and everything about who I am now has definitely to do with everything I have been through. They say we are still continuously shaping our lives and identity till we're 40? That's when life seems to plateau (as in we can't learn and do much) and then we get better and better at whatever we're doing then. 30, is still a time of experiments.

I think the biggest lesson I've learned so far, is really impermanence? That everything is constantly changing. It never stays the same. And thus, anything can happen. And when I mean anything, I mean anything. And I feel like at the end of the day, our job is to really walk through this sea of change. And adapt, and just live through it. Be prepared for what's coming, but at the same time walk through with the idea that this is not your final destination. Things can, will, and always change.

I haven't really thought of what to write for this birthday of mine. No sophisticated posts and stuff. Perhaps I'll write them down in my journal first. I am however kind of excited to walk towards the big three-O? I don't know, like I'm just excited to see how life will turn out. Although in some days life seems bleak and so on. But, I believe there's always a way. And where I am is where I'm supposed to be!

Alright that's all from me now. I hope this is not my last post of July haha. As always, stay safe and take care! I think I need to do another post on life update soon. See you again!

Thursday 24 June 2021

Unknowingly

Hello hello, look who decided to blog again after one month! Hahaha. I think at this rate I might just blog one entry a month heh. Anyway yes I've been busy as always. It's crazy how things are running at kind of a fast pace the past month. Or in this year to be honest. 2020 felt like a year that went by slowly but 2021? A whole new different speed, a whole new different feel.

Anyway I'm writing now to give you a very surprising update. Major update.

I got COVID-19.

And I have recovered.

Unknowingly 

So here's the story. On Saturday I went for a lab check with my mum. It's been a month since we both got vaccinated and we went to check if the antibodies have formed. I don't think this is a "standard" protocol yet, but I read and heard the news of people checking their Ab levels post vaccination. So I went to get checked on Saturday. The result was out on Monday. I was both nervous and also excited to know the result. It's kinda cool seeing science at work haha. Especially since I'm a Biomed graduate!

On Monday evening I got a call from the phlebotomist (whom I know) and she asked if I have been infected by COVID. I said no, or... Not that I know of haha. I asked why, and she told me that my Ab level was very high, it indicates a past infection. Usually vaccinated people don't have Ab levels that are this high. I was shocked and when asked what is the amount, it was 250!

For one, I know that our farm manager got COVID back in November. In January when he went for a blood test, I checked his Ab level and it was 275. Very high. A few other people I know who got infected also have such high levels. So I was pretty shocked to know that wow, I actually got infected without myself knowing. Well I did not experience any severe/bad COVID symptoms but...

I do remember experiencing this:

1. There was once when I had an itchy throat (which was barely affecting me) back in April or May.

2. I also had a low grade fever once (37.8 degree ish) back in April or March, I can't remember.

There was no sore throat, no cough etc, and the fever only lasted for one day. I thought I had masuk angin, as usual, so I asked my mum to do kerokan on my back and that's all. I was okay the next day. As for the itchy throat, it was just an itchy throat, nothing else. So in both experiences I just went to isolate myself for 2 days. Seeing how my symptoms persist. And I got better so yeah.

I haven't done any Ab check since January I think. I did get swabbed in April when we found out my brother was positive (and result came as negative). So I really don't know when I actually got COVID. The infection window hence is from January up till now. Or maybe May. Since my Ab level is pretty high now. So it's kinda new (maybe 1-3 months old infection? I'm not sure).

My parents went to get their Ab levels checked too, dad is still low Ab level probably from the vaccine, while mum's Ab level isn't formed yet. Apparently it takes longer for older people to form their Ab. But this also shows that I didn't pass it to them (thank goodness!), despite the fact that I stay with them, eat with them for most meals, and interacted a lot. Perhaps it's true about the study saying that asymptomatic patients may not be able to infect others. I hope it's true!

So yeah it's been a pretty wild discovery for me. A big plot twist that I got it this year. Anyway, I hope you are staying safe and healthy. Please take care, we're not out of the storm yet!

Saturday 15 May 2021

Age

Continuing from yesterday's post, you know I find something funny in this year's Lebaran holiday haha. 

Okay so before the holiday I actually came up with a list of movies to watch on Netflix and Mola. I was planning to stay up late to catch them during the holiday. But guess what, I spent the first three nights of the holiday actually sleeping earlier! Okay well not exactly intentionally but more of falling asleep. Like when I returned to my room I did tell myself that "okay lets go watch a movie" but I ended up sleeping.

On the other hand, this is probably the first time in a month that I get to experience 7-8 hours of uninterrupted sleep! It was bliss. I did wake up like once but that's just to use the toilet. To use the toilet and to also decide that I want to go back to sleep again haha. And yup I ended up sleeping for 7-8 hours. There was once (I think it was on Tuesday/Wednesday) where I slept from 3 AM to 11 AM!

Well yeah I haven't been sleeping well the past one month. Part of it is probably a curse that I get where I usually experience insomnia every May. I don't know why heh. But yeah it seems like age is catching up on me. I've been making decisions that benefit my body. And I no longer act recklessly and pretend that I'm "young" and "free" haha. Perhaps I should continue doing this.

Part of me still deny myself, thinking that I'm still that "young" Adhi that enjoys and love to "rebel" against my sleep to do other things. I mean okay I'm still young, but yeah age is catching up on me.

Alright continuing about travel on another post. 

Friday 14 May 2021

Selamat Hari Raya Idul FItri 1442H!

Hello hello, look who's back after one month hahaha. Yes it's been a long time, but here I am anyway! It's the 2nd day of Lebaran here so here's me wishing all Muslims around the world Selamat Hari Raya Idul Fitri 1442H! Eid Mubarak everyone, I hope everyone had a great 2 first two days of Syawal.

Anyway yes here I am, it's been so long since I've blogged. So many things happened in the 2nd half of April. Thus I haven't been able to blog. Pretty busy with so many things so yeah. Currently enjoying my 4th day of the Lebaran holiday now. A pretty welcomed break indeed. I always wish this break would never end but well life goes on right. I guess I will just enjoy the holiday as much as I can :)

Favourite thing about the Lebaran holiday is definitely the art of doing nothing haha. Prior to the holiday I've always been preoccupied with a lot of things. So it feels pretty good to -do nothing-. I wish I can -think nothing- too but that's kinda impossible eh haha. You know things like spending the afternoon laying on bed listening to music, basking in the afternoon heat and just chilling out. 

I can't do this on normal days!

Coupled with the silence surrounding me, everything feels so peaceful and lovely. Especially yesterday. The first day of Syawal (AKA first day of Eid) is probably the quietest day of the year for us. It's just so quiet, perhaps everyone is tired from Takbiran and visiting relatives and friends (even though this year it's kinda prohibited). So the night is pretty quiet. Even my worker says it's so quiet at night. There's no cars heard passing through for a long period of time. When usually the street is busy.

I think we can all agree that the past two years, Ramadhan and Eid felt pretty off thanks to the pandemic. Well I just really hope that everything can go back to the way it once used to be next year. The world has suffered a lot in the past one and a half years. I hope we can all go back to normal. But then again, sometimes "normal" is what we shouldn't go back to. I hope we can "return" to a better world we can all live in. Cause this pandemic has exposed many flaws that we all have.

Alright I guess that's all from me today. As usual I wish I can blog more during the holiday. But whenever I say this, it never happens haha. I'll come back to write soon. I hope! :P

Thursday 1 April 2021

Hello

Surprise surprise, look who's back! After just writing one post for March hahaha. Anyway ya'll understand okay haha. Been really busy this whole month of March, so many things were happening so yeah. Also I have a new habit now - sleeping earlier. Which is something I should be thankful for I guess? But this new habit has an erratic pattern. I don't do this everyday. It's an on and off kind of thing.

First thing first - events. So last week we finally launched a new project. This is something we've been working on for almost 9 months and it's finally here. We have decided to convert the farm into a housing estate! Sounds crazy? Well not really. Somehow I can foresee this way many years back. More on that later on another post but yes. This is what I've been crazy busy about.

Second - sleep. So yes I've been falling asleep earlier these days. Not exactly by will, but more of by falling asleep. I usually fell asleep for 2-3 hours, woke up, and then not being able to sleep for another 1-3 hours, and then falling asleep again. Which is annoying. So I made a new habit where I just force myself to sleep straight for 7-8 hours. So I slept earlier, and also woke up earlier. Which isn't bad.

Also we've been having meetings in the noon so I gotta wake up earlier anyway. This is something good I guess because I've been trying to change my habit. But at the same time it's a loss too - because I have less time to do the things that I want to do. Like blogging. And watching movies on Netflix. And journaling. And so on. I guess I have to change my habit here and there, and my schedule.

So mind the not-blogging-for-a-long-time.

But as always, I'm not pressurising myself to blog. It's a weird thing though, to not do something that you've been doing for a long time as often as usual. But life happens I guess.

Alright that's all for this mini update. I will see you soon. I hope.

Tuesday 2 March 2021

One Year of Pandemic

Today is the 2nd of March 2021. Which means it's been a year since Indonesia announced our first 3 cases of COVID-19. One full year of a pandemic, pretty crazy isn't it. In true Indonesian fashion,

Selamat Ulang Tahun COVID-19 di Indonesia
Semoga pendek umur, dan sengsara selalu

I basically just wished Indonesia's COVID-19 a happy birthday and may it live shortly and be miserable always HAHAHA. Although also today, it's just been announced that the British mutation variant has been found in Indonesia. Two cases of it. Seriously what a great "gift" for its first birthday.

Anyway yes it's been a wild year for all of us here in Indonesia. I've tasted the bitterness of this pandemic. And don't really remember tasting any of its sweetness. Perhaps apart from "nature returning" and also having less pollution because of reduced movement. Indonesia and the world have endured a lot in this pandemic. I wish it will all come to an end pretty soon. It's been a tiring year for us.

This pandemic has killed our flower business. I have to lay off my workers, and I have also lost one of our best people due to the virus. Even though we managed to switch to vegetable farming, it was just so painful to see our flowers unharvested. These flowers which we've planned so well and tirelessly grown for the auspicious month of Rajab and for Hari Raya to be left alone in the greenhouses.

That was when Jakarta went into partial lockdown, and events and weddings were all cancelled. Back in March I foolishly was still hopeful that the situation will get better in May (for Hari Raya). But boy was I wrong. And hopelessness after hopelessness, with a heavy heart I stopped our flower productions in April. We last planted our flowers in April, this was the remaining seedlings that we had.

After that we tried to maintain our nursery. But seeing how the condition isn't improving in June, we decided to just cut our nursery and plant the remaining seedlings. And once again, hopelessness after hopelessness, things were not improving. We lost Pa Irwan in August. Co-incidentally it was also the last time that we delivered flowers. A week after his passing. From then on, no more flowers.

I tried to maintain my workers. We rotated them (letting them work on alternate weeks), just to make sure they still earn some money. But in September we couldn't sustain it anymore. Our customers have paid most of their purchases and there's no way I can sustain my workers. With a heavy heart, I laid off about 80% of our workers. All of them are day-labourers, so they were only getting paid if they have work to do. But I still gifted them with a farewell gift. Hoping to end this on a sweet note.

The vegetables sales were doing quite well. But everything has to come to a stop in the middle of October-November ish. This is for another time haha. I know the virus has been pretty brutal on all of us. But once again I am reminded that everything is in a constant flux. Everything keeps on going and changing. The pandemic might have ended our flower business, but a new chapter is unfolding now.

Anyway on another hand, I have also witnessed the effects of this pandemic to the rest. Firstly, when China went into lockdown, our material supplier for the factory was also forced to close. We placed an order back in November 2019, hoping that it will be delivered to us by end of February. Due to the lockdown, we ended up receiving the order in JUNE! That's because the factory was closed and only reopened in April. And this reopening wasn't full either. So yeah.

Due to this our material supply kinda went haywire. And also back in November last year there was some shipping crisis around the world (and China). We placed an order in September, thinking it will be delivered in end November. It ended up being delivered in January and February. Crazy! Apparently it's because of the pandemic. When China reopened in July, many people were ordering to China. Due to the high demands, the ships were all out, and they become rare to transit in China. Or something like this. Because of this, shipping costs have increased, and so do our material's price.

On the uglier side of things, I've seen the worst in us in the pandemic. I remember how back in March everyone was hoarding masks and sanitizers and food supplies. Then some people were reselling masks at exorbitant prices. I understand that we were all in crisis mode. But to really disregard the plight of others, it's kinda ridiculous isn't it. And of course worst of all, the news where our minister of social affair was arrested for corruption of donations for the poor. That's really fucked up.

I have also seen how ignorant many of us are. From spreading hoaxes, to spreading unverified information, and believing in them. We really seem to take an illusionary comfort in our ignorance. And it isn't helping us, or others. I think we should all have a revolution in the way we educate our children. Make science a priority or something? So that people have basic knowledge of viruses and vaccines.

And how some of my country's leaders were taking things way too lightly in the beginning of the pandemic. I'm pretty sure things could have been very different if they take things slightly more seriously. I am glad that our current health minister is a data guy. I think we need realist leaders. Realist leaders that believe in science and see things in data, especially in such health crisis. 

Of course, not all things were dark and gloomy. I have also seen the goodness in people. People who helped others in times of crisis. People who selflessly raise funds and donate food to other people. People supporting one another on their businesses, especially now where everyone goes online. 

COVID-19 has put us in the dark. The world was plunged into chaos. And I often wonder why does this happen to us. I hate to say this and I think it's unfair for me to say this. But what if COVID-19 was meant to happen anyway. Sometimes I feel it's the result of our ignorance. The way we treat this planet and its inhabitants, non-human and humans alike. The result of our ignorance when the virus break out. And of course our ignorance as it breaks out. Refusing to adhere to protocols and so on.

I do understand this is a tricky matter. For my country at least, we have been struggling with choice of health, or economy, or people. Three of which are interconnected to one another. Choose one, the other will struggle, and so on. Perhaps we can all learn from this for future pandemic. What to do, and I hope we can all prepare better. If we still continue to treat this planet the way we used to treat it, then COVID-19 won't be the last pandemic we'll encounter. Some say it's just a dress rehearsal.

I'd like to remind everyone that 3 out of 4 emerging diseases come from animals. 

And on a lighter note, people are now getting vaccinated. The healthcare workers of my hometown have been vaccinated, and most are now getting their 2nd doses. Now we're vaccinating the elderlies and other workers. There's a shimmering light appearing on the horizon now. But no, we are not out of the storm yet. We just got to be vigilant and patient I guess. But the storm will pass. As always.

So where do we go from here?

Monday 22 February 2021

El Invento

 

I'm currently hooked on this new song by Jose Gonzales. It's titled El Invento (The Invention) and I think it's such a beautiful song. Also Jose singing in Spanish really suits his voice. The lyrics of this song is truly something else too! So touching, and it's definitely added in my "songs that make you cry" list. Welcome back Jose! Somehow 2021 feels a tad better with your return haha.

Here's the lyric to the song and the translation too.

El Invento                                             The Invention

Y por agradecer                                    And for thanking
Lo extraño de simplemente ser            The strangeness of simply being
Un alma curiosa singular                      A curious singular soul
Compleja en su calma y tempestad     Complex in its calmness and its storm

Dime por qué será                                Tell me why is it so
Dime por dónde vas                             Tell me where you're going
Dime                                                     Tell me

Y en el amanecer                                 And at dawn
Cuando todo va cambiando de color   When everything changes colour
Y vemos aparecer un mundo               And we see appear a world
Lleno de belleza y de dolor                  Full of beauty and pain

Dime por qué será                               Tell me why is it so
Dime por dónde vas                             Tell me where you're going
Dime de dónde somos                         Tell me where we're from
Dime                                                     Tell me
Y dime por qué será                             Tell me why is it so
Dime en dónde estamos                      Tell me where you're going
Y dime por qué                                     And tell me why

Y por pertenecer                                  And for belonging
A la gente del libro                               To the people of the book
Pretendiendo entender                        Pretending to know
Los enigmas del universo                   The enigmas of the universe

Sunday 21 February 2021

I'm Here (II)

Continuing from my previous post!

Recently I've been thinking about finding this "middle ground" in life. For example as it goes in my previous post, how I feel like somedays life feels like a struggle between telling yourself that you're here for a reason, and there's no reason for you to be here. As a human being who's caught in the never ending search for the meaning of life, I've always been intrigued with this question. 

Like why are we here? Or is there no reason for me to be here? But then again I tell myself, perhaps we don't need to find a reason to be here. And neither do we need life to give us a reason to be here. Perhaps, I just need to tell myself "I'm Here". That is all. 

And recently last week, there were so many things happening at the same time that I ask myself why are things all happening at the wrong timing? But then again I ask myself, what if they are all happening at the right timing. We just don't know yet. There's a recent video from Einzelganger about when things are falling apart, they're actually falling into place (I'll write another post about this!). And then I wonder if things are truly falling into place for me, despite them being so chaotic.

Then... I tell myself again. Perhaps I just need to tell myself that "Things happen". Regardless whether they are happening at the wrong time, right time or not. But they happen. And I also realise most of these things are beyond my control. It's not that I make these things happen too me.

After all these questions, I am suddenly remembered one of my favourite quotes from Rumi. 

“Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing, there is a field. I’ll meet you there"

This question of mine is answered somewhat by this quote. This "field" that Rumi is talking about probably talks about this middle ground I'm looking for. Between existing for a reason and having no reason to be here, between telling yourself things are happening at the right timing or wrong timing, and so on and forth, there is a field that signifies all of this. And we ought to be there. You know.

So yeah perhaps we should see things in a broader perspective. Not just one, especially one that is created by our mind, even though we don't know its truth or significance yet. Or most importantly we should see things happening as they are. And then learn what we can take from these things.

Perhaps this is the beautiful struggle people are talking about in life?

Sunday 14 February 2021

I'm Here


Somedays, life feels like a struggle between telling yourself you're here for a reason and there's no reason for you to be here. Perhaps we don't need to find a reason to be here. And neither do we need life to give us a reason to be here. Perhaps we just need to tell ourselves I'm here. That's all.

Friday 12 February 2021

Happy Chinese 牛 Year!

Happy Chinese New Year! :)

Hello everyone! First of all just wishing everyone a Happy Chinese 牛 Year! Yes I waited 12 years to say this again hahaha. Since this year is the year of the metal ox! I wish everyone great health, happiness and prosperity. And may the year of the ox be a better year than the previous year of the rat. Which I'm pretty sure was a _____ year for us. 祝大家牛新年快乐,身体健康,万事如意,心想事成!

Anyway I'm pretty sure we can all agree that this year's CNY felt a bit off. Personally for me, we don't have a full reunion this year. Usually my aunts, uncle and cousins would gather in CNY eve midnight but this year we don't do that. Just my family and my aunt who's staying with us. Apart from the usual CNY eve lunch (which is also not attended fully by everyone, the rest was pretty different.

I even went to the temple on CNY eve and... It was empty. The main doors of the temple are actually closed except for the side door. I even thought it was closed but the caretaker told me they're opened, they just only let devotees pray and not the general public. At the time of visit (7:30 PM), my temple would usually be filled with people. Devotees praying, curious onlookers and so on. The inside of the temple would be filled with smoke from burning incense. Now, it's just empty. Like a normal day.

But as you can see from the photo above, the temple is also glittered with candle lights. 

I see it as a symbol. That although the temple is void of people, it has candle lights flickering inside. In this seemingly unwholesome Lunar New Year, there still remain hope flickering brightly. That one day we will reunite again like the good old days. And this darkness will soon disappear, replaced by light.

Well yes it's been a weird CNY for us. But I hope you still have a great time with your loved ones. And please stay safe and healthy wherever you all are. Happy Chinese 牛 Year once again! :)

Sunday 7 February 2021

Letting Go Is True Wealth (II)

Right, continuing from my previous post, this is why I share the same sentiment with the video!

I think I've talked about this before in a previous post. But yes as I grow older, growing materialistically has never been a goal of mine. I'm not interested to be rich. Or to own big houses, expensive cars and so on. Also ever since I decided to become a minimalist back in 2017, and I think I'm quite successful in doing this cause in my yearly spring cleaning, my room doesn't seem to have new things inside. Except for one thing: my vinyl records haha. I still collect them so yeah they're growing in number.

I think the older I get, the more I understand the value of things. Like I don't really want to grow materialistically to be honest. Instead of wanting big houses, I want a small sized one that is enough to function well, and enough for me to live comfortably in. To sum things up - I want to be enough. Be it in the materials I posses and also the person I want to become. I find pointless reasons to why I should own many things and big things and so on, when I can be happy with less.

As the Dhammapada said, the greatest wealth is contentment. This to me is one of the biggest takeaway and realisation in life. Because as I have reckoned, nobody has ever felt enough in the lives. Okay or should I say very very very little people feel like they are enough, and/or they have enough. But humans, in most cases, are greedy bastards who never feel like they have enough haha.

I am no longer enticed in this capitalist world we're living in. Where the media seems to endlessly tell us that we don't have enough. Every month we have an offer made by online shopping giants, sort of encouraging us to buy more and more things. But do we really need them? Or are we just falling into a trap of this insufficiency that we're made to feel? When can we realise that we have enough.

I'm not saying that we should just let go of everything that we have to be happy. Perhaps we need to let go of this desire and baseless fear that we can never be/have enough. To be content with who we are and to just spend money on things that are really necessary, for our survival and life. Well once in a while it's fine to pamper ourselves. But don't do it on a daily basis eh.

Alright that's all from me now. All in all, yep. Letting go is perhaps true wealth.

Friday 5 February 2021

Letting Go Is True Wealth

 

One of my favourite YouTube channels just uploaded this video recently and it's such a cool video! I'd like to quote a passage from the video that resonates with me a lot.

"The basic ideology of consumerist culture we live in is that "less is less and more is more". This has everything to do with how we collectively value social status, and that social status isn't measured by one's virtue or spirituality but by the car one drives, the house one lives in, the furniture one possesses and the clothes one wears. What we have seems to determine our place in the dominant hierarchy. So in a society in which holiness is wealth, the church is the shopping mall, and prayer is consumption, those who dare reject these sacred elements will be regarded as blasphemers."

I'm a proud blasphemer! Haha. Okay more about this on a separate post. Talk to you soon!

Thursday 14 January 2021

New Stuff

Hello again! Whew I've been wanting to blog but as usual life happens haha. Anyway I'm not gonna talk about my new year resolutions and goals here. I've done that in my journal :P But I want to talk about something else; new blogging habit! Okay not exactly new but there are some stuff that I want to do differently in this year. And nope I'm not going to blog a hundred posts again or something heh.

So firstly yes I will not set any goals again for my blogs. No number of posts, nothing. But I want to do something more - and that is talk about the happenings in my life more frequently! And this is of course, only if there's something exciting happening haha. Not gonna blog about the boring stuff. 

I realised that I mostly blog (and journal) about my thoughts, and feelings, and topics that I want to talk about. But pretty rarely blog about the happenings in my life. And it's quite hmm, sad. I mean sure there aren't many interesting things that happen in my life. That's the main reason to why I don't blog about it. But also I feel that my blog should be a place where I can look back and reminisce on the different events that are happening in my life. And not only on a personal level, but global level too.

I was inspired by my journals actually. Back in my poly days when I started journaling, I journaled a lot about the daily happening in school. Well not everyday but you know the random stuff happening. And it brings back pretty good memories and feelings. And so yes I hope to do that in my blog too. So that in the future I can look back on my posts and happily reminisce. Not just read about my thoughts.

I don't know, perhaps it can be small things like birthdays, or events, or when I try some good food. 

Which brings me to my next point. I think more photographs! Usually, and also weirdly, I try not to post just photos. Cause to me a post should be filled with words, and not photos. Like maybe... I should create a special blog for my photos. But no, I don't have time for that. So yeah maybe more photos entries. Random sky, random food, random whatever. I think it's gonna make my blog more interesting.

Last but not least, prompts. So as mentioned last year, I joined a group on Facebook called The Isolation Journal which was created by Suleika Jaouad. We receive prompts to our email and some of the prompts are pretty interesting. Some are pretty personal questions and I don't feel comfortable sharing it here in the blog, so I write it down in my journal. Prompt is a good method to keep the creative juices flowing. I think I can do more of this. to keep this blog alive heh.

Alright I guess that's all for now. Here's to more writing in this blog. Stay safe and healthy!

Wednesday 6 January 2021

Happy New Year 2021!

Hello hello, first of all just wishing you a happy new year 2021! Here we are on a brand new year after such a crazy 2020. The pandemic isn't over yet. We shouldn't let our guard down. But I think it's fair to say we have a bit of hope in this brand new chapter. Vaccines are rolling out as I'm typing this. Indonesia is going to begin vaccinating health professionals next week (even though we don't know the efficacy of the Sinovac vaccine, yet). But please stay safe and healthy everyone.

As usual, as seen from my 2020, I'm not going to set any blogging goals for this year heh. It was expected of me to blog less than a hundred posts last year mwahaha. And it's kinda nice. I didn't feel pressurised to blog a certain number of posts. But as always, I'm going to continue blogging. Even if it's just one post a month. Hopefully not haha. And I might be doing some new stuff!

Alright this is just a real short post. I'm going to continue on another night about my plans. Have a great 2021 ahead everyone. Stay safe and take care as always.