August is here, tomorrow

Awesome sky today :)

Okay yes I kinda fail. I told myself I'll study by 1030 PM. But when I wanted to add songs into my iPod, iTunes kindly offered me to update my OS software of my iPod and therefore I'm downloading it now and it took so long! So now it's still downloading so why not I blog while waiting right? Downloading Adele's Set the fire to the rain too.

I know I'm slow but I'm falling in love with Adele! OMG her voice is just too nice to not be heard, to not be loved. She's such an awesome singer! Love her voice! And her personality as well :D

Anyway today was an alright Sunday. And... The start of... 七月! Oh dear to those out there... I won't disturb you you won't disturb me right hehe :) Anyway and since today is the last day of July, I gotta claim my complimentary cake from Starbucks! So I went to Holland V in the afternoon just to claim it before July ends.

Oh gosh, before July ends. Time flies fast huh! It's August tomorrow!

I bought C.Jade fried rice too for lunch. Not sure if it's me not eating there for such a long time or my stomach has gotten smaller (yay) but I was really bloated eating one portion of the fried rice. Usually I can finish them without feeling bloated and full. Now... I was forcing myself to finish it. But it's good :D

I was waiting for 5 o' clock to start so I spend the time doing some iPharm notes. Yes the final test is this Wednesday, I can't compromise yo. So it's been an iPharm weekend. Doing iPharm notes, revising them and yup. I have done the e-tutorials. Results are okay hehe. I did badly for the MST so... I'm really hoping to do VERY WELL for the final test! I want my A :O

And at 5 I went running! Hehe. 5 KM~ and it took me about... 42 minutes. So 10 KM will take me 82 minutes AKA 1 hour 22 minutes? Yeah provided I can run constantly withing that 10KM. I gotta start training for my Standard Chartered 10k! I believe I can do it, and for me.. Time doesn't really matter. The distance and will do :) Don't you think so?

And you know there was something funny that happened just now while running. There was this boy who would walk when I'm not beside him, but would start running when I got near him (or when he turned his back and saw me). He did this for like 3 times -.- and I wish I could tell that boy this:

Go ahead and overtake me. I won't overtake you, I need to overtake myself first :)

But of course I didn't do that haha.

But seriously. I run not for the sake of overtaking others, but I want to overtake myself. There's nothing wrong with overtaking others. But that's what I do.

For dinner I cooked olives fried rice! I was craving for olives last night so I decided to cook something olive-y so yeah. It was nice, but underseasoned :O I thought the olives were salty enough so that I don't need to add salt. But well the rice was a bit bland but not bad when eaten with the olives :P

Sigh, anyway... August is here tomorrow! I think time is really flying so quickly... That it just seems so... Quick. Okay that's really going round and round. Personally speaking, August will put myself into test. Test for a few different things. My time management, my knowledge, my mind and most importantly myself.

Not only this will be the last month of my school semester, which means exams, tests this and that, but I will also be having... A concert, and other stuff. this is so going to put myself into test! Of how much I've learnt and studied for the exams, how good my time management skill can be. There will be lots of things happening alongside my exams and test. There's nothing I can do but to manage my time as much as I can.

As much as I will have to dislike August. I will and I am going to pull through it. Cause on 5th September, I can have a time of my life. It would be an awesome reward for me, for this semester :D

So yeah, I really hope that the exams can end really quickly and that my Inner Mongolia OCIP will come ASAP. Sometimes I just feel that all these studyings and revising... Stress and tire me. But no worries! I believe I can, and I will pull through August! Ciao, back to GM bio.

When you doubt yourself, that's when you lose your battle.

34 more days to Inner Mongolia OCIP!

Mr Baldy

So anyway, it's been quite long since I blogged! Sorry, been pretty busy these days with this test, that test and many more. There's band as well, and so my schedule was pretty hectic. And tonight! I still have to check my report again, to make it nice and awesome haha. Supposed to do it last night but oh well I was so tired after band. I slept at 3 okay :O so tonight it is then!

Anyway it's like... My 4th day having a shaved head. And I like it! Here are many reasons why I like being bald: Save shampoo, no need to worry about hair every morning, cooler, nice to touch and rub as well haha. But of course, what's best about being bald? I'm together with the children with cancer! They're not alone :)

It's pretty nice and cool to see many shaved heads in SP, somehow after the Hair for Hope weekend. Including my lecturer, Dr Tan! Well I guess there are many people who went for hair for hope 2011, and that's pretty awesome :D And pretty proud to some of my friends who went to shave as well! Like Elton who made his decision like over a night haha.

And of course I have to thank my classmates, lecturers and friends! They donated GENEROUSLY for CCF. My targetted amount was $80 and on the first day... I have raised $91! And now after some of the Green Desert people donated, I have raised $113.50! How freaking awesome!

Thank you to all my friends and lecturers who have donated to me. You guys have played a huge part in helping children with cancer. You don't have to show your support by shaving only, donation wise, it's already great enough! :D Thank you once more to everyone again!

Anyway today was alright I guess. Went with Saeyeoh, all the way to Raffles Place to go to China's Visa consular service... And when we're supposed to hand in our forms.... We need our e-tickets. Oh my gosh, so we went there for nothing! Noooo! Oh man :/ But at least we get everything done, so now we just need to like finalise everything. Plus the ticket :/

And after that we went back to school for our green desert OCIP meeting, and today's session is really fun! We did the personality test which Amanda was leading us with and it's kinda cool to somehow know that the questions really suit me! Like totally haha. But when I read who I am truly about (number 8), it's kind of the opposite of me. So now I'm confused.

And it's pretty negative-feeling like it says I don't understand how people feel and that I should learn more on how to understand them. Noooooo!!! Hahaha. But oh well Amanda says it's not like 100% true and that we shouldn't totally comply to it. But the rest is kinda true so yeah. Pretty cool :)

After the session some of the peeps went to FC5 to eat and we were chatting. I was chatting with Elijah, Joel and Kay Heng and we were laughing like mad haha. Chatting about nonsensical but hilarious stuff! Haha, really had a great time there.

Right I guess that's all for today. Pretty much excited about the trip, every Wednesday, with the fact that the date is getting nearer and nearer each day. And of course... That would mean exams are coming too! August is going to be a REAL CHALLENGE for me. So many things going on, things clashing here and there. IBM which is 10 days before exam.

But I'll pull through, watch me :)

Some things in life are meant to be enjoyed in silence, celebrated in silence, smiled in silence.

38 more days to Inner Mongolia OCIP!

Hair for Hope 2011

Right! As you can see from the photo above, I went for Hair for Hope (HfH) 2011! Kind of fast uh, it's been one year since I shaved for HfH 2010 and now it's 2011's turn. This time round I register as an online shavee, cause last year I gotta wait 3 hours heh. But I learnt one thing from this year, if you wanna walk in, come at about 3 PM! Just now it was kind of empty, or was the walk-in shavee slots all taken up? I'm not sure.

Neevrtheless, being walk-in or online shavee, I'll still go again for next year's HfH! This is my 2nd HfH and definitely not the last. I'll still come back for it :) Anyway met Nivedha first at Holland to take her photos and had some breakfast to ear (for me) before we headed to Vivo. And we were talking about... Hinduism and Buddhism on the way heh.

Cause my shaving time is from 1-2, while YP's shaving time is 2-3. So I gotta wait for him and just went to queue by myself. Victor was also there, but he gotta queue on the walk-in shavee side. Anyway... I queued and got shaved! Oh well, finally reunited with my botak-hairstyle again after one long year heh.

The two of them went for the shaving as well and we took some pictures after that. Nivedha had to leave for her lesson so she left earlier before us. YP wasn't feeling that well and he went home as well (get well soon YP!). Vic and I then went for kopitiam and we ate, and we went hunting for headphones (I got a new one, cause mine spoilt :O).

And on the way to kopitiam, on the way to challenger, and best denki. As usual, we were all being starred by other people. Being my 2nd time shaving, I have expected this reaction from other people. Victor was a bit uneasy in the first place. Then, he realised by how a child with cancer, undergoing a chemotheraphy, would feel if he were to walk on public.

Stares from everywhere, like as if we were different. Alright our hairstyle is different. But we're human too aren't we?

When I first signed up for HfH (as I would have probably mentioned this last year), I just thought of going there for "fun" and for support of the CCF and children with cancer. Until I got on a bus, when well, being starred again. And when I'm being bald for a month plus, where people stare at me as if I'm different.

That's when I realise how much symbolic Hair for Hope is. How much important and how much special this event is. It's not just an ordinary charity event where we all shave for "fun". It is very very symbolic. Once you shaved, you'll know how it feels to be in the shoe of a child with cancer. How much insecure they feel, how much of "why?" they feel.

Personally speaking, my aunt passed away due to cancer. That was when I was still in P5. I remember how I would go accompany her to Mt Elizabeth hospital for her chemo treatment, accompanying her, chatting with her. And around me would be other patients, young and old. I remember one session when there was this westerner boy who was going for chemotherapy. I can see the sadness, and pain in his eyes. And he was telling his mum of how pain it is when they inject the needles.

I have lost some of my dearest people due to cancer. Some, totally unrelated to me. My aunt, my grandma, my grandpa, the father of a really good friend of mine, my great uncle and many more. Cancer is a scary thing. I know how serious it can get especially when it starts spreading to the other parts of your body. The unpleasant side effects of chemotherapy and more.

Adults, I would say, have more tolerance towards pain and the anguish they get from the treatments. After all, they are grown up. What about the children with cancer? As I said above about that young boy, and so many others in Singapore and the world who are suffering from it. I might not be a doctor that can save their lives. Not a researcher that can come up with a medicine that cures them instantly.

I'm just a young man after all. But through HfH, I can show them my support, I know how it feels to be like them, I know how harsh life can be for them. I am thankful for having this healthy body, for not having cancer in my life so far. And yes I'm grateful for that, and I know there's no way we can improve their conditions through going hair for hope.

But hair for hope itself, is an event. A symbolic event and gesture in which we can send through out wishes, hopes and support. Not physically, not in real life, but more of spiritually. More of symbolism, more of a prayer and wish and support. It is just so symbolic, that you have to go through it to FEEL it, to EXPERIENCE it.

I don't really believe the fact that some people just go and shave for the sake of "fun". I don't know why but I feel there's something inside them that made them do it. That made them shave their hair. It's not easy to just go and "Hi I wanna go for HfH" especially for the girls. I feel there must be something that made them want to do it.

But anyway, let us not forget another group of people - The Survivors. They are the ones who had battled it out, and never relinquished. And came out of the darkness and pain as if being reborn again. I know a few cancer survivors. And in fact one is a really good friend of mine. She told me stories of those "days". And I just told myself... She's one really strong girl. How did she do it!

And it's just so amazing how these survivors can put up everything together again. And live a life, somehow as if nothing has happened to them. Cheerful, bubbly, caring and helpful. Knowing what they had went through, I just feel.... Impressed and touched. I feel amazed and happy for them. But at the same time, I ask myself.

If these people have the courage, have the strength to move forward in life. To take back the pieces of their lives, shattered by the disease. To have the will to never give up despite of the pain and really gruesome feeling. I can't find any reason why we, normal and healthy human beings can't do the same either. To not give up when we're troubled. To move forward when something bad happened to us. To have the courage to fight. Why can't we?

We all tend to complain. When we go to the saloon and find our hairstyles weird. When we fail at something we dread with it like as if we will fail forever. When we don't get what we want, it feels like the end of the world. Then what about those children and survivors? They are fighting with a disease, battling with life (maybe financially) but. They never give up

That's one thing I've learnt from this event. Out of the many.

And so to sum it all up. I am dedicating my shave for three groups of people. To those who have tried their best battling with cancer, to those who have survived the fight with cancer. But most importantly, to the people who are still fighting with it.

And not to forget, of course, to children with cancer. It's okay to be bald! You are not alone. We the shavees have shared your pain, shown our support for you all, and have felt what you guys have felt/are feeling. But most importantly, NEVER GIVE UP! KEEP FIGHTING and I'm sure you'll win the battle.

What a long post. But I feel really good after writing this. Alright, thanks for reading! Hair for Hope 2011 is such an awesome event! I will definitely come back next year! :)

42 more days to Inner Mongolia OCIP!

Deep satisfaction

Hello! Currently blogging in the library. I'm studying with Jolene, Sharon, YP and Wei Lun :D But I'm done anyway hehe so here I am blogging. I finished gene transfer and done results (sort of) for my report already, and yeah it feels awesome haha. Thus the title. But the title also goes to a mash-up by this awesome Youtube artist called Pogo music! It's titled Expialidocious haha, awesome song.

Anyway it's been quite a long time since we meet together again. So it feels great to meet all of them again :D Well I wanted to do my report's discussion but apparently I failed so too bad heh. Anyway shall continue with iPharm tonight. I wanna finish my CNS by tonight. That would be great.

Oh well I feel really happy and excited for tomorrow! It's like finally, TOMORROW! Haha. I feel that time really flies quickly... I was telling myself of how slow this week will feel like cause tomorrow is the day. But apparently, I feel that this week went vrooom! And it's like, tomorrow heh. I'm so excited! Really can't wait for 23/7/2011 1-2 PM to come :P

And glad to hear that some of my friends are joining the event as well. So gonna be an exciting one! I'm fulfilling my 2011 resolution, and my personal wish. So how can I not be happy? I shan't talk much about tomorrow. Let tomorrow speak for tomorrow eh?

The week was alright I guess. I know I have not been blogging, for the entire week (wow). So anyway I think it's a great week, many things achieved and yup. Band was alright too. 3 more weeks to the concert! We're all working very hard, I know that the concert will be an awesome one :D Go go SPSB

Okay I guess that's all for today. All I can say is that... I'm very excited ecstatic extremely happy about tomorrow! :D Don't know what's coming up? You shall see it for yourself :) Ciao!

Yesh yesh yesh! Time fly faster heh

43 more days to Inner Mongolia OCIP!

Less than 24 hours more to -that- :D

Happy (belated) birthday to me!

Beautiful sunset, on my birthday. What else can I ask for? :)

Hello! Oh well I was so busy last night (yes I know on my birthday) that I forgot to blog. Stupid me, for forgetting to do so many things last night and so I burnt the midnight oil, and I didn't blog. You know what's the worst thing? To know that your teacher said the next day that the submission date is postponed. RAWRRR but look on the bright side, I'm done! :D

Anyway so yeah, happy birthday to me! Belated it is. 19 years have passed so quickly, sometimes I feel that it's... Pretty short heh. Even though 19 years is pretty long. Funny how we feel one week is so long, yet 19 years so fast. Human nature at its best. Anyway I had a blast! From the pre-birthday celebrations, to the wishes, to everything. Thank you so much people, love you all :)

My birthday itself was alright. I had lunch together with Nivedha at Holland V. We wanted to print and develop our photos but... Poor her, for discovering that.... HAHAHA okay I'm so bad but on the bright side, she learnt something new! Right? Hehehe. Anyway thanks for your present! Love it hehe.

Even though I'm spending my birthday alone, without my friends or family here. I'm pretty thankful that the beautiful sky is accompanying me throughout the day. The sky on Sunday was just so gorgeous and beautiful. It feels like... I don't know. As if the sky is wishing me a happy birthday too :) So thank you, sky.

On Saturday I went with Ahpa and her friends, Huiting, Bao yu and Skai on a trekk on the KTM railway! It was my first, and probably last time there, since they're taking them out. I had a great fun trekking 6 KM long of distance. And I felt so happy to have celebrated my birthday with them, given the fact that we only met for the first time on that day! I'm really touched by that, thank you people! You're all so awesome :)

Photos up on Facebook by the way :)

As for today.... Nothing much, it was an ordinary Monday I guess. And thank you DBS 1.5 for the birthday present! Seriously, how did you guys know I need that kind of pouch! :P It'll come really handy for me, you know how freaking sentimental I am right :P And today we also had out first clarinet tutor session. Whew, tough but worth it heh, I guess that's how I call it.

Alright I think that's all for today. Once again, thank you all people for your birthday wishes, the presents, the surprises, the celebrations and everything. I really appreciate each and every gesture, in any way that you've given to me. Love you all! (Y)

19 years, many more to go. Wishing for a better 19 than 18! (Even though 18 was really awesome) :)

47 more days to Inner Mongolia OCIP!

Goodbye Harry Potter, you'll always remain in my heart

Hello people! I think today was such an awesome day! So many great things happened and I'm loving it hoho. So anyway I went to school earlier today to do report with Syazwani. I finished my cover page! O yay! Haha, just kidding, did aims, procedures and yeah. Borrowed some books for theory too. And then we head for GM bio class, and yay I finally signed up for Standard Chartered 10K marathon! Paid and everything done :)

After class... My awesome DBS 1.5 people (actually most are DBS 1A02 with Vithya heh) gave Candy and I a surprise! They were at T11A and we celebrated Candy's birthday. I thought it's only Lizzie and Candy's birthday but when I saw 3 candles I went awww haha. Thanks a lot peeps! I really had a great time with you just now. And thanks Candy as well for the lovely notebook! :D

While waiting for Lizzie to come, and the rest to finish their gems, I stayed at T11A to do some of my report and surf the net and yeah. After that Nivedha and I wanted to go to Holland V to develop her film but she was experiencing some cramps so she decided to go home instead. Take care and get well soon Niv! I headed home after that to meet Jes and the rest for HP 7.2 :D

Met my 4E1'09 clique at JP to watch Harry Potter 7 part 2. Thanks for the presents people! Like em a lot! (I have a fetish for T-shirt with words heh). HP 7.2 is SO AWESOME! Okay I feel it's a tad too short for a final movie but still awesome! And pretty sad too :( After that we went for dinner and we all went back home after that :) Thanks for the night out peeps! I enjoyed it a lot! :)

Sigh, now that Harry Potter, the great sequel, is gone. I feel kind of sad... So I'm dedicating this post for the awesome series! :D

I remember the first time the Harry Potter book series was published (The Sorcere's Stone), I bought the book (In Indonesian) and start reading it. It was so fascinating to be introduced to a world of magic. Then comes the movie. That's when everything seemed so surreal and wonderful. Where I really I wish I could have a wand and cast Winggardium Leviosa and levitate things around. Or Alohamora to unlock doors.

Then I came to Singapore and watched the chamber of secrets together with my language school class. Then, Harry Potter somehow became a part of my life. It's something that I always look forward to once every year, or two years. Even though I didn't watch the 3rd and 5th movie, and that I stopped reading the book after The Chamber of Secrets, Harry Potter is something I enjoy watching, or even fantasising.

It became a part of my childhood. The story, the plot, the characters, the sceneries, and most importantly, the magic. I remembered how much I wish Hogwarts existed. That Harry, Ron and Hermione were real-life people whom I can talk to, and learn magic from. How I took tree branches to make it look like a wand. It may be plain silly to you, but that's how much I treasure and enjoy this great series of Harry Potter.

I may not be a student of Hogwarts. Yet alone an alumni, or even a soon-going-to-be student like Albus Severus Potter. But somehow Hogwarts is a place that I would "visit" once every two years or so. And today it felt so sad to see them crumble (thanks to Voldemort). But yet so touching to see the whole of Hogwarts fighting back.

Thank you so much JK Rowling. For writing this 7 sequel of great books. And the director of the movie, David Heyman (Took this from Wiki). The casts of the movie, each and everyone of them. The staff members. Basically everyone involved in the movie making. Thank you all so much for making such a marvellous and fantastic movie series for the past 10 years. For injecting my childhood days with such joy, anticipation, wonder and most importantly magical fascination.

Harry Potter is and will always be a part of my childhood, and me. The story will be engraved (hopefully) till I grow old. I would definitely ask my children to read them, and tell them the story. And to know that, that is it for this wonderful series, I really feel sad. For part of my childhood have now been gone, forever. There will no more be anymore series. And that's the sad part. But whatever the case, the story will remain in my memory :)

Part of my childhood. Magical imagination, and escapism. Harry Potter is just... :')

50 more days to Inner Mongolia OCIP!

Defying Gravity

Sorry for the title, currently listening to the song so... Hence the lyrics. Yes yes I know that's lame etc. But anyway I'm stuck with ideas so too bad I guess, this would do. Okay what am I talking about seriously.

Giving myself 8 minutes to blog! Rawr

Anyway today was alright I guess. It's a normal Wednesday... BUT WAIT. I was not late for iPharm! Oh yeah oh yeah! Hahaha. In fact I was earlier than Miss Joanne :D And I'm proud of myself today for not feeling sleepy for both iPharm and Biochem class :D I guess the topic was really interesting. Cardiovascular drugs, and how they work. Awesome :)

After school stayed bask as usual. Kai and Candy left for Vivo cause Kai needs to get her sim card back. Really hope she'll get her phone back! Screw that stealer seriously :/ And so I stayed back with Syazwani, to accompany her hehe. She stayed back for Joey's sharing session while for me, the OCIP briefing. So I couldn't go for the session :O

Oh well, after every session I'm getting more and more excited about the trip. Leave the session alone, actually after every day. Today we learnt more about being an activist, and an intellectual. Basically what we all will achieve after the trip. After the session today, I get a clearer picture of what's gonna happen, what we'll get etc. So... I'm so pretty damn excited.

Oh and one more thing! Don't laugh, be surprised, and be interested. I signed up for Standard Chatered 10KM marathon! Holy cow , I know, I couldn't believe myself either! It's gonna be so freaking.... Unbelievable. Come one I failed my Napha test for the past 3 years and I signed up for this? I must be out of my mind? NO! :D I'm running with Lizzie, Bei Xi, Doreen and some more (I hope, haven't discovered yet heh).

It's 4th December so... Time to train I guess!

After the session I followed Ahpa to mac. She wanted to eat fries and I bought a cup of green tea. But then our small chat transformed into a 3 hour chat! Haha, really couldn't feel time fly so quickly. But I had a great time chatting with her. Chilling out I guess, and I think that it's been seriously a long time since I had a good chat with someone. Too stressful maybe heh.

Alright, shit I exceeded by 14 minutes hahaha. Okay I'm just switching on my lappy to blog so... See ya I guess! Time to hit the books later on :)

Had a not-so-great start of the day. But a wonderful end. That's what I call a good day :)

52 more days to Inner Mongolia OCIP!

TEN more days to -that- woohoo! :D

Strings affair

SPSB members who performed just now :)

Oh gosh it's 1:22 AM now, and same as last week, I was telling myself "Okay lets blog" at 10:30. Pardon me heh, I went to bathe, cook and eat so... Thus the long time! :) Anyway here I am. I just have to blog tonight, cause today (or Saturday, yesterday) was an awesome day! Or I guess night. So I guess I'll blog in the context of yesterday.

Yup! I had my concert with the awesome young musicians. It was my first time playing with a string ensemble. Even though I don't play strings, I play as a wind player, I think it's an awesome experience. It's very rare, I feel, for a wind player (especially like me, an ordinary band player) to play with a string ensemble! Awesomeness eh...

Anyway I met Chee Ming, Sham, Cecillia and Zhen Yang at NP, actually I met CM and ZY at NP bus stop then we all came together to the hall. Practised for a few while and then it's rehearsal time! Whew, it's a bit of a disorganised but well we all managed to pull it off. And last-minute things especially on the concert day ain't good you know.

Went to King Albert's Park Mcdonald for dinner, and they were amused by my way of eating Mcspicy heh. Pardon my weird way eh! Ate for a little while and we started heading back to NP for the real concert. Tuned, practised a little more, and there we go! The bad thing for me is that I didn't know the order of the songs. So I gotta keep on looking at CM to see whether he stood up to play the clarinet or not heh.

But I think overall, the concert was great, despite of a few glitches, like my being out of tune, quite bad, and some of the uncertainties we all faced in Imperial March. But we pulled it off, I think we all did a great job, with the fact that we only had like 2 practices? 2 rehearsals, and that the changes were told like on the concert day itself.

My dream came true, I played Howl's Moving Castle with a strings ensemble. And what's best was me playing my favourite part of the song, my favourite melody of all times. It's just a silent joyful feeling I had. It feels great to somehow know I did it. Even though yes, my playing was a bit out of tune heh. But I don't know. I really enjoyed that... 10? Bars of music for HMC theme.

Ahh I guess that's the joy of being a musician. You gotta enjoy things which not everybody can enjoy. It's a weird feeling. People might feel that "It's just playing your instrument, your favourite song. What's the big deal?" To me, it is something exclusive. Something personal I can only enjoy it myself. Just pure, simple, but sublimal joy in the within me that enjoy it.

As those notes were moving out of my clarinet, forming a beautiful melody together with the strings (it's a freaking soli!!) and I guess that's when joy appears in my heart, and translated in my ears. Well I guess, this feeling goes to musicians. Or I guess take it, when you do something you love. Like if you love to cook, you'll feel joyful when cooking. Others who don't love cooking, don't feel the same way as you.

I guess the moral of the story is just.... Enjoy what you do. Cause that's where your heart lies, where your heart feels contented and happy. When your mind is at peace, and your heart is at ease. A feeling exclusive to you, that you can't share with no one else. Except you :)

Anyway here are some photos! And that's it for today I guess, I love Saturday nights... Cause... I don't feel like doing anything. Yum! Bon nuit!

Playing pose!

55 more days to Inner Mongolia OCIP!

Emptiness, once again

Hello peeps! Back to blog again. I'm currently feeling.... Empty. Yes, once again! Oh gosh damn it. I'm not sure why, and I don't know how. I guess I'm someone who has to be kept occupied with things. So I won't feel this emptiness anymore. I don't know, like you know the feeling? Of suddenly having this sort of emptiness feeling, especially after you're not doing anything for a while.

It sounds bizarre but yeah, I'm sure in one way or another you'll feel this feeling. Like okay let me give you an example. Well I'm a performer, both in band and drama (once). The feeling feels like when we're waiting to perform and not do anything. That's the feeling. Empty... Not say bored. Just empty. There's no word to describe but empty.

Ah well, I shall study tonight, I guess an awesome way to take my mind somewhere.

Anyway, lets talk about today heh. I failed badly, again, to WAKE UP early! And go to school to study. Oh yeah, planned to wake up at 9, go to school and study from 10-12. Well I woke up at 11 heh. How bad is that. Even though yes, my alarm rang at 9 am. But it's not powerful enough to shake me off my sleep.

Nevermind, I went to school for Gem Bio then. And I'm satisfied with my GM bio result! But I'm pretty sure that I can still buck up for the module. Yes I can :D And we were all in a GM bio report craze, but so glad to have finished it, and submitted it. Whew, but oh well, we'll have another report to do next week! Nooooo.

After school met Yang Peng for lunch, and we went off to take the goodie bag for HfH 2011! Gosh, 15 more days, totally can't wait for the event. While YP went home from Tiong, I went back to school to meet Nivedha. I though I could teach her more about lomo and about Diana F+ but... It's more complicated than I thought. So sorry I couldn't help you much eh :/

And then after that I went home, and... Rot the whole time. Oh gosh. Maybe that's why I'm feeling empty and stuff.

Anyway since I've nothing to do, I'm going to do this shuffle your itunes and fill up the following questions. Wow I'm that bored huh!

If someone says, “shelf”, you say? Promise of the world - Howl's Moving castle OST

How would you describe yourself? Dragon Boy - Spirited Away OST

What do you like in a guy/girl? Still Blue - Unknown artist :O

How do you feel today? Bubbly - Colbie Cailat (Kind of opposite actually)

What is your life’s purpose? Animal Instinct - The Cranberries

What's your motto? I'll Never Fall in Love Again - Dione Warwick [WTH![

What do your friends think of you? The Champions - Era (Thank you thank you!)

What do you think of your parents? Because of You - Neyo

What do you think about very often? Smiling Joey - Richard Clayderman (Hmm)

What is 2 + 2? Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence - Ryuichi Sakamoto

What do you think of your best friend? Flora's Secret - Enya

What do you think of the person you like? Wherever you are - Ulrich Schnauss

What is your life story? Human - The Killers

What do you want to be when you grow up? Firework - Katy Perry [Yaaaaay]

What do you think of when you see the person you like? The Riddle - Five for Fighting

What will you dance to at your wedding? Rainbow Veins - Owl City

What will they play at your funeral? Teenage Dream - Glee Cast Verion

What is your biggest fear? We Will Not Grow Old - Lenka [HAHAHA]

What is your biggest secret? Don't Let Go - David Archuletta

What will you post this as? If You Ever Come Back - The Script

Done :)

I learn something today: The happiest people don't have the best of everything, they make the best out of EVERYTHING!

57 more days to Inner Mongolia OCIP!

Disappointment

Well.. Second day of the week after MST. Some results have popped out, 2 to be exact and.. I/m not happy with one. And that's my lovely Biochem! The module which I think I've put so much effort into, I think even more, and I got my first ever C in my poly life from the MST of this module. It really hits me hard. I was expecting a 30/40, and I got 25.

It's a C. That's the bitter reality of poly. And what made it worst is seeing your friends enjoying their Bs and As. Oh well. I'm not a jealous kind of person. Like those "I hate you for getting an A/B" kind of person. I feel very happy for them, they've done well so yeah. Congratulations guys.

It hit me really hard when Mdm Mah asked me the question "What happened to you?"

And... I asked that to myself as well. What happened to myself? Why did this happen, how did this happen? Where is that old me who always score a decent result and why is there this me where I just pass my paper? 5 marks difference only.

I know people would call me an asshole for thinking that a C is not good enough. Of course I'm grateful enough for a C rather than an D or worst an E. But getting a C is not my target. I want to get at least a B. It's enough to keep me happy. A will be even better of course. But this is a C. It's a result I don't even think of. I didn't expect myself to get a C.

I don't know. Sometimes I feel I've lost that drive, that adrenaline I used to have in secondary school. Or perhaps it's just the studies that are getting tougher, and life is getting more mixed up and confused as well. I guess the older we grow, the more complex life gets and the more tougher it gets I suppose. And life isn't just life alone. Is studies, friends, personal, feelings and more.

It's hard for me to get back up from a setback. Takes me some days, and yeah. But nevermind. I will not let this setback hold me forever. I've did badly this time, next time, I'll do marvellously. Don't let fear become something you fear and an obstacle you're afraid of. Let it be a challenge that you will, and you shall overcome.

I've put so much efforts in Biochem. If something is wrong, then something is wrong. A term had went by, and I've learnt so much from it. There are things to improve. There are things to forget. But definitely, there are things we all should learn of. Lets go.

I'll do better. Watch me.

60 more days to Inner Mongolia OCIP! (2 more months :D)

Strings

It's 2:29 AM right now, and I'm not asleep. Not studying. Not doing anything but blog. And "Going to blog" was a phrase I told myself like 5 hours ago? What have I been doing? No one knows seriously. But anyway, hi! It's been a long time since I blogged and.. Yeah, whew, glad that MST is ALMOST over, yes I have one paper left on Monday. One last paper! :D

Hmm MST was... Alright I guess. Not gonna say I screw this and that (even though yes some of the paper were really tough) and neither am I gonna say I'm so gonna do well for this and that. Lets just hope for the best, I've given my best shot, so... Why bother thinking whether I'll screw this and score that? Just hope for the best! Heh

Friday was alright, I went for a movie outing with some of my DBS mates. We watched transformers! And it was awesome! But pretty draggy, not sure why but just draggy. And it lasted like 2h 45 minutes? A tad too long isn't it? I didn't know the movie was gonna be this long so I didn't go for the PTN :O So sorry to my DBS research! We didn't want to keep you all waiting :O

Anyway today or yesterday, or.. wait, three days ago AKA on Thursday, while studying with Nivedha, Chee Ming came and asked if I am able to play clarinet for a concert next Saturday. It's a music school concerts with strings (Y) and he asked me to play together with him, together with some other band peeps and SPSE people. And so I said yes! It's an awesome and great opportunity man :D

So today we had our first rehearsal at NP. It was our first time playing, and seeing the songs we gotta perform. Some the SPSB members are Cecillia, Zhen Yang, Sham and me, and Chee ming of course. And I think it's really great that we were able to play the song with only like a few hours of practice! And the musicians are sooooo cute haha, little children playing strings! How awesome is that, future musicians I suppose :)

This is my first time playing along together with a string ensemble. Even though our parts are really minor, like only for a few parts etc, it's really a great experience. And I mean, I don't really care of the length of my part, cause to me the experience is what I treasure the most. Being on that stage together with fellow musicians (young or old) and strings! It's like a dream come true.

Oh well if it were to be an orchestra, then one item of my life's to-do list is gone.

But nevermind! Good enough hehe. And I so can't wait for the actual concert next Saturday! :D

Anyway after that we all head home, and yup that's all for the day. During the rehearsal, the string ensemble was playing Explosive by Bond. I really love that song, and salute to the vioinists who are playing the melody part just now! I was really blown away :D And thanks to them I really fall in love with that song again, and... I tried it on the piano! Haha

My hand was so "sour" after playing, duh it's fast and rhythmically hard. My hand is pain now too hah. I shall show you the video recording of my playing one day :)

Alright 2:49, I gotta go and sleep! Planning to study tomorrow morning so yep! Lab Bio here I come! Shall tame you within a day haha. Bon nuit!

I guess music, is where my heart truly lies in?

62 more days to Inner Mongolia OCIP!