Being alone

No post tonight but photo again! :P

 

I'm sure in one part of our lives, we feel this way too yeah? 

Graduate lo!

Hello! Yup I know I'm kind of a few days late since the result was out yesterday haha but oh well here I am! Yup I have received my results for year 3, and I am very happy with it! I passed all my modules with soaring colours haha. Well I'm happy when I received the email on iChat. I can give myself a pat on my back and tell myself "hardwork paid off" :)

With results out, that would also mean that I have (un)officially graduated! Now that my result has secured a place in the graduation ceremony (now that I have a diploma awarded yay!), I just need to wait for the graduation ceremony where I'll be on my graduation gown and feeling happy yay. Ah man, I can't believe I am finished with poly once and for all. And that soon we'll all be graduating. I think the three years have been a wonderful one.

I must say across the three years, my GPA went up and down and down and up and up and UP. I'm glad that at the end of the three years, I have "returned" back to the GPA I got when I entered SP haha. Although I didn't maintain, the hardwork I put for year 3 was enough to pull up my GPA. So I'm really glad that I managed to do so.

As many of you all may know, I'm returning back to my homeland after poly. When I tell people my decision, most of them responded in a shock, and a handful of them never fail to spit out that sentence, which I found rather unnecessary. They would say "Wah you've wasted three years man"

Please don't ever spit that sentence out to me ever.

I really don't think I have wasted my three years. I have enjoyed my three years. I have learnt a lot in my three years. I have done a lot in my three years. I have GAINED a lot in my three years. Most importantly, I am very proud that I took a path I wanted to go to three years ago - only the future knows the future anyway. But I'm glad I took this path, a path I wanted to go and no one else. For then I was sure this path was the path.

Do you really think I have wasted my three years with the GPA (not meant to boast) I have now? If I graduate with a GPA of like 2.0, fine, then I must say I wasted my three years. But no, I learnt a lot and I really don't think I have wasted my time anyway.

Besides I always believe,

The things I gained, learnt and done in the past three years are too precious to be wasted.

I'm just sick of people telling me I have wasted this and that, when they don't know me. When they don't know the path I took and the life I've lived. So well my message is, don't say things that are unnecessary. Just like the good old saying, if you have nothing nice to say then don't say anything at all. I have a few friends who are not continuing on the field they studied and I don't tell them "hey! You've wasted three years congratulations!"

Well, life is just too short to not do the things you want to do. If you're unhappy with what you're doing now, change. Do the things you love before it gets too late.

Alright that's all from me tonight. I will talk to you soon! In the meantime,

Happy Graduation To All Year 3s!

One week

 Sunset today. 

My hometown possibly has the best sunsets ever

Hello, yes it's been one week since I got home... Last week (doh!) and well life's pretty much okay. Still trying to adapt to the new life here. I wouldn't say new but oh well I mean like "new" you get what I mean haha. And to also try to live with these new changes. Slowly but surely I'll get there. Anyway today was a great Saturday I guess?

There was an electricity shut-down in my town from 12 - 3 PM. I woke up to deafening silence. Just kidding but yes it was pretty quiet and it kinda feels nice actually. There was nothing but the sound of birds chirping and so on. Ate my brunch and as usual followed my dad to the office for a short chat. We then decided to go to the garden and this time round I promise to bring my camera.

CAUSE THE SUNSET WAS BEAUTIFUL!

Here's a few pictures I took of the sunset and some random shots we did with my sister, brother and sis-in-law! Really cool eh :D

My sis and sis-in-law jump shots

My brother jump shot! Love this one

 Lovely couple post-wedding shot mwahaha

I suck at jumpshot so this will do

Aren't the sky so lovely! Thankfully I brought my camera along with me cause there were so many times that I went here without the camera and the sky was so beautiful and I had nothing but my handphone, which takes decent photos but not so awesome ones. Plus I've not control over the handphone camera anyway :/ but oh well I'm glad I brought the camera today :)

Results will be out in about 3 days time! Are you excited? Cause I am. Hahaha. Not that I'm super confident that I will do well for my modules, just that I can't wait to taste the fruits of my labour! No matter what the taste is, but I hope with all my heart that it's going to be sweet. Cause I think I've worked hard, especially for FYP. That's the module I'm super interested about.

Well, I find it hard to find time to blog at times. Maybe I should adapt a one week one post... Or but well, I'll just blog whenever I can and whenever I find the time to. It's just weird to blog because, I don't know what to blog about. It all seems so surreal that I'm no longer a student. That's why I'm finding it hard to blog because there literally is nothing to blog about.

I definitely miss those days where I can blog about school. Funny things that happened in class, lessons or in school. Awesome experiments in labs that never fail to amaze me and so on. 

I miss those days when I blog about how much I'm going to miss those days

And to realise that those days have now turned to memories.

It's just too surreal

Hollow

 You'll never find a rainbow if you're looking down

-Charlie Chaplin-

Hi everyone! Currently writing this in my hometown. Yes I'm back, and... Things feel really different. Let me tell you more as I go along this post. I think life feels really different and so on, but life is life, and in three words we sum it as "it goes on". So I guess I'll just have to let things go and get used to this weird thing and then move along. I'll be just fine I suppose.

Well it occurs to me that since I got back here, I feel really empty, hollow. When I woke up on Saturday morning, things felt weird. I woke up with a realisation that although I'm here for a "holiday", I know that this holiday will end but it won't be followed with school. And I can put it that it will be followed by work. It feels very different and weird at the same time.

I woke up knowing that I will no longer have school at the end of this. That there's no assignment waiting for me to finish, or projects, or a new term waiting for me at the end of this holiday. I will no longer return to Singapore, to the life I've been living for the past three years for poly, or one year, for living alone. And all these realisation feels really weird.

So for the past two days, waking up feels like a really weird affair for me. Because of all of these thoughts. The feeling is so surreal and just weird.

A mixture of feelings I'm having.

Even throughout the day, my mind has been empty and just filled with all these thoughts that I'm having. For the past two days, it's been a day-dreamy one for me. Whereby I think of the future, reminisce the past but at the same time, reminding myself that life can only be lived to the fullest when we live in the present. Ironic much but yes, that's the truth right?

I guess it all comes down to once again, one of the three principles of existence in Buddhism. The contemplation of impermanence. I'm pretty sure this is just a stage that I'm going through. The transitional stage from my life in Singapore and my life here back at home. And like everything else, it will not exist forever and it will one day come to an end. I'll just wait.

Nevertheless, I seriously miss my life in Singapore. And to just think of how much I'm going to miss it even more in the future just hurts me more. But once again, the three words that can sum up life - it goes on. And I always remember a saying from a Tibetan video I found in Youtube too.

A foetus in a mother's womb cannot past longer than its intended pregnancy. 

Which means, like I said, nothing can last forever.

Oh well I'll just need time to adapt I suppose. So in the meantime, I'll just wait.

The end of a chapter

 Two luggages and also

Myriads of memories and stories

Hello everyone, oh gosh it's been quite a long time since I last wrote here. But anyway here I am once again at Changi Airport writing this. My flight has been delayed for another 30 minutes so I have more time and thus I can write here! Yay. Now that "holiday" has officially begun I will... Try to write here more often okay hehe. So yup I'm coming back home!

Well although I'm not coming back home for good for I will still come back here for a few events, the next time I'm going back to Singapore will feel different. There won't be school or classes to look forward to, no nerves from assignments and presentations I have to do, no more excitement for some random events. Basically I'm no longer a student. I'm coming back as... A tourist?

But being tourist, I still regard Singapore as my second home. After all I've been studying here for the past 11 years. Writing, creating, forging and living myriads of stories and memories. It's like I've lived here for literally half of my life. So how can I not make this sunny island my second home? Singapore will always have a place in my heart, wherever I go.

How apt that an instrumental version of Home by Kit Chan is playing now...

I can't believe that eleven years have gone by so quickly. It feels like the first time I came here to study in 2002 was just a few years ago. I still remember that day where me and my mum came to Singapore. We took a Garuda flight here in the afternoon. Then my brother and sister fetched us from the airport and I was really excited and nervous at the same time about my time here.

Then I entered primary school in Peitong, then secondary school in Tanglin and last but not least, I just finished my education in SP, soon to graduate. As I'm writing this, it feels like all these scenarios are now playing in my head like a reel tape. Like flashback, a movie that is playing and playing. And this movie will always be in my mind, in my heart.

These 11 years of memories and stories will always be in my heart and in my mind. These years will definitely be the highlight of my life and the best 11 years of my life. I have built a lot of things here. I have built a life that I have lived that made who I am today. And I will definitely bring this wherever I go as I grow up. And become a better person.

Alright, my flight call has been made. I will see you soon in my hometown! :)

Thank you, my dearest piano

 Cherish

So well I realised once again that I haven't been writing here for quite a long time. Well to be honest I've been feeling... As my 2nd previous post says, empty. Don't wanna do anything at night and so on and forth. And also the past week was such a blast that I didn't really write much heh. Besides, I'm busy with quite a lot of things. So these should explain I suppose.

But anyway, today was probably one of the saddest day in my life. And last night too.

Well so today I delivered my piano (or electrical piano) to Jesslyn. Yes to those of you who wonder who am I giving it to, it's to Jesslyn. It's been done now so my room feels really empty. And to be in an empty room without my piano by my side just feels so bizarre and weird. But nevertheless, it's gone now, and I am cherishing it more than ever.

I still remember back in 2007 when my sis and I went to Yamaha to get it. After looking around we finally decided to get the P-70 cause it was one of the cheaper ones. I was there waiting for it to be delivered to the house and since then, I've been playing it, enjoying my time.

Then of course come the realisation by which I know I have to one day leave. And so I'm left with two choices. To sell/donate it, or to give it to someone. Selling it was the last thing on my mind and I was trying hard to find someone who would accept it. I can't bear to sell it. To sell something I've treasured for the past 6 years. It's like selling a friend away, no one wants to do that right? I would rather give it to someone who will treat it well and let my heart be at peace.

But well,

The piano is really a non-living thing that is really as living and as good a friend can be. When I'm sad he cheers me up, when I'm angry he calms me down. When I have problems I share it with him. Although he doesn't give me the solution, at least he has a pair of good "listening ears" that keeps me company. He's there, when no one is not.

With the position of my piano right in front of my window, I truly will cherish the moments we had. How I love playing in front of the blue sky, cause it makes me feel like I can do anything. We play songs, play covers, write songs and sing together. Many moments we had together which makes my life here so much better, and much more colourful.

So last night I was feeling so horrible. I was playing my piano for quite some time to enjoy our last moments together, you can put it that way. But after playing a song, which was "The Name of Life" by Joe Hisaishi, from Spirited Away OST, I cried. Like I cried so bad in front of the piano. I didn't know it was so tough and bad but well, it actually felt good crying.

But as I always believe in the contemplation of impermanence, all good things come to an end.

So I just want to thank you, my dearest piano, for being everything in many ways.

For being a great friend, a good listening ear, a wonderful teacher. Thank you for your time, lessons and accompany for the past 6 years. You have definitely strengthen my love for the piano and also for music. May you bring joy to your new owner, as much as you did to me for the past 6 years. It's been a great time knowing you, and now till we meet again.

 

Thank you