Thirty One

Right so today I turned thirty one. And seriously it's the most basic, normal day ever haha. I guess as I grow older birthdays are really just a normal day. It's not some special days. Perhaps with the tiny celebration and wishes and so on, but mostly it's just another day. Also maybe cause of work.

And that today is a Monday.

I guess despite today being a normal day, I do feel thankful and reflective too, of all of these years that I went through. Especially the past 3 years. The three years that nobody wanted to go through but here here we are now! I'm thankful for all of the lessons, and everything that I went through.

Although I do have to say that 31 is a special year for me. Cause I am closing one chapter of my life, while a new one is dawning upon me. It's a weird chapter and part of my life. But I guess this is life.

I think having one more number increased in your age makes you think how incredible, absurd and amazing life is. And I think life is the art of processing all of this together. Making sense of things even though sometimes you don't know how to make sense of it all. Isn't this life in its best?

Confusing, remarkable and empty.

I think I've been struggling with some sort of existential crisis in the past few years. I've been struggling with the idea of being here. Like why am I here even though I didn't ask to be here (no one asks too). But well I guess this year I have accepted the fact that yes perhaps life is indeed meaningless.

But we can do something about it!

Despite all this meaninglessness, I feel that there lies an energy, a driving force that can turn this all around. Sure life is meaningless, but what can we do with it is all that matters.

We can choose to lament at this tragedy of being here, or we can also make the best out of our time here. At the end of the day we're human beings. We don't have a lot (or no) control about many things. But part of this life? Our mind? We surely can control them.

I guess I want to spend 31 celebrating the absurdity of life. Despite all the challenges, the things that don't make sense, hey, I'm here. And I guess that's incredible enough to keep me going.

As always I'd like to remind myself that there are many things I've yet to see.

Many stories I've yet to write, and many places I've yet to be in.

Happy Birthday.