Was making my way to the temple today in the evening. The sky looks dark and overcast but along the way I see a streak of pink in the sky. And as I continued to drive, the pink gets brighter and brighter and boom, there was this big patch of pink in the sky. The sky looks gorgeous really.
I don't know. I'm just suddenly thinking of hope. There's a slither of hope that can appear out of nowhere. Just like this patch of pink clouds that appear out of the dark and overcast sky.
I miss being in wide open spaces
I miss being in places I've never been in
I miss breathing in the air of strange lands
I miss seeing the unfamiliar
Even though I'm traversing through
the unfamiliarity of life itself
Somewhere in Inner Mongolia // 2011
Hello! Here's my Blogtober entry for the day. I decided to try doing one of the Isolation Journal (IJ) prompt for today. And I do this by generating a random number and seeing which prompt the number lands on my folder haha. Today's number is 72!
Your prompt is:
This is what the living do...
Use this line from Marie Howe's poem an inspiration - perhaps as the opening sentence of your journal entry, or as a poetic refrain. Reflect on the mundane; revel in the glorious everyday details of living.
This is what the living do
Living in the comforting illusion
of the ebb and flow of ignorance
Floating on the sea of suffering
But not asking for help
Not save themselves
This is what the living do
Doing everything they could
To try and prove their worth
To try and tell they're right
Even though they're wrong
Without knowing, without thinking
This is what the living do
Thinking they own this planet
When it's the planet that owns them
Exploiting the hell out of it
Without realising they're releasing
hell from doing it.
This is what the living do
Hating each other,
With no logical reason
whatsoever
Living in an imaginary fear
Of the false things they hear
This is what the living do
But we can always change
We can always improve
What we do wrong
There's time to save ourselves
Only if we want to
Right as mentioned yesterday, I might do something crazy this month.
I'm going to attempt Blogtober this year!
Yes to make up for the lost posts that I should be writing in the last two months, I think it's a good idea to do this challenge. Also I hope my "more humane" sleeping patterns are going to make this a breeze. Also perhaps I need to go back to blogging. Not gonna lie, I kinda miss blogging!
Anyway there are no rules for this year's Blogtober. I'm not going to write a list of posts to write, but I'm just going to attempt writing everyday. I do have some inspiration and ideas for this year's Blogtober.
Firstly as usual I might look out for ideas and blog prompts. Prompts have been kinda my saviour in blogging. But I'm not going to make a list of it. Also there are lots of ideas for Blogtober too!
Secondly I'm thinking of writing prompts from the Isolation Journal project. Not sure if I've talked about this before but year Isolation Journal is a project started by Suleika Jaouad last year, when the world went into lockdown. I've been receiving journaling prompts and I kept them in a special folder in my email. So I'm going to use some of the prompts to write in this month. I do write some of them on my journal as some of the questions can be pretty personal at times!
Last but not least, as usual, I'm going to post some photos that I take, music, posts, articles and so on.
Alright let Blogtober 2021 start today! I wonder what I will write tomorrow. Okay I'm kind of cheating cause I didn't write a Blogtober post yesterday but well, lets count it as a post haha.
See you!
Hello hello hello.
Look who's back after not blogging for TWO MONTHS!
Look who's back after missing his blog's 13th anniversary?!
It's me. I'm back again HAHAHA.
Okay sorry for the cheesy intro but yes I'm here again and oh my goodness what have I been doing! I've been so busy that I neglected this space for two months. Once again I don't wanna explain why, you know the reason! But okay maybe I'll give you an update for a while.
Firstly as always yes I've been busy. September was truly an intense month. Both in terms of work and emotionally. Shall not explain why. August was also quite a crazy month. In fact I think 2021 has been a crazy year. And I'm glad I made it this far. July was a dark month for Indonesia, where we saw crazy amount of cases. Thankfully things are slowing down now. For the first time in... I don't know how long, we're seeing under 2000s cases daily. That's a big improvement.
Next, I've also been changing my sleeping habit. I think I should be happy that I'm sleeping earlier now. I've been sleeping at 2-3 AM now, and of course waking up earlier. Cause in the morning I usually have meetings. And also I've been enjoying doing work in the morning actually. But I've been trying to stay awake at night/afternoon cause somehow I usually feel sleepy then. But there are some days where I'm back to my weird sleeping times. But I try my best to be "humane" again haha.
Anyway yes that's kind of a mini update.
We're now down to the last 3 months of the year. I hope we're going to write an awesome epilogue of this year! But as COVID has taught me, we need to be prepared for everything. Just really do your best and give your best shot in everything. Life should be in your favour. Like I said in the previous years, every year seems to be going faster and faster, faster than the year before. Perhaps it's just growing old, perhaps it's us getting busier. Or maybe it's just a law of the universe.
Alrighty that's all from me today. I might try to do something crazy this month. See you tomorrow!
Hello hello hello, look who's back after one month! Gosh, I think my prediction of going to blog one post A MONTH is coming true haha. Okay, ya'll know the reason. I'm going to skip the explanation.
Anyway yes I just turned 29. This is crazy, like where did time go to man. This is the 2nd birthday of my life in a pandemic heh. It's weird, 2020 was quite a rather weird year to turn 28 and now I think it's even a weirder time to turn 29. To be honest, I really have no-feels in this birthday. As usual it's just another day. A day of growing older. I think so many things have happened in this year that my birthday just becomes another day. And I think that's fine, not that I'm someone who celebrates it either.
In fact I actually forgot it's my birthday heh. Like on the 16th I know it's the 16th, but that's it. I didn't really think about what's gonna happen the next day. And I like to keep it that way.
My birthday went on as per normal Saturday. Went to work as usual, and just had a mini celebration with the office people of our housing project (thanks for the pudding!). And yeah that was it.
I always say this again and again, every year. The older I grow, the more clueless I get to think about turning a year older. It's just another day, another year. And as I have learned last year, it's a year closer to my death. So a reminder of our own impermanence and at the same time the beauty of life too. It's a weird year for all of us. I think this whole pandemic has taught us of how fragile life can be. And it made me do a lot of retrospect and reflection. About the meaning of being alive.
29 years is a pretty long time for sure. I have learned a lot and everything about who I am now has definitely to do with everything I have been through. They say we are still continuously shaping our lives and identity till we're 40? That's when life seems to plateau (as in we can't learn and do much) and then we get better and better at whatever we're doing then. 30, is still a time of experiments.
I think the biggest lesson I've learned so far, is really impermanence? That everything is constantly changing. It never stays the same. And thus, anything can happen. And when I mean anything, I mean anything. And I feel like at the end of the day, our job is to really walk through this sea of change. And adapt, and just live through it. Be prepared for what's coming, but at the same time walk through with the idea that this is not your final destination. Things can, will, and always change.
I haven't really thought of what to write for this birthday of mine. No sophisticated posts and stuff. Perhaps I'll write them down in my journal first. I am however kind of excited to walk towards the big three-O? I don't know, like I'm just excited to see how life will turn out. Although in some days life seems bleak and so on. But, I believe there's always a way. And where I am is where I'm supposed to be!
Alright that's all from me now. I hope this is not my last post of July haha. As always, stay safe and take care! I think I need to do another post on life update soon. See you again!
